hallucinations r not fun
- i miss the way you were shu
you were a good person, we had so much fun
i wish you didn't throw me away for that long
and you kinda just keep on doing it
i wanna blame you for how messed up i am now, how much i aspired to be close with you, only for you to * with me
and tell me to my face that i'm the only one left and how i'm your last choice
i wished i didn't feel that hint of joy when you say you love me, how i'm the only one left and praise me for being so loyal
i feel disgust, too,
but no matter how much you ruin me, i just gotta be happy with it! even over all of these years, throwing me away like that
and lying to me, over and over, i stay with you, and it's toxic for me to do!!!! i know whats happening but
it jusr hurts i guess
no matter how much i am hurt i could never hate you
because i see myself in you, scared, my entire mind feels like a contradiction
you're trying so hard to feel put together, , we're the same, we're both mentally ill to all hell
and when you vent to me, my friends tell me, its not okay for them to do that,
but i see myself doing that, so whats the difference yknow??
we're just both disgusting n thats okay, w'e'll just, die together<!!