TheComfortCorner | V.9

[crucifying.]

i had to put my cat that i’ve had for 16 years down a few hours ago. i’m so sad. i miss her so much. i just want to hold her one more time.

[onion]

you know why does it matter because nobody cares what i think...

[halo7]

i hate having bpd. i overreact over the smallest things
wish i could go back in time before THAT ever happened
would be better if i never had any friends
i literally havent felt this bad in forever
i know youre watching me i know youre watching me i know youre watching me
stop watching me
youre gross
youre creeps
youre freaks
stop looking at me like that
youre all
ill never escape

[dog motif]

why do you have to always swoop in and take everything from me. i thought I could enjoy this. but no. you just had to go ruin the one thing ive been looking forward to as well. why dont you listen to me, ever? dont you realise youre hurting me by this point?

please dont pm me about this. if you really want to reply, please reply on this thread.

[grey matter]

So! This is going to be much more mild than everyone else's troubles but eh, I need to vent and honestly...
Turns out, when instructed to, I cannot write a poem of my own emotions in a decent manner. It's... madness.
I'm exhausted from it now. But I have more schoolwork.
I am a great poet.
I just don't follow commands well.
Hell, I bet if I sent my poem to someone they'd be like "wow this is good, jade" like they always do but this was just tiring and I feel like it's some of my worse work because I was forced to write it.
Really, I don't like it at all.
It gave me a headache trying to write about my emotions on command because I wasn't feeling any at that moment so once exhaustion kicked in I just revved my motors up and I started writing about my displeasure with this prompt.
Hah!
...I could use a break.
I don't even know what would be an effective one.

[ghostie✞]

oh yeah, i bet hurting me and treating me like the scum of the earth hurt you so bad. oh how i feel so bad for you

[Serious.]

I went to a small bachelorette party a few days ago. The bride's sister wasn't feeling well, but of course I'm dumb enough to ignore the warning sirens in my brain and just go anyways.

Sure enough, as you might have guessed, she tested positive.

I hate when I don't know what's going to happen next. I don't really care if I test positive as well because I don't really interact with many people anyways. But my dad has a terrible immune system, I'm so scared that if he catches it he won't make it. He's been having health problems recently (unrelated to covid) and it just scares me a lot. Our family would fall apart if he doesn't survive. I can't deal with that.

Yeah I might be overreacting but I told myself not to worry about her catching covid and look where that brought me.

Okay I'm done being serious now.

[JustLivinTheDream]

Hello!

I’ve been stuck in a predicament for the past few days and would appreciate any help I could get. I’ve always loved the idea of witchy vibes and stuff like that but also pastel colors have always been my favorite too. I recently found out there is a sort of style/culture called pastel goth. I’ve never wanted to be something more in my life. I need opinions if I should continue through with it or not. Feel free to pm me or reply. Thank you!!

[Howl's Moving Castle]

honesly im fed up with this game. the trading system is wack. i at the point of quitting this game its fustrating that i rarly get a good trade anymore where we both agree on the offer. when i joined this game it seems so fun but now im just fed up with most of the people one here.

[connoisseur]

I'm so exhausted. Not because of school. Because of my parents. It's always my parents. They are always torturing me with their inconsideration and carelessness. I do not want to feel like this anymore because of them. I'm so tired of it. I'm so tired of feeling guilty for just being upset over their actions. Is it wrong of me to be upset and unnerved by something they consider 'good intentions'? Is it wrong for me to just be hurt over something they think I'd like? That I'd love? For so long. For so long I have dealt with their issues and pushed my trauma aside at their convenience. I've played nice with them. I've held my words for so long. I just wanted
for them to once. Just once sit down and think about who I really am. Who my sister really is. How we really feel. What they really did to us. How that must've affected us. But of course they haven't. Of course they never will. Of course, to them, but hurt and pain is a mistake they made, but only to them is it something they say is 'stirring the pot.' To them, when I for once go against their careless and thoughtless actions, when my feelings are different from what they thought, when I tell them how I really feel, all it is. Is 'stirring the pot.' Apparently, years of hurt they've inflicted on me are drama. It is so like them to really show their true colors. It is so like them. In reality, they must see what they've done as a lake in my head, undisturbed. And when I say, just once, how I really feel,in my entire LIFE of knowing them, they only see it was the waters being disturbed. Of course they do. It so funny to me. They are so ignorant yet aware. It is like they know the depth of the lake they created, what they've set loose in the lake to lurk, yet they only feel bad that they've disturbed the mess they created in the first place. They don't want to admit their responsibility. I feel so guilty of feeling upset like this. I am convinced that I overreacted, that I am sensitive. But I am just so tired. I am so fed up that I have had to act more like an adult than my parents. The worst part is the two-sentence apology over text. How am I to feel when one of them says they feel miserable before apologizing? Should that make me want to forgive them? Even when I shouldn't? Should I continue to try and explain why I feel remorse for the things they've done when they never have for me? And it is like a comedy. It is so funny to me. The irony of it all. Of it all.

Sorry. This was just a rant. I'm doing fine. I'll get over it. Sooner or later. I'll sort this out myself. Like usual.