by Loxo » Mon Oct 29, 2018 6:20 pm
Dear, D,
You know how some people say that time heals all wounds?
Well, they're lying.
Grief never heals. It never goes away, never subsides, never diminishes or 'gets better', as everyone keeps telling me it will. I'm never going to stop thinking about you. I can't. You're in my head, I think about you wherever I go. I see you every day in complete strangers. Sometimes, I think I can still hear you, but you're gone.
Even anger will heal. I thought that the raw, irritated wounds of fury that I had nursed and allowed to fester for years would never leave me, but I've let them go. I'm happier now, even if it is just marginally so.
But my grief will never got away. It's in my head, I think about it wherever I go. I feel it when I meet complete strangers. It deludes me into thinking you're still here, but you're gone. And nothing that I do will ever change that.
My family is to the point where they can casually bring you up. They just throw your name into a conversation, and I have to clamp a lid on my emotions before I melt down.
From,
The one who will always miss you.