Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[yeosang1]

dear __

teehee leave me alone. uwu.
you have no idea what im going through.
you dont know how im feeling.
i dont say everything in public, you know.
stop acting like what youre saying affects me or makes me feel better.
the groupchat is enough for me. i dont n e e d you. you arent my friend
and you never will be.

OKAY teehee bye bye.
⏤⏤bambi

dear rai, yoon, hoshit, gabbit, cinno, karen, anne, artie, MUM, lin, plastic, eddie, jinnie, velvet

I LOVE YOU POOPOOS TEHHEHEHEHEHEE

⏤ BMABAMABAMBAM

[Winstalgia]

Dear Mom,
I want you to like my friend. Specifically him. Please hear me out.

He's one of my best friends.

You don't know that... but I want you to realize that the fact we like each other shouldn't change us being good friends. Today, I was playing minecraft with him and onion (substitute name). I was on a phone video call with him and her for a good 30 minutes. But Onion had to go. So, for the remaining 30 minutes I was just on call with him. You asked who I was talking to. I said A. You glanced at me and said 'how long have you been talking to him?' and I said idk. (I did the math though after, it was like an hour...) And you said 'you don't need to talk for long, get off soon.'

That hurt me.

If it was Onion, or any of my other friends you wouldn't care if I talked to them for hours.

But not him. Not A.

I want you to know he's 1/3 of my best friends. I tell him everything. As well as Onion. You like her. So why can't you just acknowledge A? I love my friends. I want you to, too.

I can't go anywhere alone with him, and it's difficult to even say his name around you without you getting all tense or something... I need to talk to you. But I need to find the right words first. I want to ask you why you don't like him. Is it simply because he likes me? Still. If anyone can give me compliments, so can he. If anyone can call me when I'm not doing anything, so can he. If anyone can invite me to go places, so can he.

-Rain.

[moth ♡]

dear n,
i'm an awful friend. i'm sorry. i know you said it wasn't my
fault, but i just feel like it was. i hope you're doing okay,
that your foot isn't in much pain. but seeing how you we-
re this morning makes me cringe. i hope you rest well. -m

[venkos]

oh boy here we go.

dear h,
did i do something wrong? you
keep ignoring me & i don’t
know what happened. i
thought we were such good
friends and now.. i don’t even
know. please talk to me again,
i miss you.

dear f,
sometimes i can’t stand you. you
hurt me so much and you’re so
rude sometimes and i honestly
don’t know why i tolerate you.
but i do. and i’m willing to
move past it. so please, just
let us move past all of this.

dear k,
ohhh dear. i met you yesterday
and i’m already in far too deep.
i had no idea i could be this
attracted to someone. you’re so
pretty & you honestly seems like
such a genuinely sweet person &
i want to get to know you so badly.

dear a,
i’m so, so scared you won’t accept
me. i know it’ll be hard, but i’m
still going to be the same person!!
i hope you’ll still love me.

sincerely, me.

[春雷,,]

dear ___

i hate the way you make me feel. i don't know how i should feel. not with
everything you say and do. are your words syrupy sweet and as real as the way your
heart beats, or are they the saccharine drops of poisoned blackberry wine and
the glint of a naked blade drawing a carmine blood line?

you're a beautiful beginning and a bitter finish. you're a gorgeous start and a wilted
end.

are we blooming, or are we dying? i don't know.

all flowers fall in the end.

- rai

p.s. if anyone from the group chat sees this, you know who you are, you
all mean the absolute world to me.

[Midnight_Shadow18450]

Edit: it felt pretty good to get that off my chest.

To a former friend,

I’m still incredibly hurt by what you did. And how you have treated me in the past. I still don’t feel ready to talk to you.
It really upsets me that I have always been flexible with you. And incredibly patient/tolerating. And the one time I ask you to be flexible, you try and make me seem like the bad person, and try to emotionally manipulate me.
I cannot believe how selfish you acted. I asked to change plans so I could see my nephew on his birthday.
An event that happens once a year. And you scream at me (online).

I’ve always accommodated you. Changed plans for you. Put up with you constantly being late whenever we met up, even if I picked you up from over the road from where you live! I never once complained about you being late. But you clearly took me for granted, and took advantage of my kind nature. If you can be on time for your job, then why couldn’t you be on time for plans with me? Ever.

We (my friend and my sister) planned my wedding stuff around YOU. And you dare tell me I don’t take you into consideration?! How dare you! I was even planning the room lighting and entertainment around YOU cos of your medical stuff!

When we had the fight before Christmas, my last message was telling you you could talk to me when the dust had settled. You didn’t read that message for 6 weeks.
During that 6 weeks, I could have really done with support. You KNEW my mum was having major surgery for her cancer, knew how hard it was for me to cope, because of my mental health issues, and you didn’t even bother to ask how she was. Didn’t wish me Merry Christmas. By that point, I knew you were willing to throw away 14 years of friendship over your selfish, child-like, entitled, temper tantrum.

Which is when I cut you out of my wedding. You hadn’t read that message, so were clearly ignoring me. So I removed you from the bridesmaids chat, and deleted you from my Facebook friends.

Then you finally read that message. You finally talk to me, telling me you ‘were as you (I) said, letting the dust settle,’ and that you missed me and had been ‘giving me space cos of everything going on.’

Rubbish. Absolute rubbish. You had only just read that message (after 6 weeks). If you had truely cared about me, you would have reached out sooner. Even a ‘Hey... how’s your mum?’ Or a ‘Merry Christmas’ would have shown you actually cared.

But no. It took me removing you from the bridesmaids chat and Facebook for you to message me. So no, I do not forgive you. I’m tired of the way you always treated me. Acting entitled, jealous, selfish, being all ‘oh woe is me, life’s not fair to me!’I was sick of treading on eggshells around you.

So it’s over. I know you have probably gathered this as it’s been almost 8 months since we spoke. But it’s taken me that long to be able to write this down.

From,
Your former friend.

[ParaKitty]

Dear skin,
You ain’t it
I’m trying ://
School is coming and uhh pls clear up soon :))

Dear a&r,
Please hit the DMs, we’re lowkey uneasy
after a certain amount of cheesiness & flirting
in the group chat. We’re happy for y’all though.

Dear mom&gma,
Aannndd this is why my self esteem sucks. Thankss

[Lirylake]

To M,
I used to friendly call you dear, and I'm not going to start again.
You and I have been writing together for six years now, even though I should say only the first three were of any quality. We wrote for fun, for sake of storytelling, to escape our problems for a few hours a day in a world of fantasy only you and I could enter. I've always been there for you.
Three years ago she came along. I was happy for you then, but time of one month and you pushed me further and further away. Oh, you still had the face to trouble me with your problems but you never really cared for my opinion. Not anymore. Sometimes you would ask me how was life, but you never answered back after I actually told you.
Why ask me anything if you won't be there for an answer in four months?! Seriously??
You stopped writing the fic with me the night before Christmas Eve, seven months ago. I was happy, I thought that last post was a Christmas gift for me after months of scattered messages...I hoped to find you online the next morning and we could wish merry Christmas to each other like we always did...but you weren't there. Nor were you the next month, for Easter, your birthday, nothing.
Why should I be there for you now? Because you are bored for thirty seconds?
I am not going to answer any of your texts until I see you writing me for two days in a row. I want you to know how it feels to be left hanging.
You always claim you don't have a speckle of time for me. Yeah, in the era of the internet...sell it to someone else.
I really wish you could read this, but, hey, you wouldn't answer before goodness knows how long, so who cares.
I only wish you had the guts to tell me that the curtain needed to fall over the show when it was time, and not leaving me waiting, hoping...

Farewell, I guess.
N.

[K#%!]

dear L
it has been a
while, isn't it? i
bet you forgot
about me already.
i wish i could
talk to you again.

- Niko

[Raptorfang]

I figured recently that my old posts on this thread have a lot of old emotional baggage I wanna detach myself from, so I'm going through and getting rid of them to help move forward. This is sort of cathartic I guess. Ok peace out.