[huddson]

i wanted to name this "i think there's something wrong with me and there's nothing wrong with that" but it was too long
with recent therapy and stuff, i realized that i'm very likely schizospec, and at the very least i most definitely experience delusions, and that i have for years. so now i'm looking through old memories and i'm realizing that the belief i had in 7th grade about belonging to another world and waiting for my dad to come pick me up? that was a delusion. the fact that i'm constantly being watched? probably a delusion. something i don't want to go into detail about last December? most definitely a delusion. i'm trying to re-evaluate everything that i've done or believed for the past several years. it's kinda scary. i don't know what to make of it