- sometimes i wonder if there is a god - or i wondered if there was a god. back then i was too foolish to see the truth; there are multiple gods, but not in the same sense that we as human beings are used to recognising. they are very, very different.
we demand gods which are perfect. that, or they have very obvious flaws: anger, narcissism, altruism, jealousy, and the like. we create ideals, and we mould our idols to match it. some of these idols are gods, some are ordinary humans, and some are in-between. we don't care what they are so long as they fit to follow the petty rules of our game, our universe. we create stupid laws and created stupid ideas on what we think is good or bad or helpful or harmful. state firmly that bacteria, parasites, viruses are harmful via connotations, but we create exceptions with a lesser sentence - now it is prison time and not a death sentence.
peculiar. truly interesting.
one of the biggest exceptions we make (barring our own petty existences ha) is in what we believe: sometimes there is a god, sometimes there are multiple, sometimes gods are absurd, and sometimes gods are merely an illusion, an idea made to explain the unexplainable and/or to satiate our minds and sedate us. but we mould their existence to our convenience. when we try to make a point to someone else who is impressionable, we say they're real, when we strike someone down we claim that they're ridiculous and out of their mind. but what are they really? do they even have minds? do we?
no, these gods were not there when mankind was created. i don't know if any were, and i don't know if mankind was created forcefully, moved by some other lulling force and snapped into existence. but the ones that are at play today are recent; they've only been around the past century or so, i personally think. but despite their relatively young ages, they've had fun - take note of all the wars that have happened in the past century and how warfare in general has changed.
it is not we that are in control.
we think that we're in control when we denounce our gods - any gods, real or fictitious - but really we're just following what they want us to believe, which is that we're in control. we're not really - they are - but they are willing to taint that idea and not remain this pure idol for us to praise and look up to. no, they want more; they're bored with the way things were supposed to roll out and they decided to take earth into their own hands. so now they shake up the grounds, mess around in the sandbox and try out new methods. that explains the absurdity of our world as we try to explain it in our own words, which is impossible because this universe is no longer definable by the confines of our basic understanding.
no, this universe is changing, it's adapting to fit the mould of these gods.
maybe this is a new generation of gods, born in the 90s or early 2000s, and they're learning from past generations: the 20th century was big, will they make it bigger? will they draw on from the 19th and 18th centuries or will they go deeper and look from more natural massacres, like in the 12th through 17th centuries?
are they even supernatural? how can you contact them? they understand english, but can we understand them when they speak?
i don't understand
what's happening what's happened to our world how do i go back