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by Guest » Mon Jul 13, 2020 6:51 pm
does my time mean that little to you? the fact that im going out of my way to talk to you when i almost physically cant?
you know why im talking to you. im only talking to you so our "friendship" can look good from the outside looking in. if i dont try and salvage this you know that she will be mad at me.
she'll be mad at us if she finds out. do you really want her to yell at me? to bound me to my chains once again?
i know you do. that's exactly what you want isnt it? you want me to be "punished" for not giving you what you want.
i cant be around you anymore. i really wish this could end but im stuck..
you are practically holding me by my throat here.
please.. just, dont message me anymore.. ive blocked you so many times and you've blocked me back, but you always unblock me and try messaging me on your other accounts.
how much must i beg now? did my message telling all of this to you work?
i havent heard from you in a week yet your voice is still burned into my wrists and throat.
please dont talk to me again. never, never talk to me again. you're turning into her.. the one person you swore to erase from my memory.
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by Requiem; » Tue Jul 14, 2020 1:50 am
My brain has been my own personal hell for so long, and these past few months have brought me so much deeper into my cage without there being practically any way to distract myself I’m starting to wonder what the point of it all is. All I do is get up and work and go home and try not to cry because the loneliness I feel, despite being surrounded by people nearly 24/7 is gnawing a hole in my chest and I’m having a hard time trying to figure out how to fill the void. Everything was supposed to be better after I graduated college and here I am with a bachelors and nothing, and I mean nothing, interested in hiring me on in my field. And I know, I know I’m lucky to have work right now. I know my job is important. I just feel like my life is falling apart and I’m trying to cram work down that void to escape the fact that nothing brings me joy anymore. Not real, genuine joy. I feel hollowed out and so so so tired I just don’t want to get up. And instead of getting help, and I’ve been begging for help in the guarded, pathetic way that I can let myself do it, I’m here on a pet site crying to strangers in the hopes that someone will reach out and pull me free before I drown. I’m crying so loud but nobody is there and I just want to cave in on myself. I need someone so bad. And it’s so , unbelievably selfish, but I still find myself here. I don’t know what to do anymore. I wish someone could tell me how to fix myself. I wish I could feel anything but hollow.

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by sillies » Tue Jul 14, 2020 8:03 am
mom, space means no calling or texting either. please for the love of god stop. I’m reevaluating our relationship rn and you constantly trying to talk to me is not helping. The way you treated gma... how do I know in the future you won’t treat me the same way? Is this relationship going to be worth working on? Because at this point I won’t hesitate to drop you if you treat her like that again or treat me that way.
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by Keir; » Tue Jul 14, 2020 1:35 pm
seriously? someone said something kinda rude to me and i let them know it seemed that way. a few other people agreed with me on it as well. and now the person who made the rude comment is messaging me and making me feel guilty? they could've just apologized and said it wasn't meant to come off that way and everything would've been fine. but no. they have to let me know that they're crying and having a panic attack and feel like they're going to pass out because they can't breathe, and other things that i can't even say here. now i feel like the bad person, wth

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by Meowdle » Tue Jul 14, 2020 2:16 pm
Honestly I'm feeling pretty crappy about my art right now. I have a gazillion ideas but I can't seem to focus on just one. I just seem to be too out-of-energy to work on much lately ;u;
And I feel like my art has been looking lazy recently, and I HAVE been a bit lazy about it -- I just have SO much on my mind art-wise and I want to do it all but my mind seems to constantly change on what I should be doing. So I just run out of energy and get either too tired to do anything or to restless to have the patience to finish.
Any advice would be cool, but ya'll don't have to. I just needed to let this out.
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by KiraWolf » Tue Jul 14, 2020 2:43 pm
Meowdle wrote:Honestly I'm feeling pretty crappy about my art right now. I have a gazillion ideas but I can't seem to focus on just one. I just seem to be too out-of-energy to work on much lately ;u;
And I feel like my art has been looking lazy recently, and I HAVE been a bit lazy about it -- I just have SO much on my mind art-wise and I want to do it all but my mind seems to constantly change on what I should be doing. So I just run out of energy and get either too tired to do anything or to restless to have the patience to finish.
Any advice would be cool, but ya'll don't have to. I just needed to let this out.
I can definitely relate to this. My advice is to go on a site like artprompts.org and just play around with different styles/colors/themes until something feels right again! Also, try and focus on finishing one thing, be it a sketch or fully-rendered piece, it'll help a lot to just refocus your mind if you can. And know that it is okay to take breaks, not everything has to be done at one time^^ Best of luck to you♥
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