~Finchflight's Fear~
I padded gingerly across the tree branch, my tail snapping to and fro in an attempt to keep me balanced. I was trying my absolute hardest to catch something for the Clan, and I'd woken up early to set out on my mission. I had left before any other cats were up, even Maplestar.
I knew for all my brave intentions that I had left that early so no one would see me leave, and no one would know that I'd failed. I knew before I even stepped a paw out of my nest that I wouldn't actually be able to catch anything. I'd tried many times before, and each time I would sabotage myself. I just couldn't do it. I couldn't dredge up the courage to catch a bird, let alone kill it. Even when I had them in my paws, I'd somehow slip or manage to release it.
I wanted to be useful to this Clan, and I wanted to help them. They'd taken me in, and given me a home to live in when I had none... I owed this Clan and Maplestar so much, and yet I couldn't do anything for them... The other cats had no issues catching prey and filling the bellies of the Clan, but I hesitated and I failed every time. How could I expect to be allowed to stay here, when I was so useless? What was I supposed to do to help them?
I hadn't even noticed that I'd stopped walking. My tail hung low, and my pelt felt heavy on my back. It all just seemed too much... As much as I truly wanted to do this, I was afraid... I was always so afraid...
"You're up quite early." A voice said behind me, almost making me jump out of my skin. A warm paw kept me from slipping off the edge of the branch, pulling me back up.
"Careful," Maplestar purred, "you wouldn't want to fall from all the way up here! Who knows what we'd do if you broke a leg!"
"O-oh, uh, yeah..." I replied, looking away from him. As much as I respected him, he made me nervous. I felt like he could see through me, as though all my fears and insecurities were laid bare before him just from his gaze.
"I was actually looking for you, Finchflight. There's someone I want you to meet."
I cocked my head at him. I'd met everyone in the Clan already, hadn't I? Just as I was about to ask him though, he started walking off through the trees. I rushed to catch up to him, suddenly afraid to be left alone out here.
Maplestar continued, seemingly not noticing my scrambling to catch up, "This cat isn't technically a part of our Clan, but he's very important to me. Well, to us actually. The whole Clan owes him a lot, whether they know it or not. You see, he's actually the one who encouraged me to make the Clan. He lead me to our home, to the Heart Tree itself!"
I listened silently as Maplestar spoke. He seemed content to tell his story, and he continued until the sun was high in the air, and we'd reached the edge of our forest, where it met a large outcropping of rock.
Maplestar turned to look at me, "This is Eagle Peak, Finchflight. It's very dangerous here, and you must stay vigilant. We'll have to be quick, it's not much farther." He then leaped out of the safety of our tree, and onto the ground. I rushed to follow him, my eyes locked on the sky. High in the air, I saw the circling shape of several large birds.
Maplestar walked fast, clinging to the rocks and other areas of cover. He swayed slightly as he moved, which I knew was a result of living in the trees for so long. I experienced the same balance issues, though to a much smaller degree. I still hadn't lived with the Clan for that long. I shook my head, dispelling my thoughts and focusing on the task at hand. I rushed after Maplestar, my spine bristling, but none of the eagles seemed to notice us.
Suddenly, Maplestar skidded to a halt, just outside of a small den beneath the roots of a tree. It smelled ancient, and there weren't any scents of what animal might have created it left now. It smelled of dirt, and what the forest smelled like in the dead of night when a warm breeze sent the trees swaying in the moonlight.
"I was the first cat to enter here, and you will be the second. This is a very special cave, Finchflight. It is called the Whispering Den, and it is where you will meet a very special cat."
"I-I don't smell any c-cats in there though..."
"No." Maplestar whispered, "He can't be smelled anymore..."
I squinted at him, my spine bristling at the sudden change in tone. I was beginning to grow nervous of this cave and its secrets.
Maplestar took a deep breath and turned to me and said, "Come." Then, he disappeared into the darkness of the cave. I hesitated for just a moment, but then the cry of an eagle made me dart forward, into the depths of the unknown.
The tunnel twisted and winded for just a moment before opening up into a larger cave. I could see faintly within the cave, as several cracks and breaks in the ceiling let small amounts of light through. I could see Maplestar's form through the dim light as he padded to the center of the cave. The floor there was smooth and cold to the touch.
"Usually I come here at night, but I believe he's willing to meet with us once the sun hits its peak. It shouldn't be long now..." Maplestar murmured, his gaze glued to the light raining down from the ceiling.
I could feel the light changing, growing more intense and warmer. After another minute or two, light seemed to suddenly erupt from everywhere at once. The perfect angle was met, allowing the light to cascade into the cave and illuminate it strongly. It wasn't the light that caught my attention though, instead it was the figure that seemed to morph itself out of the light.
His coat was black, with small patches of white, I could tell that much, but I could see through him. He was transparent, and he seemed to glow with a faint aura of stars. His light green eyes met mine and smiled, "Hello, Finchflight."
I was frozen, so scared was I. The figure had no scent, but suddenly the entire cave smelt of a far-away place. I again had the distinct feeling that this was what moonlight would smell like. As the figure approached me, my spine bristled. This was no cat.
"My name is Crowtail, and as I'm sure you suspect, I am no longer part of your world. I belong to StarClan, where all the Clan cats who have passed on live. You don't know me, and I have no right to ask this of you, but please hear me out... Maplestar," He glanced at the ruddy tabby and his eyes softened, "asked me to meet with you here. He believes I can help you. Or, well, perhaps I should say that you can help the Clan.
"You see, while Maplestar has done a wonderful job of leading TreeClan, he's missing a vital part of Clan life. Every Clan requires a special cat who is willing to forego the usual duties of the Clan. This cat does not fight or hunt for the Clan, and they generally abhor violence. Every Clan requires a healer, who is willing to give up the status and duties of being a warrior in order to accept the daunting position of caring for the sick and injured cats. It's an important and difficult task, which requires a heart of steel and a great deal of courage.
"Maplestar sensed the difficulty you were having with assimilating to Clan life and asked me for advice. Truthfully, I'm very grateful to see a cat who seems to have the aptitude to be a medicine cat in the Clan already. It's a great relief, because medicine cats are a rare treasure for a Clan, despite how necessary they are. I believe that you have the ability to become a great medicine cat, Finchflight."
I stared at the spectral cat, my gaze flicking between him and Maplestar. Both gazed at me earnestly, waiting to see my response. I felt my fear melting away a little as I considered the prospect. I could be of use to the Clan, even without having to fight and kill? I could do this for Maplestar and for TreeClan? I felt a great warmth swell up from within me, and I choke a little over a lump in my throat as I murmured, "I will be TreeClan's medicine cat!"