TheComfortCorner | V.9

[mean&gay]

worried about school. a lot of it makes me anxious (talking in class, presentations, sharing my work etc) and i feel like, now that i'm at the older side of the school, everyone's gonna expect me to be more mature. i know anxiety is absolutely never a sign of immaturity, but you get the idea. i'm older now, i should be able to answer teacher's questions without panicking. i'm scared that the classes will be a lot more reliant on me being able to talk in class, and i'm scared that anxiety won't be a good enough excuse, that everyone will get fed up with my inability to communicate. i know it's the same people i've studied alongside and been taught by for years, but it's different now. in the lower years we had to be there, so i felt like i could get away with being quiet. but now we're all here because we're trying to set up our futures, so i feel like my anxiety will make me seem like i don't care or i'm not willing to try. i feel like people will think i'm just wasting their time.

[fika.]

I'm locked up inside my flat because the key doesn't move and the lock seems blocked.
1. I can't pay this, it's too expensive.
2. I'm having the thought the horrible neighbours somehow blocked the lock, maybe with a key from outside, and now I'm very scared.
(Of course I already called the police and the key service as well as tried to call the janitors, but so far nobody did anything.)

Edit: The lock wasn't broken, it was filled with superglue from outside.

ah, that really sucks. i'm sorry that this has happened. can the landlord not do anything about the neighbours? or the police? that's really not legal and causes unnecessary stress and money wasted. don't let the 'case' be ignored, this can get prettyt serious and you don't deserve it. sending you my best wishes!

worried about school. a lot of it makes me anxious (talking in class, presentations, sharing my work etc) and i feel like, now that i'm at the older side of the school, everyone's gonna expect me to be more mature. i know anxiety is absolutely never a sign of immaturity, but you get the idea. i'm older now, i should be able to answer teacher's questions without panicking. i'm scared that the classes will be a lot more reliant on me being able to talk in class, and i'm scared that anxiety won't be a good enough excuse, that everyone will get fed up with my inability to communicate. i know it's the same people i've studied alongside and been taught by for years, but it's different now. in the lower years we had to be there, so i felt like i could get away with being quiet. but now we're all here because we're trying to set up our futures, so i feel like my anxiety will make me seem like i don't care or i'm not willing to try. i feel like people will think i'm just wasting their time.

hey, you're all good. it's normal to panic. people in high school often are judgmental because they don't want to be there. i remember how much more comfortable i felt answering quotes in 'college' (british college is different to american, it's like the last two years of highschool just oftentimes somewhere else) because people willingly went there.

for presentations, my best advice is take a pen up with you to twirl in your fingers. it helps calm nerves if you twiddle it behind your back.

it is important to remember that everyone is in the same position as you, and after a few days time the presentation is long gone in everyones mind.

if everyone like you said is there to learn, then they aren't judgmental. you're fine. everyone is so worried that people are judging themselves that no one is actually judging you. and each time you do a presentation, despite the anxiety rising, teaches you a lesson and only helps your public speaking. it is normal to feel this way and you are not alone, okay? good luck x

[yharnam boy]

I'm locked up inside my flat because the key doesn't move and the lock seems blocked.
1. I can't pay this, it's too expensive.
2. I'm having the thought the horrible neighbours somehow blocked the lock, maybe with a key from outside, and now I'm very scared.
(Of course I already called the police and the key service as well as tried to call the janitors, but so far nobody did anything.)

Edit: The lock wasn't broken, it was filled with superglue from outside.

ah, that really sucks. i'm sorry that this has happened. can the landlord not do anything about the neighbours? or the police? that's really not legal and causes unnecessary stress and money wasted. don't let the 'case' be ignored, this can get prettyt serious and you don't deserve it. sending you my best wishes!

Not sure if I should reply here, but I don't feel like starting a PM conversation right now. The landlord knows about these people since months and they still weren't kicked out, even though they should have been. The police knows too, and what happened there was pretty serious even to them, they're on it, but I hope something will be done quickly since I'm seriously scared.

[hiero]

It's both frustrating and comforting to feel alone. I think enjoying making myself feel emotionally tired is not really so great for me in the grand scheme of things. I function just fine, but it'd hard to see a future for myself. I keep isolating myself further and it's not an enjoyable experience, but also, it is? I don't know. When you are the universe, ten years is a long time. For me, it feels like nothing. I feel like nothing. I can't remember the last time the world really, truly looked up. I plateau, but I never climb.

[Spearow]

kind of private but i just need to get it out. i really want to be hugged by someone and be comfortable around them, be able to feel safe taking a nap next to them.

i'm extremely anxious and self-aware around others, even if i think i trust them. i always throw on a baggy hoodie because i don't like people looking at me and i feel less self-conscious with baggy clothes on my body. anyways

some guys i work with have no sense of personal space, and they get way too close to me and they're bigger than me. i don't have any problems when girls get close to me, i'm only intimated by people who i think are probably stronger than me. i'm demi-pansexual and pretty much everyone at my work is part of lgbtq comm. i have ptsd from something that happened a long time ago, and get really uncomfortable when men bigger than me get in my personal space and won't back off when i ask them to. they think they're being cute/flirty or that i'm being shy when i'm not, you're making me uncomfortable. you're not listening when someone tells you to stop, when you don't know their situation.

if someone asks you to give them space, give them space. ignoring them is not cute.

i don't want to go to work tonight

[bromance]

everyone keeps telling me to be strong about this but i can't, i'm not i won't ever be everything just hurts.
i've had 3 mental breakdowns this week it's taken a toll on me.

[| nefelibata |]

I'm so scared. Please help.

I think someone is inside.

[dave gahans husband]

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[connoisseur]

I'm supposed to move most of my stuff tomorrow and I waited all day for my boxes only to be rushed and drive all the way to pick them up myself and risking getting cited for being out during curfew. Then I get home and am about to start packing then I get told that plans changed, we're going Sunday. But... then why was I forced to get the boxes...during curfew? And it's such a mess cuz now everyone is angry with each other, including me. I'm angry at mostly everyone and everyone is refusing to admit that they messed up at some point and instead are just getting angry too. My god. Why does it seem like such a circus everytime it comes to something that NEEDS to be done on a time schedule. It doesn't help that my meds are making me more triggered at things, and I just get so irritated when I feel like others don't have common sense. I guess I need to calm myself down first and try to see things with a cool head but I'm just so annoyed. I feel like I'm at the bottom of everyone's list. I spent all day waiting, knowing I have a bunch of things to pack, only for them to come late and with no boxes. I have them now and I should at least be grateful for that but god it just makes me so annoyed that it seemed like a funny joke to the others.

[acura,]

my boyfriend just broke his finger in his match of rugby today.
I’m really worried for him and I hope he’s alright :< we were supposed to go on a date today and he was so excited to go,, I feel really bad that I wasn’t there with him.