[sniffs]

i vent a lot,, sorry

depression is lovely yknow?
just not being able to smile without feelings guilty because you aren't happy, you're just lying and faking it
wanting to cry whenever you talk to anybody
not having enough motivation to literally breath
your body is cold and numb, and you can barely feel anything
wanting to just starve and rot
it's so fun

god i just want this to end
and no one tell me "oh just wait, it'll get better"
i've been dealing with this for so damn long
it isn't going to get better, i know that for a fact
life isn't nice like that
and it never will be
it never will get better
at least not for me
i'm really sorry
i'm so sorry
i might have to say goodbye
even though i'm scared to say it
i might have to
i'm sorry

[ewie]

And I thought Ernie was happiness.....


Hey....bro....please don't........

Dude.... If this is because what I think It is I'm sorry I'm so so so so sorry......please don't go.... Please please please don't.....

[sniffs]

And I thought Ernie was happiness.....


Hey....bro....please don't........

Dude.... If this is because what I think It is I'm sorry I'm so so so so sorry......please don't go.... Please please please don't.....

i mean really it is just because of life
if we are thinking the same thing, then that is a piece of it
but more things are happening
more mentally than physically
but just
i don't know what to do anymore