xxxxxmeixiang all but purred at the hand on her head and the sound of ivan’s voice, the vibrations of it against her ear sent shivers down her spine. it felt nice, almost too nice. she let out a pleased sigh, almost missing completely what ivan was saying, her tiredness blurring the words together a little, but she managed to understand most of it. “so cruel,” she whined playfully, turning her head to look up at him, lips dangerously close, “unlike you, i’m actually trying not to fail my classes. if i’m to be tortured, then so be it.” she jabbed back at him, though watching him practice instead of doing homework did sound appealing. she made a point to attend all his games, and the occasional practice session of his as well, just to give him that sense of support from her. it even came to the point where she would skip out on finishing homework just to go watch him at one of his games. the sap.
xxxxxshe pushed the obvious call out on herself to the back of her mind, she didn’t need to be constantly reminded that she had feelings for the boy that she was too scared to voice, especially knowing their whole relationship was a lie, not that anyone apart from them knew this. but she liked moments like this; harsh, teasing words exchanged between them, moments of rare intimacy. if the lie between them continued, it would eventually become a truth, she told herself. anf though she was technically correct, there was also the possibility that ivan would break things off before the line between truth and lie had blurred, and meixiang knew she wouldn’t be able to do anything about it. they both agreed that either one of them could break this… thing that they had off at any time. no hard feelings.
xxxxxeither way, she was completely screwed.
xxxxxthe fire alarm was still blaring in the background, a headache brewing at the back of her head, which didn’t bode well with how tired she was. she dropped her head to rest against ivan’s shoulder with a heavy sigh, her body screaming at her to either rest properly or get her fix of caffeine before she outright collapsed on herself. “i want coffee after this, by the way,” she muttered, “please.” she added quietly, more as an afterthought if anything.
xxxxxdid she even have the time to go on an impromptu coffee date with ivan right now? probably not. she had another day packed with classes starting in about an hour or so, hence she had gone into the club room this morning to grab her coffee, deeming the on-campus coffee shop and any other coffee shop near the campus unreliable. she didn’t like to wait in queues when she wanted coffee, the coffee machine in the journalism club room was a much faster and easier option. though, she only realised this now, she had a completely useable and reliable coffee machine back at her apartment. it had completely slipped her mind that morning, eagerly leaving the apartment in favour of the club room. you couldn’t blame her, the room had basically become her default residence now, it was your best bet at finding her if she wasn’t answering any of her calls or text messages. after four years (now the fifth) of using it, she’d grown attached to it, very clearly so.
xxxxxah, that reminded her. it was indeed her fifth year at the university. it was a little unsettling to say the least, she had grown so accustomed to this place and area, and wasn’t too sure which direction she was heading in after graduation. obviously, she wanted to go into journalism, that was the main plan, but where exactly did she want to go? she could stay in the local area, but she also wanted to aim a little bigger, land herself a good job internationally. she knew she could do it, with her knack for languages, and her skillset too, it wouldn’t be hard for her to acquire a job that she wanted. but did she want to leave behind the people here?
xxxxxof course, she would probably be able to escape the hell that was the f4, which was always a plus. the boys were always on her ass about something, mainly because of the fact that she always had something to say about them on her blog. it was fun to rile them up, and either way, she never posted anything too bad that would ruin their reputations completely. though she knew that she had that potential power, she knew that they had their dirty tactics too.
xxxxxher main concern was leaving ivan behind, she wasn’t completely sure of what their future held, but she didn’t want to lose contact with him. though their relationship is in fact fake, she didn’t deny that she considered him a close friend, closer than most of her friends (for obvious reasons) but also because she’s been more open with him than she had been with anyone else, for some reason. she held a solid trust in him, even though she knew that she probably shouldn’t, but it was still there all the same. but who knows? they had a future ahead of them, even if it’s a future just as friends rather than lovers, and she would be ok with that. she knew that they’d probably have busy lives after graduation, meixiang with journalism and ivan with hockey. it wasn’t looking too optimistic.
xxxxxshe had the urge to give up, but she also wanted to upkeep her reputation of always getting what she wants, the two ideas clashing in her head. but for now, she wanted to focus on the present, and the moment that she was in right now. even though she was beyond exhausted, the intimate, though she used that term loosely, moment was something that she craved and cherished, in a way not wanting to let go of ivan until her craving of intimacy was fulfilled, and god only knew when that would happen, because she constantly felt attention starved, despite the fact that she received attention and affection on the daily. and not just from ivan, but from her other close friends too. she was spoiled in that sense.
xxxxxanother current concern was the fire alarm, which as this point, she was convinced that some student had set off. who was it? she had a small idea, but she knew that one way or another her suspicions would be confirmed, even if she had to bribe innocent bystanders for answers, she was determined to find out.