Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[unadoring]

Dear M,
For the longest time all I ever wanted to say was I Love You. And then, all of a sudden, I didn't. You pushed me away with everything you did, until it turned out that you never really cared about me in the first place. Am I glad it turned out this way? Maybe. I think I needed that wakeup call. I needed to realize that my life doesn't have to revolve around you anymore. I needed to realize that we weren't and never will be right for eachother. Does it hurt that you ignore me now? Yeah. Does it hurt that you don't care, but I still care about everything you do? Yeah. But I can and will get over it, and you. Thank you for making me feel truly loved for the very first time, even if that went away near the end. Today would have been our year and a half anniversary. I hope you remember, like I still do. I used to get you flowers every time, remember that? Tulips. Your favourite. I hope I'm not the only one still so attached.
Love, K.

[imp.]

dear b,
you continue to make my nights. you continue to make me smile and laugh. you continue to make me happy, even when just your name pops into my head. i want to say that i'm worried about losing you, but i'm not, because that idea hasn't hit me enough yet. you're everything i ever wanted and also nothing like it. movies constantly romanticize relationships and crushes, but this feels like something out of some teen angst romance drama movie.. it also feels completely different. we don't need to have 'deep conversations' or 'confessions of love' because everything is already said, even while it's.. you know, never been said before. right now, i'm talking to you about music and songs, and it's so nice. the song you sent me is super cute, btw. thank you for lighting up my life ^^

[Fwutter]

Dear E.
I know sometimes when i am having those days where my depression is winning
significantly I don't show it, but I am so thankful for you. I lost a lot and at one
point in my life all i did was sit in the dark and stared at the ceiling with
literally nobody to text. I was at rock bottom of loneliness. When you texted me
i forced myself to keep the convo up, i told myself this is a friend opportunity,
no more being alone and battling your mental illness alone, and i did it and now
im honoring you the title of Best Friend. The hardest title to ever gain from me
because of past events. Thank you so so much for sticking with me especially
when i'm at a low point. Thank you for apologizing if I come to you about something
that bothers me instead of turning the problem to me, thank you so so much for not
treating me like everyone behind me did.

Dear Mewtini,
I need to appreciate you more. I don't know how lucky I am until you're gone. When
i deleted my discord and deleted literally all contact I had with you I was at my serious
lowest. Thank god I saved your discord name and tag in my journal and i added you back.
I am so glad you doing better now, I am really really sorry for all the stuff I put your
through because you thought I wasn't with you anymore. But i am here and so greatful.
You are like a brother to me and i say that from the heart. Thank you so much for
listening to me vent and being there and I really just love you with all my heart
i sincerely do love you so much you where there when literally nobody else was
thank you so so much.

[lutz]

dear my mom and also my dad,
you are annoying

dear m/u/i dont know what your name is now,
you are also annoying and im really mad at you for ditching the garden concert a year ago because i really wanted to go

dear elliot,
i miss you lots

dear me myself and i,
shut up. you are stupid

[Raptorfang]

I figured recently that my old posts on this thread have a lot of old emotional baggage I wanna detach myself from, so I'm going through and getting rid of them to help move forward. This is sort of cathartic I guess. Ok peace out.

[Winstalgia]

Dear ____,

how are you?

[hellish]

dear f,
i wonder if you ever think about me. it’s been a year since we last talked, but i still can’t shake you off my mind. you always find your way to my thoughts. i keep finding small pieces of you in everything. i will never be able to talk to you again and it pains me, but all i want is for you to be okay. i guess that’s the worst thing about all of this, not knowing. i’m sorry that i was never enough. sometimes i wish i could go back in time and be a better person for you. for the both of us, i guess

fun fact: it’s been six years and six months since we met. i’m not lying when i say that i thought of you every single day. is this what a capricorn love is like? i think a small part of me will always love you

[lol]

dear j,
it's been a couple of months now that we haven't spoken... that i've left you and i wonder how you're doing. you manage to wiggle into my thoughts every now and again and i always feel so guilty when you do happen to waft upon my mind. how is your life now? i don't like thinking about what we had or how it ended, i don't like how you still tried chasing after me, and i certainly didn't like how you went after my friends either. and yet, here i am, several months later, wondering how you're doing. it's definitely a taboo question, don't get me wrong- but i think about you from time to time. little things, songs, moments remind me of you and i wish that they didn't. you're like gum that's stuck to the bottom of my shoe, and you're impossibly hard to clean off. but, i'm hoping, by the end of the summer— i won't be thinking about you anymore. i'm going to try assiduously to wipe you clear from my mind and dance a new dance... that doesn't include you.

from yours truly,
madison

[artemis,]

dear myself,
stop getting attached and realize that people grow bored
of you.

[Raptorfang]

I figured recently that my old posts on this thread have a lot of old emotional baggage I wanna detach myself from, so I'm going through and getting rid of them to help move forward. This is sort of cathartic I guess. Ok peace out.