TheComfortCorner | V.9

[hypnowave]

man i can't believe i was crying happy tears an hour ago (because an indonesian artist released a song featuring happy lgbt couples while boicing his support for all lgbt people) and now i just feel... numb. between feeling frustrated over my art, feeling upset that i've been trapped here wìthout being able to move forward with my life, and just being reminded of the homophobic environment i live in, it's just... a lot. i don't have the motivation to take care of myself as much as i should be.

i'm crying and i can't pin down the exact reason why. i'm in a catch 22 situation over my human art because i know that if i keep practicing and posting it i'll organically improve over time, but i can't even sketch anything without hating the result. i can't create anything good. i'm upset with myself and how i haven't been able to put myself out there and make new friends. i know that it's a delay and not a permanent roadblock but i feel like i'm being impeded from reaching happiness. i need to surround myself with like-minded people, lgbt people in my own country, otherwise i'll end up thinking my own identity is a crime again. i hate that i can regress so badly that i think of myself as a sinner who deserves to suffer because of my gender or orientation. it's happened before and it can happen again. i made an oath to myself to never be shameful for my identity, whatever it may be (currently bi/pan and trans), but i keep going back on that oath and it hurts. it hurts to think that i can forget that this is who i am, and that my identity isn't a choice.

[breezey]

i'm dense as hell, what's new .

[angelfangs]

i've been struggling a lot with my insecurities lately. it's rly easy to hurt my own feelings by making situations up in my head. thankfully, i finally signed up for therapy. i should be getting a call/text soon for my appt. i'm rly proud of myself for making the jump :)

[SurgeFire]

i’m not great. doing or being.
i’m,, sorry

[kewpie milk]

I've been extremely lonely lately, and it's starting to affect me mentally. I haven't had friends in such a long time that i've almost entirely forgotten what it feels like to have one. I was finally going to attend a public school in September after months of switching between a few online schools. I was so excited because I thought I was finally going to be able to have friends again, but because of the pandemic right now that won't be happening until next year. Honestly, i'm completely distraught. I know schools have to stay closed for safety reasons right now, and I appreciate that, but I just want this loneliness to go away.. y'know?

[charlotte!]

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[vampir]

Haha W o a h


Everything feels either like crap or entirely numb : )

My brother overshadows me in EVERYTHING I DO

^·^ It's okay though..
Because nothing i do would ever be enough even if he wasn't here no matter what...
I wish my brain was normal sometimes.

I hope u have a day better than mine and I hope my brother doesn't see this post..

- An insignificant whiny useless user /aka me

[~ rat ~]

i really wish that they could understand
i really wish
i guess i have to keep on wishing
i don't think it'll come true, though

[anonymous dog]

i trust them
but can i trust u anymore
u say u love me but u treat me like a kicked pile of garbage
is it true
then why do u say these things
is it funny to u.. am i so weak and easy to kick around.... -

im garbage
u kick me one day
i get a break
the next day u come back
& kick me again
fun game huh?
kick the pile of trash & get away w/ it
thats my favorite game ever lmao
. . .

[Wolfumus]

Body positivity is hard. I should have never looked at that scale.