TheComfortCorner | V.8

[daughter]

i'm self destructive sometimes in my relationships and i'm waiting for myself to ruin everything i have right now if i haven't already

[onion]

i just need a place to vent and i cant even find that

[Senbonzakura]

I never thought I'd cry over a fictional character. But today I did. I don't know what it was. I just read simple fanfiction and it hurt me. It reminded me that I was alone in the world. It reminded me of just how desperate I was for a loving touch. A secure hug from a loved one. A lover to call my own. I've been alone for so many years. I guess that the fanfiction I read made me think.... What if he was real. What if that really happened. What if someone loved me like he loved me in the fanfiction. It reminded me that no matter how hard I try... I can't change anything. He's not real. That's never gonna happen. I'm alone. And I'll be alone for a long time more. And the thought of that kills me. I've never held such a strong emotion for a fictional character. I've never felt that way towards anything. And this character isn't even from a cartoon. He's from a movie. He's an actor. And I won't every be able to meet this actor. Nevermind the character he plays. I lay here in bed after eleven pm sobbing my eyes out as I type this because I don't know what this feeling is. What the strong emotion I hope towards this character is. And it's scaring me more than anything in the world.

This is the character... For anyone interested...

[wriolette enjoyer]

This is so toxic what I'm doing.
I love you. I loved you for so long but I need to let go.
You're only hurting me and I can't take it crying every night.
This isn't okay...

[sillies]

just as i feel better from the offsite anonymous hate, i receive more. im done. im never ever posting my art anywhere ever again, i hope those anonymous people are happy. i have no confidence in basically what's going to be my whole career

[mynameisbacon]

just as i feel better from the offsite anonymous hate, i receive more. im done. im never ever posting my art anywhere ever again, i hope those anonymous people are happy. i have no confidence in basically what's going to be my whole career

Aww, don't feel that way! Though there can be haters, there are always fans, trying to push through the crowd. Don't mind them, your art is beautiful, you should be confident!

[♡Mewlin♡]

*snuggles the bun extremely tight*

[Monomares]

guess who didn't sleep again last night
have to reschedule my BW appt. bc I'm in such bad shape
I just want to cry sometimes

[dakotapaws]

you told me its pretty likely youll stay with me. i hope thats true. but why am i so insecure now? nothings really changed i dont think. you dont say you love me anymore until you get your emotion sorted, which i completely understand. maybe its because it feels like our communication has taken a downfall. you never really checked up on me to begin with, but i knew you still cared. now i dont know. i keep hoping ill wake up and see a message from you that you love me, but i cant just hang on for months and months still head over heels in love with you and reaching for you when you arent there. i dont want to ask or push to know because youll shut me out more than you already have. i honestly enjoy having you as my boyfriend. you make me happy and help me be less pessimistic. i did tell you i dont want to be drug along until ylu throw it at me youre done. i know i over worry and over think, but you dont give me anything to go on. i have ask and be even more of a bother to try and find out. its been weeks, a. do you even really think about it? im fine waiting, i am. but you avoid all my begging to have a real conversation with you. not even about that but anything in general. we unfortunately are long distance now. communicating is even more important since we cant see each other and you ignored me asking to facetime. i need to know, a. something. anything. please.

i hope i dont just make everything worse, i swear i dont mean to. i do love you. so much.

[.rin okumura.]

College is turning out to be a bust...
I haven't gone to one of my classes in 2 weeks, I'm horribly sick and I just wanna go home...

I love what I'm doing regardless. I love my theatre classes and I'm so happy I switched my major to Theatre. I've made so many wonderful friends and I feel apart of something..

So why am I having all these conflicting emotions??