TheComfortCorner | V.8

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I wish I would have known how badly I was hurting you. I wish you would accept my apology. I wish you would take me back. I would give anything to have you back. It's become so bad that sometimes I wish the pregnancy scare was real so you could have been a father.

[Painful Affinity]

I guess i'm just a little lonely.
Just want someone who's there with me and whom i can hug who's not mom. I mean- i'm happy to have her but like i can't do everything with my mom, i'm an adult. That'd be just awkward. My only good real life friend has not much time so i mostly just text with her and my best friend is a cat. People are hard to socialize with, especially ones i don't know well. Other interactions with people on the internet or otherwise are not all that often or just stop sooner or later.
I just don't want to be alone all the time. It makes me sad.
I feel like i'm gonna be alone forever.
I'm pretty sure this played a role in falling for my exes facade of an honest nice person who likes me for me. I was so attention starved i thought it was love while in truth we were just two broken people messing around with things they shouldn't. Also, the thing with the crossbow and the gun scared the living daylights outta me. I just saw you drinking and aiming the thing and i was glad you weren't drunk enough to aim it at me. I didn't dare say anything about you shooting at those poor lil birds in fear you'd shoot at me instead. I hate myself for that now. I love sparrows and you took the sick pleasure of hurting the poor things, probably illegaly too.
I keep blaming myself for the incidents involving you. I know i was just lonely - but i should have been much more careful, especially considering just /where/ i first met you.
Sometimes i see someone with a similar facial structure and i just freeze up and hope they don't see me, scared it could be you.
Also, that buttnugget kept my teddy bear. Gave me back all my clothes but not my little Rosie? I'm still sad/mad ..smad? about that. Guess my priorities are a little weird, huh?


..sorry i just needed to vent. It's good to get it out after having it replay in your head over and over again. I don't even remember if i already posted this a long time ago. I just needed it out of my system again i guess.

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you've spent so long invalidating me that i feel like i don't even deserve to breathe. you aren't anything to me and when i'm gone i will never speak to you again. it's your own fault i can't stand you.

[GAIRENTH]

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[farewell]

If anyone needs someone to talk to or rant to, feel free to shoot me a message.

[virtual.vulpes]

recently told my mother i've been dating a girl for 3 months (gonna be 4 on the 25th)
she's not mad, but she's afraid I'll become my father.
I can't tell you what he did..
but I can say
he's in jail because of it..

[skyline]

why does every decent or fun day i have, have to end in hell? i can't wait to move out

[airwaves]

every single time i start to feel like i might be happy, something has to happen that makes everything come crashing down again. i'm so tired of this.

[sinensys]

i've wound myself up again. it's too easy to start prattling in your own brain, to fill that parasite with thoughts and images and hopes, but never dreams,

[cornspurrd.]

I just wish I had somebody to talk to,,