TheComfortCorner | V.8

[HALCYONDAZE]

Today, my mom was diagnosed with a heart disease. The doctors told her she can have a heart attack at any time and have a 35% of dying. I'm worried and I don't know how to handle this, it's too much to take in.

[caesou]

don't mind me i'm just gonna dump everything here

lord i just.. i've felt so much within say, almost 6 months?
me and my ex, we broke up in say, january this year and... the relationship prior to the breakup was just... on my side, it was awful. i didn't love her for her, i loved the idea of her and as she turned out to become a person i couldn't stand, i hated, i wanted her to change so much, my love was fragile. still, i kept believing in it, until finally, we broke off.

i still carry many of the scars and wounds from the relationship. she had a short temper, and whenever she had an argument with someone, she grew opinionated to the point where i felt my opinion was invalid, my opinion was wrong, i was wrong. making a mistake grew to be shameful and i walked on eggshells around her. i hated her.
i'm very sure i made mistakes, and hurt her too. i swear that just like how i felt that she betrayed my trust, i swear that she felt that i betrayed her trust. that i've made her fear this, fear that, something something something. i don't like thinking about it - it's not going to help me, really, to think about her and how she's doing.

>.> we go to the same school and have some similar friends and maybe those reminders at school are why it's difficult. little things remind me of her - and then suddenly, they remind me of the relationship, the mistakes, the pain the hurt and everything and ughufdjgdskjdf
it's been really, really difficult. to remind myself that my opinions are valid, that it is not shameful to make mistakes, that it's this and that it's that - i still feel she watches over my shoulder sometimes, ready to pick something out again.
the pain doesn't seem to stop and it feels awful >.>

[Arlecchino ♡]

I never realized how much that childish drama kept me down. I always always so focused on what might happen next and make every freak out, but it isn't my problem anymore. I can move on and do important things with my life, I've got people wjo encourage me to move forward isntead of holding me down.
I'm so relieved that I'm not plagued by toxicity anymore.

[Total K9]

I need to move out but I am a minor but under my state I'm not--so if I were to move out would I get in trouble with the law if the cops were called?
I need to do this for my mental health but I'm so, so scared.

Someone please pm me.

[Ramona Flowerss]

Can anyone please pm me, I need someone to talk to...

[Winstalgia]

the anticipation, anxiety, just everything is eating me alive right now.

Just please fetch me so we can talk about it already! I know it hasn't even been a day yet, but I'm getting impatient for the answer...

[breadstick]

so i definitely needed to be forced out of the house without my binder today into a public place where i absolutely did not pass at all and i absolutely needed to be told that im an embarrassment to be seen outside with and i 100% warranted being told that im a complete and utter mess and a disappointment !!
and of course, crying in front of a complete stranger in the middle of a bank because youre so confused and scared and upset and having a panic attack is always very fun!! we love reliving childhood traumas !! :)
now i never want to go outside again! thank you very much for that confidence boost , thank you for dragging up so many dark thoughts, thank you for acting like it was all my fault despite knowing im depressed and dysphoric and cracking under the stress of exams

[goobi the sociable]

i kind of had a realization last night. i've never met another person of color with internalized racism who has experienced the same amount of pure disgust and hatred toward themselves that i have. i'm starting to think i might be alone in this.

[0009]

so. he finally rejects me. after one year. a proper rejection. i'm happy. but also, i would like to believe to be understandably, a little saddened.

[Ramona Flowerss]

Can anyone please pm me......I'm a wreck again....