Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[abandonedpools]

L -

Ever since me and my family moved cities, I've been feeling homesick. I know this sounds strange but, mainly, the reason I'm feeling this way is because of you. I've actually liked you for the longest time (E might've told you after I left), and I have no idea if you feel the same way. Maybe once I finally buy my own phone, I can own up the courage to talk to you and tell you these things??

[rogan]

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[Pale Verditer]

Dear Trace,
You could've been the guy they needed you to be so easily.
But at the end of the day, you're sick of trying and it all seems so pointless to you.
You never understood how somebody could love you with all their heart and simply part with you.
How they can walk away from something so perfect, so it seemed, how they said it was perfect and agreed it was perfect, yet they still walk away from it and tell people it wasn't.
You don't understand how they all could do something like that to someone that they loved so much and everytime they leave you, it leaves you sick in the stomach.
It isn't worth your time anymore.
You're so done with it. You're done and past your limits and you have been for a while now.
You don't want to love anymore and I understand. You're tired of being abandoned and heartbroken everytime for something that wasn't of your control. It happened everytime you tried.
You're tired of the constant pain.
One day, it'll blow over.
That is, if you don't get pushed any further.

You had a rough life. Verbally and physically hurt since you were young to now.
You are always scared that everyone is going to hurt you, and when you least expect it to happen, it happens.
It wasn't your fault. It was never your fault that they wanted to hurt you and now, they will never be able to.
You won't have to suffer anymore if you just take my hand.
You've met me before, and I know you aren't scared to meet me again, so there is no need to say my name.
I will save you. I promise.

[breadstick]

hi, future cass.

im aware i did this in gcses , but im sure you’re going to need this again. you are going to be fine, i promise. just remember how you got through 2017 even when you thought you’d never be able to do it and pass - and then you did!
just ... please don’t give up. things are gonna get tough. you know your home life will be frosty for a bit. you know things are going to get tense because you don’t have the time to do everything everyone wants you to do. it will be fine - you have an entire summer to come to terms with university, and you have that time to spend on yourself.
don’t drop your rps, for gods sake. that’s making you really happy, it gives you an outlet - don’t drop them.
just remember:
- expand. expand expand expand. you know you gotta go to extremes in Every One of those essays.
- revise your scholars. flash cards, get josh to test you!
- plan some questions
- test and time your writing
- go. to. the. library. don’t stay in the common room. you KNOW guy will distract you. you don’t need that.
drink well, eat well, don’t skip meals, don’t let anything phase you. you’ve got this!

- past cass

[bloodclot]

dear f,
im sorry . i dont know what else to say. i dont really have a good reason to be sorry but i am sorry. i feel like i could've done better but i keep kinda messing up lol.

[Suave]

Dear K
I'm sorry about my misdirected anger but I really can't release or calm it like normal anger. I'm pretty surprised I don't snap at others during the day- well my impulse control is pretty strong by now but sometimes it takes all of my effort not to say something I'll regret later when I'm in a better mood- my normal mood- me.
But I can't tell you about my condition because I know you would gaslight me. I know you would treat me like I'm making it up as an excuse or something.
I wish I was making it up
I've yelled at G before after all. I've cried for hours over nothing but been completely unable to do anything but distract myself from these feelings even if I know their irrational. I've felt a dark pit inside of me for no reason. No reason but something that has to do with my body, and this condition that hasn't been fully explored or explained yet. And it freaks me out.
I know if I snap at you when I'm like this- like I do often at G, or say something I regret to the other people I love- you won't be understanding you will rip into me and make it somehow about you and make me feel even worse.
So I wish I could tell you so you would be understanding. But I know your not understanding so I can't tell you.
I love you but I also know this is why S distanced herself so far from you and has forgotten even the good parts of you. I don't want that to happen. So I've decided I'm going to bottle this instead. And deal with it on my own like I do everything I often need help with. So that I might retain a shread of our relationship still.
-A

[faiiryliights]

dearest n-

i'm going to make this short. i miss you. i miss your smile. i miss laughing with you. i miss you actually caring about me. wow i sound pathetic, well too bad. shame i miss you since don't even care enough to answer the hello texts i would send you. it's a shame because we were bestfriends since we were both what, like three ? well it doesn't matter anymore, you've chosen your path and left me behind. i'm moving on from our friendship. i'm done trying. i hope your new and better friends as you call them make you happy.

best wishes, ♥

[hiero]

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[bloodclot]

dear t,
im sorry we kinda argue a lot lately but you're just kinda doing it to yourself lol. you could've asked to be with us earlier. k was with us, i didnt invite her, she asked to come, you KNOW you can just ask if u want. its not hard. it was JUST the park.. it isn't that serious love.

[connoisseur]

Dear hamster controlling my brain:

Please stop making me overthink things and making me sad. Also, I need to focus on meeting deadlines so I'd appreciate it if you wouldn't make my primary goal to sleep whenever I can. I need to get more active so stop giving me headaches as energy meals to ignore everything.

Thank you,
The toturued being you control