TheComfortCorner | V.9

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[kísmet]

just had a moment to think about how disappointed my mom must have been when she realized that this is her child. i’d be disappointed as well. i’ve done nothing but make things worse in this family and i hate that i cant go back. i hate that i cant change how i was born, change how i grew up and acted. i’m disgusting, she didn’t say it but i know i’m just an embarrassment to her. i cant believe, with all i’ve put others through, i still go out and wish harm on them or want attention and sympathy to come towards me. it’s pathetic, i deserve to be treated like dirt, not them. this is my fault and the fact that i blame my emotions and actions on others and don’t own up to it is disgusting and pathetic. i run from and try to ignore everything like a coward, and then wonder why things are bad for me, i deserve this, i deserve to feel this way. i know everyone says this but i’m just ashamed, i’m a burden and i wish i could just let go already, things will be better that way, i know it. i don’t deserve attention, i don’t deserve help in any way. i’m not sick, i’m just an embarrassment, i’m a selfish, attention seeking, lying, toxic coward and a waste. a waste of money, food, time, space. and i’m glad i’m finally acknowledging it.

[TwilightBard]

I just want to be able to finish my drawings. My depression won't let me and I keep having mental breakdowns while trying to draw.

[cribunni]

i don't have any friends.
i just walk around school all
day and don't talk to anybody.
i've tried so hard but i just can't.
i'm terrified.

[nickjr]

This is a GIF of a short (1 minute and 14 seconds) YouTube video's "Audience retention" section in Analytics. There's a graph with time on the x-axis and percentage of retained viewers on the y-axis, and it also displays the average view duration. The image is a GIF because the cursor hovers over "Audience retention" to show the following information: "How well your video keeps people watching. Viewership data for each moment of your video can help you to understand how to keep viewers engaged."

So according to this, YouTube tracks which seconds in a video people view.

I am extremely disturbed.

I see nothing about consenting to this kind of tracking in the Terms of Service. And, of course, there's nothing about whether this is purely information or if it impacts anything like whether the video is recommended to others.

This is CS, so I will limit my rant to just this.

On a slightly lighter note, I wish I saw this earlier, because this would definitely prompt some serious discussion among my classmates in one of my classes last semester.

(edit: just to clarify, I'm not surprised. But that doesn't mean I'm not disturbed.)

[rui-kun]

idk why I just got,, really sad all of a sudden. am I not good enough? do I not make people happy? am I actually really bad at what I do, and I just get pity smiles? will I ever be good? have I ever been good? does my art make others wince or laugh? am I looking at a golden mirror, while others are looking at a broken one? I know I'll never be as good as them, but will I ever be good at all?

[woes]

God, what am I doing here?
What am I doing here?
I don’t deserve to be here.
I don’t want to be here.
I shouldn’t be here.
I’m so tired of this.

[ford]

my dysphoria is so bad.

so so so so so so bad.
i really am just a stupid, delusional girl, aren't i?

(everyone knows it anyway.)

i make no effort to look like a guy. none at all.
long hair. dyed hair. i still like skirts and pretty shirts and it's not helping my case, is it?

never had much of a case to begin with.

i'm never going to pass. always just a silly, silly little girl.

[venti]

I need everyone to read this.

You deserve love!
Stop thinking you don't.


I know this is short, but if you need to talk, my PMs are open ^^

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