[Petscop]

every time i think im getting better or that im anything better as a person it turns out im just as bad or even worse.
nothing i do seems to fix anything and im always going to pathetic and angry and that's just how things are
it doesn't matter how open i am during therapy or how many days i spend in in-patient, i'm always going to be this
i don't know why i try when it never works. why i keep talking when i should shut up. why i eat when it hurts. why i wake up.
im tired

[KestrelTheFirecat]

This is so cool petscop

I really like the use of greys and blacks

[broker]

I don't think I could have the right words if I tried so I'll just -hugs-

I hope you feel safe and feel better.. lovely drawing btw.

[wishbone!]

It is an instinct of all living things to survive. And even if you can't feel the rewards right now, you are doing yourself an incredible service by keeping yourself going. I'm really proud of you Paul! I know a lot of people who are in similar positions and they are putting in so much effort to continue forward, just like you :^) Please trust that things will stop hurting as bad as you continue moving forward. Be it because you can find something good to latch onto, or that eventually everything else just blurs the stress of existing in a malfunctioning world.

Don't stop talking! Don't stop nourishing yourself! Keep some plane of normalcy to build upon. You'll be better one day, just gotta keep your eyes open and your heart occupied like a child's. There are an endless number of things to focus on and feel healed from, but it's ok that we're not always occupied with them.

[Petscop]

I appreciate ya'll's words a lot :'') thank you