TheComfortCorner | V.8

[Gvvdgrief]

I'm super duper duper anxious about travelling alone at the end of this month, to the point of where I can't sleep. If someone with experience travelling alone could PM me that'd be more than awesome

[houndoom]

having adhd is terrible and lately it's just not getting better. i cant study for my exams, i physically cant. and im going to be graded poorly and im going to disappoint everyone and im going to start hating my damn guts again and so on and so forth... you get it.its a vicious cycle. i just wish i could HYPERFOCUS for Once in my dumb life on something i actually need.

[kanata]

no, mother, i'm not mocking you when i explain to you that i can't do things as fast as you.
i genuinely can't. i take 40+ minutes to get ready for school, and when you mock me for it and i explain myself, it's not being rude.
please. just stop.

[i<3 wolves678]

A while back I made a vent on here about some creep who stalked me and my friend around college and stole my college ID card (he was never caught, but in the previously mentioned posts, I go into a lot of detail about all the evidence piled against him, specifically the creepy amount of attention he drew to the picture of me on said ID card.) and for several months now, he has left me and my friends alone completely. I was just recalling the incident to someone today, when I remembered an encounter I had with him the other week, which, at the time, I had completely brushed off considering the fact he hadn’t said anything. The more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I start to feel, as I hadn’t really considered just how weird it had been, and I really don’t understand why I hadn’t, considering who he was.

Me and two of my friends (one of whom became our friend after the incident, and was unaware) had been heading off to lunch, and on our way to the canteen, we saw him. Not really strange, considering that since the initial incident, we’d seen him a lot (the college isn’t really that big) and since he never made any attempt to speak to us, we didn’t take much notice other than to instinctively speed up a little to move away from him. That was when we started queuing up for lunch in the canteen. My friends were just starting to pay for theirs, and as I was waiting to be served, I felt like someone was staring at me. When I turned around, there he was, standing directly behind me. I’m talking like, inches from my face. I almost jumped out of my skin and quickly turned around, and he tried to act normal. I got my lunch, and me and my friends ran out of there as fast as we could. Afterwards, we explained the situation to our other friend, but all of us ended up brushing this new incident off and started a new conversation topic.

This was over a week ago now, and it’s only just starting to settle into my mind how... off it was.
Again, I’m probably just over-exaggerating it in my mind, and it was likely a coincidence he was there, but considering the past, I can’t help but feel really uncomfortable about it now. I never told my parents about it because by the end of the day, I had completely forgotten about it, only probably remembering it now.

It’s probably nothing, as he seems to have taken to the staff’s warnings to stay away from us, and I haven’t seen him since, but I really just needed to get this off my chest.

[gamorasass]

sick in the head. im tired of it.

[cswolf.]

Why don't my parents ever listen when I tell them that work causes me bad anxiety and that they have no right to tell me I am not allowed to quit or say no to working extra. Why don't my superiors do anything about me literally being harassed and bullied at work? Why does my mother side with the bullies? I am honestly done. I am so done. I am done. They will not listen to me so I am getting ready to do my revenge. They are wasting their time bulling me. I. am. done. Also, why do people feel like they have the right to tell what I can and can't do. Why do they feel like their solutions are the only solutions? Why do they not notice my defensive mechanisms? Why do they not notice when I am calling for help? Please, someone needs to help. I can't do this anymore.

[<<3]

I feel like i'm a diposable friend, nobody cares if i'm there and nobody cares if i'm not, nobody cares if my feelings get hurt, but they care if i hurt someone else's feeings. They don't care is the hurt me and make me sad, mad, happy etc.... Especially today during ELA. When i got up and left the table nobody came and asked me whats wrong? they just kept talking and doing work. I don't really trust anybody right now so what does it matter.sometimes its just hard to stand or be happy.

[halo7]

it's all her fault that i feel this way. i always feel that whatever i do i'm being manipulative. i always feel like a manipulative liar whenever i have a different opinion than someone else, or if i want to do something other than my friend does. i feel worthless whenever i want something. whenever i want something other than my friend wants, my brain goes "MANIPULATIVE!MANIPULATIVE!MANIPULATIVE!MANIPULATIVE!" and then i feel bad for myself. i hate it. i hate having to be reassured that wanting to do something different isn't something a manipulative, horrid liar would do.

you ruined me more than you thought.

[prisms.]

Did I
mess it up
like I always do
Now you probably hate me
For trying to help
And I wont
mess things up
again
I'm sorry..

[mikalin]

my grandmother is in the hospital again and i have no idea how long she's going to make it. she's always gone overboard with her "i'm really sick and going to die" but now it's actually true and i just don't understand how to handle the emotions i'm feeling. i've never been good with my emotions but this whole ordeal is just killing me, i know that i love my grandma but i just can't comprehend what I'm feeling and it's making this whole thing even worse...

on top of all that, my brother has been saying some very rude things most of them i can't repeat on cs to me. i get that he's upset because of our grandma as well as his "anxiety and depression" that he blames on everything. i get that every case of mental issues aren't the same but i have those too and i still don't go around telling people that "they're the worst person i've ever met and i wish i've never met them or at least never see their face" and then blame it on my mental issues.
because that's not your mental issues, that's just your horrible personality coming out and you're trying to find something you can blame it on without seeming like a total jerk. but still i'm in tears over this whole thing and i just feel so tired of it all. i wish i could just leave and never experience anything again, it'd make this all so much easier.

no need to reply if someone actually reads this. i just needed to vent and didn't want to burden anyone by dming them and trying to vent to them.