TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Howl's Moving Castle]

You ever just watch tik toks under the #toxicparents tab and realize your dad matches 95% percent of them. Then you watch more and watch one about what it can do to the child and realized you're so messed up and hurt due to your father's horrible parenting. i hate who i am and where i am after that. im broken and i dont think ill ever be fully fixed even if i have a family of my own. Now im just having a mental break down wondering what life would be like if i had a real father i know i wouldnt have been such a mess up. idk what to do.

[saintesque]

hahaa-- i know my mental health is getting worse because the
stress cardiomyopathy is returning. it's not bad enough to keep me from everyday activities this time,
but i'm tired of crying and having my feelings disregarded
would it be that hard to swallow your pride and apologize for Once?

[viles]

• it's been four months since my dad was diagnosed with parkinson's. i've struggled on and off with his health, mainly because it's basically like he's deteriorating right before my eyes. every day, he forgets something new; it's as if the person he was is slowly getting lost in the sea of his own mind. he's still my dad and i will always love him, but it's killing me to see him like this.

[autumnsoundtrack]

My childhood dog is dying. She has bone cancer in her leg, and can't even walk properly anymore. I fly back to my hometown on Monday to say goodbye. It doesn't feel real, and part of me doesn't want to go because if I don't go then it's just not real. But I have to go, because she is my loving, loyal dog and deserves for me to be there. I have to say goodbye or I'll regret it forever. God I'm such a bawling mess.

[death in june]

i just looked back at your chickensmoothie profile.

you were last active sunday jul 12, 2020 6:12 pm.
i looked at your groups and you still had all the pets i gave you as a gift.
the shima long tail, the vr warrior cat, and others, you all put them in a
sentimental group. it's been YEARS since we've talked. i miss you so much,
you were my first ever online friend. i would stay up nights so we could talk
and roleplay. whenever i were stressed out i'd turn on my computer and
we'd talk for a bit, even if it were silly. you view my stories on instagram
from time to time. do i look the way you expected ? am i the same ?
i really miss when things weren't so complicated. i wish things were back
to being simple, the days me and you used to talk. when we used to
roleplay on forums back around 2016...

[duskze]

eh i don't usually post my problems anywhere because no one cares; (as a general rule for strangers on the internet, y'know?) but it's just so infuriating-
my health has been worse than ever the last two months, my dad is an absolute psychopath and because of corona he's been home every. single. day. my mom has wanted to divorce him for years except he always threatens her(not physically), saying he'll never pay her anything, hide all his money in stocks, and drag it out for years, and she doesn't want something like that to go down right now when i can't even make myself dinner and she wouldn't be able to support us. i literally don't have any friends i can talk to, not even necessarily to talk with about this, (even im tired of my problems) but just to shoot the breeze and get my mind off it for a while or something. it's exasperating. am i such a complete weirdo that i'm incapable of finding friends or something? i really, really am asking- not trying to be dramatic. because i've reached out to a lot of people, on a myriad of subjects, on different sites, with different methods, and no one can stand to respond for more than a couple of pm's. it's been like that for years and i don't get it at all. i swear if we had any money (and if i wasnt an invalid) i would just go see a therapist instead of pretending writing about it might help.




to anyone needing an idea to relax?; i've been looking at a ton of horse images lately and that's been really helpful to me for some reason.

[snailkinz]

its so hard. it's really really hard. i wish my fears of abandonment weren't so strong and gave me deep emotional pain and stress everyday. i shouldn't be sobbing and breaking down and feeling so angry panicking that im being abandoned again over the smallest things like you mentioning another friend or leaving me on seen. i love you terribly and i trust you immensely but in those moments i snap and suddenly i hate you im angry at you you abandoned me you hurt me even though i know you didn't and it feels like the world is ending and it's awful i hate being like this i don't understand why im like this or why it hurts so awfully much. i'm just so terrified of losing you, i've never had anyone as good as you or anyone i can truly call my best friend or soulmate. you're my favorite person. i'm so scared of snapping and letting my anger out on you because i'm absolutely terrified of hurting you during my breakdowns. i feel so ill i feel awful i feel like i'll genuinely never be able to properly love a person because my abandonment issues rage and anxiety are so bad and i'm sorry for it. i'm just so tired of feeling so alone and hurt by everyone, i don't want that to happen again i'm so terrified of going back to having noone.

[autumnsoundtrack]

I'm so overly sensitive right now because of my dog. I tried to give good advice to some new people who came over to the house about how to play a game and I got a very sarcastic remark in return... it was very unwanted and it made me feel like my presence was unappreciated or unwanted. So I left upstairs immediately and started crying. And now I just don't ever want to see those people again, they had one shot at a first impression and honestly they blew it.

[yharnam boy]

I feel tortured in incredible ways, and I don't know how to escape it.

[venti]

sometimes… no one is here for me
sometimes… the demon captures me
sometimes… I think you hate me.
sometimes… why don't you leave me alone
I'm hopeless why do you even care?
I've taken it hard on myself,
and nothing, nothing can change that.