Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[rover]

goodbye, you

[cosmoetic]

Dear L and M,

We used to be such good friends, what happend? I feel like we are growing farther and farther apart each day. You always end up talking to C instead of me, you end up ignoring me and talking to her during lunch, I sit right next to you guys. I feel like I am being cut off. Recently, you 3 decided to go to a haunted house without me, you were discussing the plans as I was sitting right next to you, I have ears too, you know. This made me feel like I wasn't important enough to be invited. I try to shrug it off, but it stays in the back of my head, a reminder of how worthless I am. I truly am trying to stay connected, but it's just so hard. You guys all text each other over social media, which you know I don't have. I'm not in any group chats that you guys are apart of. I want to be a part of these things, is that too much to ask? if you even do text me, it is about homework, I am not a machine that spits out answers, I am a person that wants to carry out a conversation. I feel like my social anxiety is just taking over (not that you even know I have it). If you feel like I'm not contributing to the conversation, its because I'm afraid I will say something wrong. I truly feel like you guys just don't want to be around me anymore. If that is the case, just tell me, I want to know the truth.


Dear A,

You have been really supportive of me recently, and I am very thankful. You have helped me through a tough time, even though you don't know it. This is hard to explain, but I feel a lot happier when I am around you, you make me laugh at the simplest things. You give your attention to me, even when your other friends are around. I feel like we are growing closer than I am to my other "friends". However, my friends don't approve of you, they think you are weird. I'm trying to act like I agree with them, but I just can't. I feel like if my friends found out we were texting, they would think differently of me. I wish there was a way to balance this whole thing, but I feel like that isn't the case.

[Centaurpresident]

My dear sister Kyra,
Remember those pizza bagels I bought the other day? They're gone. I know what you did. I understand that you were hungry, but for real? My bagels?
Sincerely, your infuriated sister, Julia

[Dawnfire5212]

Mouse,

Today was amazing. I had so much fun, and I'm glad you did too. I haven't been the happiest lately, and I've been under a lot of stress. But you made it better. You make me so happy, I'm so glad I have you. Today was awesome, and we get to do it all again tomorrow. Today was the best. You're the best. I love you <333

~Salmon

[seti]

dear j
we were almost friends. remember the tae kwon do demo, 4 years ago? we talked a lot and messed around during rehearsals, and after the demo itself. i thought we might be really good friends. and then you just left. stopped showing up at tkd. no idea why you left or where you had gone. come this year, and now we go to the same school. i see you in the hallways sometimes. not sure if you ever see me. do you remember me? i chopped off the waist length hair i had before, so i wouldn’t be surprised if you didn’t recognize me. kind of wish you did though. i wish you would come talk to me sometime and just let me know that you remember me. that would mean a lot.

i haven’t thought about you in a while to be honest, but your little sister came to tkd today for the first time in a year, and she talked and joked and laughed with me as if she had seen me yesterday. would it have been like that between us if we had time to become friends?

and speaking of your siblings, your brother, b. i was almost friends with him too. we played football after that one tournament where our dojang took home all the trophies. that was probably one of the best days in my life. i see him at school now too, is he already a freshman? time really flies i guess. let him know that i miss him too.

i don’t know why this is so important to me. there are a lot of people in my life that i was almost friends with but wasn’t, but you stand out. i don’t know. maybe you’re different. maybe i was a little in love with you.

i don’t know.

anyway, i hope you and your brother and sister are doing well. since your sister is coming back to tae kwon do, maybe you and your brother will too? would you talk to me if you came back? would you still know my name?

best wishes,
m

[molotov]

dear myself,
please don’t let them get to you, i know it’s hard but you need to keep it together. keep that smile on your face no matter what they say. don’t let them see that your hurting inside because it will only give them more incentive to torment you. just stop letting your stupid emotions get in the way of your goals. and please, for the love of god stop crying at school, your only embarrassing yourself you loser.

[Loxo]

Dear D,

How am I supposed to go on?

Why am I expected to try? To pretend that I’m happy? Fake it until everyone believes that I’m fine?

I can’t do it. I’m broken, shattered, and utterly lost without you.

I miss you more than ever. You were my shoulder to cry on, my go-to buddy. Someone to whom I could rant and rage to all day, and you’d listen to every word. I could talk about my achievements, my likes and dislikes.

Now you’re gone. I don’t have anyone that I can be completely open with. Talking to DR, A, B, M, and S just isn’t the same. I love them, but... I loved you more.

Love,
The one who can never let you go.

[w i n t e r.]

dear a.

for the past few months i've seen you in the halls. your brilliant gray/blue eyes; the soft brown freckles on your shoulders that are only noticeable after you run a race. i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel. deep down, i know you don't feel the same. and that might just break my heart. but you're so confusing. one minute you act like you don't care, the next you're blushing whenever your friends point at me. i'm so confused. please help me put this into perspective. maybe i'll see you run at state saturday.

i do know basketball games are going to be a whole lot more painful when you start dating someone who isn't me. watching you play every game. never able to tell you how i feel about you. i've tried telling my brain to stop liking you, trying to protect myself from an inevitable heartbreak. but my heart can't help making somersaults every time i see you. i hate you and love you for that. maybe one day i'll have the courage to tell you how i feel.


<3 e

[Nutella14]

Dear S
I get that you don't want to go to counselling because you don't think there is anything wrong. I get how hard it was for all three of us which is why you need to go. If you ever took it too far i would never be able to forgive myself for not doing anything. I understand your need to back out, it took my teacher 2 years to get me to go but i need you to suck it up for a little bit. You used money as an excuse not to go but it's not like mum is poor. I just want you to remember that while as your big sister, i am always here for you to talk to, but maybe professional help is the best step forward.
laters little legs

[Lostfairy]

Dear me,
*slowly claps* Good job.
You've got so many things on your plate to do.
You've had them on your plate for MONTHS.
All you do is think about them. Why don't you DO something?
Guilt claws at your heart. I wonder why.
Maybe it's cause you're lazy.
So get up and do something.
-me