TheComfortCorner | V.8

[skyline]

i simply cannot fix myself. i try so hard but how am i supposed to help my procrastination? hell i've wanted my acne gone more than anything for six years, and yet i cannot even make myself get up to do a simple cream treatment at night. my mind is so stubborn. my mom blames it on me, she tells me that if i actually did what i was supposed to do to treat my acne, to succeed, then i would. ouch i kinda made her sound worse than intended. she's a great mom, but she doesn't understand that i just can't. i cannot bring myself to do things, she blames me not having any friends on the fact that i don't go to public school, and that she wants to put me back in school. i don't have much time left to make that decision either.

nevertheless, i can't go back to public school, despite the very small amount of time i have left to go, i haven't attended public school since fifth grade. there's no way i could shove myself back in now, maybe that's why i'm so lazy, and procrastinate beyond unholy levels, because i haven't been taught the focus, and organized way to deal with things, i'm not used to that, so my brain cannot fathom actually being productive. maybe it is my fault. maybe my mom is right. but i can't just fix my years and years of broken focus and will to do things on my own, and i don't know how i'm going to get help for it.

i'm also always worried about waking up at 4 pm again, missing the day, and any chance i had to interact with anyone, and yet i still cannot force myself to sleep. the cycle continues though, despite how much i wish to stop it. despite how much i wish to stop all my awful habits. they continue. everything stays the same and i can't do anything.

[bromance]

my hypochondria is acting up and i just don't feel good and i can't get this one symptom out of my head even though i know for a fact it literally means nothing but a cold but my hypochondria says otherwise of course

don't look up my symptoms don't look up my symptoms..

[melaan]

I feel like such an incompetent adult. When I was younger I was so excited to 'grow up' and become successful, confident, and sure of myself. But now I'm an adult and I'm none of those and I can't stop thinking about how younger me would be so disappointed if she knew me now. I'm still young and yeah there's still time but it's hard to stay motivated when I can't shake off the feeling that I'm a complete failure and that I've let down myself and everyone else.

[Silverfang]

I know reading depressing stuff of people feeling awful feeds back into my "loop" of depression so to speak but... I can't help it.
I still feel awful and have stomach pains...I don't feel my meds are doing what they should for anxiety. I don't even really feel "happiness" anymore just... meh.
I want to give up on school. I don't understand any of my math (you know, "normal" algebra? Thought I was smart understanding "basic" lame algebra but I'm wrong...)
My laptop is broken.... maybe...
And I can't seem to not procrastinate anymore. I just feel useless.

[hummxs]

i just need help, someone i can talk to in order to help me with my conflicting decision.

[fiirstcrush]

i,, wish i knew what i did wrong
why am i getting ignored by the one person i want to talk to?
why do i still feel this way for them..
they already said that they don't feel anything atm for anyone
meaning im not even considered
why am i so sad?

[Valac]

help I get nervous over little things and am 97% sure everyone hates me

[- Alice -]

I have so much going on. I am not even gonna go into it. so heres the smallest thing which is bumming me out.... the fact my art is trash no one likes it and I try so dang hard ;-;

[ultimate writer.]

I'm so done..
The game of pretending...please stop.
I'm dying
I'm broken.
My parents are always fighting
My relatives don't even care about us
I'm the only child of theirs
I wish I knew what did I do that I deserved this?
I always wanted to cry. But I hate it when people see my weak side.
I want to get out of the hell I call home.

I don't have real friends. I don't have someone to talk to.

No one understands me.

[hummxs]

i hate being treated like something you scraped off of your shoe. something you can use when you want to and discarded once you lose interest. you want to play? okay. let's play.