TheComfortCorner | V.9

[dillydallydarlene]

My heart broke the other day and I get reminded of it and it breaks again

Why am I detached why do I detach my self? I have a 4 month old daughter and I feel detached, and I keep hearing oh it's postpartum depression, maybe some but I know it's not all

Something is wrong with me and I keep looking for the answers. For some reason I have a different understanding or see things differwnt ways then others which makes socializing so difficult

It's like I step out of all that's going on around me just so I can scream and cry because all of the hurt inside just makes it feel like I keep firing,and it's driving me crazy

I'm a Mamma what do I do I don't wanna negatively affect my daughter i don't wanna detach I don't wanna cry I dont wanna hurt

I don't wanna feel like a joke or looked down on or like I'm lesser especially by those I'm supposed to call family

There's sooo much and it just leads to all of those feelings previously stated

[autumnsoundtrack]

Why do I even try
Every choice I make to him is the wrong one
It's like there's no pleasing him in whatever I do
It's so infuriating

[anonymous dog]

i know im not worth your time
i mean it when i say it
i love you all
but i dont feel wanted
i dont feel like you need me in your life
i should just die, then everything would be better
i know everyone would like it better that way
do i care? no
do you? ... ... no answer huh
why do i suddenly feel this way... no one did anything wrong
do you really need me badly enough
or does it really matter if i go...
it's not like anyone'll miss me

[Guest]

i wish they knew how i really felt. but then again, i hide everything from them, so i dont expect them to.

[viles]

• is my potential future happiness even worth this anymore?

[mean&gay]

god i just sent a pm and now i feel like im gonna be sick. it wasnt even a heavy pm i was just asking for bbcode advice why am i like this. i feel so anxious whenever i try to send messages and i feel like its definitely ruining all my friendships but i just cant make myself do it. its so hard and i feel so silly for feeling this way but i cant help it. how am i supposed to do anything if i cant even maintain a simple conversation. i hate this. and i feel so awful because im over here posting and making art and whatnot and i feel like it looks like im just ignoring everyone but its just. different. when i post i feel like im on my own, i dont feel like im being watched, but when i send a pm its aimed at someone specific and its written specifically for them to read and for some reason that terrifies me. it comes and goes but its really strong atm, right when i need it not to be and i just jdkhfgzdkjkgk i dunno. i keep seeing all my friends having fun and i just get filled with some sorta bad feeling because i know ill never be able to maintain a relationship like that. im just incapable of putting in the effort that it takes and i hate myself for it. and i know its not entirely my fault but i still feel like a selfish bastard because of it.

in other news i have to go into school tomorrow to get my grades and im terrified. not of my results but of being around people again. itll be the first time seeing everyone since i came out as trans (and i didnt tell everyone, but im not hiding it anymore) and thats like. ugh. plus ill probably get deadnamed a bunch, which i can tolerate because its early, but still. its a lot.

[breadstick]

imagine having a parent who loves u lmao.

[prisms.]

I wish you knew what I was truly feeling. instead of hurting me
maybe then I'd be better to you
maybe you'd really help me

but I could never tell you. so you just hurt me instead when it affects me
thanks.

no one will know.
no one will care.


dont send me a gift/trade bc of this, thanks

[connoisseur]

I can feel it creeping up on me again. I need to work. I need my clear mind to do what I need to do. I can't play it off while I'm trying to tutor. Last time I kept trailing off and pausing, slurring my words and stuttering, and forgetting what I was doing mid-explanation of a problem. My anxiety comes back to crawl slowly back up my spine into my brain and attack it little be little, like a fire slowly eating its meal. I need to a clear mind. I need to focus. I need to stop this. It feels like my heart is being squeezed and a cement ball is rolling in my skull.

Please let this session go well. Please.
I doubt that I can work like this any further.

[venti]

Nothing matters right now
Why can't the world like me?

Ugh I'm feeling so bored and sad rn
Just don't talk to me

Don't send a PM asking how I'm doing
Just don't send me a gift

I'm so tired of toxic people
I'm currently thinking on going on a hiatus

Why are toxic people TOXIC???
I just don't understand....