Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[phoenixlikeslemons]

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[| nefelibata |]

To C,

Why do you always talk about others behind their backs? You're so oblivious to how rude, loud and painful you are. You have wonderful parents, haven't you learnt any manners from them? Look, I don't hate you. I don't think I could ever bring myself to hate someone, but when you can't keep other's private information and spread rumours just so you can laugh at them, I come very close to hate. You expect me to laugh along to your sarcastic and vulgar jokes about my close friends. What the hell is wrong with you? Don't you have any respect?

I don't understand how someone could be so insensitive and mean to be able to imitate somebody for something they cannot help or control. Her speech impediment? She's trying so hard to gain the confidence to speak to others. His high-pitched voice? It's not his fault, how dare you assume he's gay.

I am so close to losing it with you.

[puckleberry]

hello. it's been a while. i feel like i start every one of these letters with "it's been a while" but honestly it has
i don't think i've seen you in what, six months? that's a long time. people can change a lot in that time.
it's been almost a year since what happened. it's almost been a year, and here i am writing letters to you on a furry site with nobody to read them except my sad, tired eyes. i know i was a huge pain to deal with. i know i was clingy, and annoying, and rude, and a horrible person to you. and i don't know if i've changed, but i just hope that you're doing well.
if i'm being honest, all i ever wanted was for you to be happy. i didn't know how to help, so i'd just remind you that i loved you any chance i got so you'd remember. i wanted you to know i was there, so you wouldn't do anything... dire.
im gonna sound like a whiny little brat by saying this, but i miss you. a lot. i miss talking to you. i don't even miss being in a relationship, i just miss... you. the idea of you, talking to you, being around you. you emit such a positive and amazing aura and i feel horrible for stripping that away. i was emotionally exhausting and a disgusting person, and i hope you can forgive me.
anyway, screw all the venting nonsense. have you been doing ok? how's being a rocket? i mean, i'll be there with you next year but i don't think you'll want to see me at all. i ran into j, he ignored me. i ran into p, he ignored me. b and l talked to me for a bit, but it was... awkward. l is even worse haha, she's doing some stuff, right? i know you're still in touch with a lot of my friends but just... it hurts knowing you talk to them and not me. it's understandable, but it hurts. you even blocked me on instagram heh
i don't know where im going with this. i don't know the purpose of this letter, or if you'll ever read it, or if i'll ever even see you again with the current situation here but just know that i still care. and i always have. cared that is.

- someone you used to know

[Espresso. ༺]

oh dear goodness. i hope nobody read this LOL

[AtlasHyperion]

Dear Pygmy,

You're a nice cat, as cats go. I adopted you last November. It feels like you've been here for a billion years already. I know you don't speak Human, because (contrary to popular belief) you're not supremely intelligent and actually controlling your people, you're just kind of dumb, but I'd like to say something to you anyways.

Please, be smarter. Stop running into screen doors. Stop hitting your head on windows. Stop climbing up on tall things and jumping down just to see what happens. Stop crawling under all the carpets in the house. Stop eating entire pans of mac and cheese. Stop getting your head stuck in my tea. Stop kicking all my coworkers out of the video calls. Stop trying to play the mandolin.

I'm saying this because I care: stop being dumb.

Thanks and sincerely,
your loving owner

[JustLivinTheDream]

You say “Do you think I’m stupid.” But not once did I ever think you were. But neither am I. Every time I’m with you I feel this tension that I wish would end because it’s tiring not only for me but for you too. You are going through a lot I get that, I really do. I’m trying my best to help but apparently my best isn’t enough. I try and introduce you to new people but you always find one thing wrong with them and then automatically dislike them. I know you have standards and thats great but not everyone’s perfect, they all have their flaws, so if you go nitpicking every new person you meet, you’ll never make new friends. It isn’t my fault that I’m growing. Do you want me to stop trying and give up? Because that’s what I’m getting here. I don’t pay attention to you for the tiniest bit and you automatically shut down into your own little world. You hate me don’t you. Say it... I know you do... I’m not stupid. If you hate me this much why are you still acting like my friend. I thought that if I tried to help and make everything go back to normal but I only see it getting worse. I talked to your mom and the guidance counselor both helped a lot but neither helped you. I understand that your home life may not be the best. And sometimes you rather be any place than home but I can’t always be there for you. Those are the times you have to be there for yourself. You say how you want someone to love and love you back as much as you do to them but why not try and love yourself first. You call yourself names and talk bad about yourself but you aren’t a horrible person. Learn to be optimistic and not pessimistic it would really help you. Learn to be there for yourself before anyone else because you always come first. Patience... I keep saying it but you don’t listen. I know you said you don’t want to wait any longer trust me I know. But if you aren’t willing to wait just a bit longer, then the only person that is responsible for your unhappiness is you. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. You aren’t a bad person you’re just going through bad times. I’m still pondering whether or not I’m going to send this because I don’t know if you reading this will make things worse or better....

[| nefelibata |]

To A, E and J,

I needed to answer that call. You don't even understand how important it was to me. Even though it wasn't for a job interview or anything similar, that person needed me. I promised them I'd answer but you thought it would be hilarious to decline. I tried to call them back and
they aren't answering or responding to my messages, I am so worried.

You also put me in such an uncomfortable position which you knew I couldn't leave. Why are you guys so mean to me?

I hate you all.

[breadstick]

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i genuinely can't tell if i'm just reading into things or if you're actually off with me. if i bring it up to you i'm just gonna make a fool of myself regardless of if i'm right. but i'm so, so sorry if i've done something wrong.
love you dude.

- cass

[stranger danger]

dear everyone, i guess,

wow i haven't written a letter i couldn't send in years! well. i mean.
i like to think i'm in a better place. these last few years have been r
elatively good to me. i have friends, REAL friends, people that care
about me. i have a boyfriend, and we recently got into an argument
but! its okay, ik these things can happen. its all due to a misunderst
anding, i'm sure of it, and i think i can clear it up. i feel like i'm in a
state of limbo almost - like something could go so BAD or so GREAT a
nd i'm not sure which is coming next. it's scary in a way. but as of now
i'm okay; and i can accept that.

- xoxo, valentine

[redhorizon]

Dear J (is it still J? I’m not sure, I’m sorry),

Wow, it’s been... a long time. I just wanted to say I’m sorry for all that went wrong. I know you weren’t trying to hurt me, I know you didn’t realize what you were saying was hurting me so bad. I miss your friendship, before things got complicated. I tried to say hi, and to say all of this to you, but I still can’t contact you. I’m sorry I was so unforgiving and aggressive, I’m sorry I couldn’t let small things go. I’m sorry it led to the end of an incredible friendship.

Things with the other one are bad right now. We tried, but ultimately we just clash. We aren’t compatible. We just don’t get along at all. I hope that’s not the case with us. Maybe we could fix things, maybe we could move forward.

I’m sorry for my mistakes, and for letting things get to this point. If you ever see this, just know that I’m done fighting. If you want to work things out, and maybe resume the strong friendship we had, my pm’s are always open.

Thank you for the friendship you offered me, and for sticking with me. I hope you’re doing well now, and getting to be your true self.

-B