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[Winstalgia]

my closest friend I have known for 4 or so years decided a bit ago she didnt want to associate w me anymore.

For context, my sister made a joke about death. It was obvious it was light hearted. My friend didnt like this and was offended by it. Which, btw, NO ONE knew she was sensitive to jokes like that, she literally is passive aggressive and never speak up abt anything

My friend asked me if I found the joke funny, I said yeah, kinda, but it was mainly cause of the emojis used and bc it was my sister saying it.

My friend got PISSED at me and decided she doesnt like me and wants to throw out a FOUR YEAR friendship.

I laugh at stuff sometimes, so what, sue me. I cant control whatever I laugh at all the time

And then she said that all of my other traits and qualities are outweighed by me laughing at that one dAMN JOKE

Shes talking to her parents but she said shes leaning towards no for being friends w me and I amlivid

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[Spearow]

just typed like a whole page and deleted it because its too cringe and i sound like a broken record.

to summarize:

i have a raging headache, my wisdom teeth are killing me, i'm having a fallout with my "best friend", i take my kitty to the vet tomorrow to see if he has squamous cell carcinoma cancer, and i work tonight and i guarantee my coworkers left all the end of the month stuff for me to do.

anyways, idk what to do but try to enjoy my day before work cuddling with my boy, and eating some miso & tofu soup which tastes amazing. so at least there is that. couldn't show a recent picture of my kitty because its too graphic and that kind of hits hard. picture is from last week or so before his nose got bad

Edit; he's napping now and posed for a photo so you can't see his nose. my best sleepy boi <3 wish him luck tomorrow. he so fluffy

[yharnam boy]

i bought earplugs and i'm using them right now, but i still hear these stupid basses, and it's driving me insane.

[jutdwae]

i bought earplugs and i'm using them right now, but i still hear these stupid basses, and it's driving me insane.

If you haven't done it, maybe try talking to them? (wait your talking about the basses from your neigbors right?) Idk.

[yharnam boy]

i bought earplugs and i'm using them right now, but i still hear these stupid basses, and it's driving me insane.

If you haven't done it, maybe try talking to them? (wait your talking about the basses from your neigbors right?) Idk.

it's impossible to talk to these people, this is in the works since months now, the police and landlord are on it, but it takes endlessly.

[basil!]

i get so scared sometimes that things will never get better.
is this the kind of life im going to live? is this the best things are going to get? am i just going to have to deal with these painful, overwhelming, almost unbearable feelings for the rest of my life?
it's quite a sad life to live, isn't it.
i still have some tendril of hope for the future. i dont want it to be extinguished. its all i have right now.
i dont want to be trapped like this forever. i dont want to be mentally ill, broken, whatever. i dont want any of this.
it feels like things just get worse and worse every year. i want some miracle cure. i want to feel okay again.
i want to do more than survive every day. i want to live. i want to be able to do all the things i want to do.
sigh. im so tired.
i just want to be normal.

[Yibeullin]

everyone always talks to me. and i'm fine with that, i love helping if i can. but if i talk to anyone i'm suddenly needy and spoiled even though i hold the weight of everyone else and myself. even the one person who told me they didn't care how much i'd complain, left me. oh my i just ruin everything don't I? i have so many things i want to apologize for..

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[viles]

• i'm can't do this anymore.
  update no one cares about: nevermind i can. i saw a meme about doing a certain something to a certain owner of amazon, and it made me realize that if i can do nothing else with my existence, i can scream things like "eat the rich" until i run out of oxygen and my lungs collapse. at least i have a goal now lol.