TheComfortCorner | V.9

[vi‎ ‎]

[Spearow]

just got the news that a friend i went to school with
is dead, and i don't know how to process it. that's the
second classmate this year

[.bluejay.]

the last 24 hours or so have just been comically terrible, like the kind of day you see in a cartoon where just everything that can go wrong will go wrong. it sucks.

[Howl's Moving Castle]

love having a mental break down on my birthday and crying because im such a bad person apparently according to my bf.

[Spearow]

you know i really just don't understand life.
i know i just posted earlier but i need to get
this out. i've lost two old friends this year.
one this week and the other two months ago.
he got ran over on his birthday, and the other
just died "suddenly" (his family won't say what
happened.)

we're still so young. so why are my classmates
who always had a smile on their face for everyone
the ones that are dying? like people that actually
enjoyed life and families and had goals and were
happy. then here i am, anxious when i go to sleep
anxious when i get up. don't get along with my family,
i hate my job i'm not happy. i have no aspirations. so why
do bad things keep happening to people who are enjoying
their lives and have super close-knit families and friends.
it really makes no sense and makes me feel a weird pang
of guilt, like why them and not me?

edit; literally just got scolded for crying by my mom,
because we already "talked about this earlier". oh so
apparently there is a set time period to be upset that
someone you've known for like eight years died. what
kind of twisted logic is that? so i can't be sad that he is
dead when i just found out today? what?

[Taf900]

I'm in this ideal relationship right like I never feel like I have anything to complain abt. But these last couple weeks have been super tensious because she'll be going back to school and I'm staying home. I dont know how long it will be before I'll see her again but I'm trying to figure out things to do with her. Two weeks ago she went to a party with some medical residents and got sick like potentially covid and so I wasnt allowed to see her. She leaves in two days. So two more weeks turned into one more day (just tomorrow). Which I'm super grateful that we get that still. But she's getting stressed about school and has basically flat out told me she doesn't have time to talk to me even though she spends hours watching TV every day. She's gotten short and I'll ask her how things are bc I know they are super stressful right now and shell answer with a couple words basically to cover it all up.

I guess I'm feeling like I'm putting in way more than she is and I don't want to feel that way like it makes me feel bad to even think that and she can be really sensitive so I have a hard time talking to her about some of this stuff.

I mentioned stuff about the party stuff to her and how it hurt that she knowingly took that risk and she broke down feeling like everything is all her fault and I never want her to feel like that.

Idk I just need to get that out and I can't talk to my other close friend bc she had a crush on me until I basically got her Baker acted. Like we're good now but it hurts her for me to talk abt this to her.

Thanks for listening I guess

[acura,]

my boyfriend and I broke up.

I found that he messaged his ex back in April saying he missed what they had and he wanted to know if she missed him and what they had.
He said he didn’t think about her anymore. But I know he does. So I just broke it off and it was mutual and we’re still friends.

He’s done this to me twice in our 9 month relationship. I feel empty and hurt.

[breezey]

[tifa]

lmao im such a screwup all i do is suck and die

[woes]

It feels like everything I do or say is a cry for help at this point.
God, I feel so hopeless.
Why doesn’t anything help?
years of suffering and for what?
I don’t know what to do anymore.