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[「 vivien 」]

I hate myself so much, words
cannot explain the slightest
bit.

[douceur]

i'm sorry for being transgender. i'm sorry for being so disgusting to you. it doesn't matter how many people tell me "come out, they won't hate you!" i know they will. they'll hate me forever. they've said it. they've told me that if i were transgender they'd hate me. so i'll have to hide in this body forever, even though i'll have to spill some tears and blood to do so. i'm sorry for being born like this. i'm sorry that it's not a phase. i'm sorry that i'm a disgrace and that i'm less than dirt to you. but i still love you, and i hope that i'm not too evil, at least in your eyes.

I'm sorry. I might not understand what you are going through, but to me, all transgender people are brave and beautiful. It takes courage to be who you want to be, no matter what society says. Please do not be ashamed of who you are inside, and continue to love yourself because you are worth it.

[guh-huh!]

a haiku:
i just want to sit
and cry until my eyes
run out of tears lol.
anyways, i'm really tired and my college classes are so hard
and everything's falling apart i hate it so much.
it's only been one week but i know i can't do any better
and i'm such a failure to everyone including muself
and i don't know what to do anymore.

[Eagle's Eye]

My sleep is getting worse. Yesterday I took a 1.5mg melatonin pill at 9PM to help me sleep, but it still took me more than 2 hours for me to actually fall asleep. Then I woke up at 2AM and now it's 7 but I'm unable to fall asleep. I am tired of, well, being tired. I just want to be able to fall asleep and wake up like normal people. I need to be productive because I really have a lot of stuff to finish this school year but I can't do much when I have a pounding headache and feel really irritable. I've tried everything - warm showers before bedtime, only resting on bed and not working there, not having an empty stomach, having a consistent sleep schedule, exercising, being under the sun for a long time, putting electronics away before bedtime and listening to relaxing music. At this point I feel like I really need to go see a doctor but I'm pretty sure my mom won't let me. She doesn't understand how much this has been affecting my everyday life. Plus I am unfamiliar and uncomfortable with hospitals so I can't sneak to one by myself

[rena.]

watching people achieve my dreams faster than i can really hurts. like sure i'm happy for them but i feel horrible that i couldn't reach that goal too. it hurts so much. i work so long and hard for something while others manage to achieve it within a few months time.

[Atlas ♥]

watching people achieve my dreams faster than i can really hurts. like sure i'm happy for them but i feel horrible that i couldn't reach that goal too. it hurts so much. i work so long and hard for something while others manage to achieve it within a few months time.

We are naturally used to comparing ourselves to others. While the internet made our world smaller, it's also made the things available for comparison. So you start thinking, "Hmm... I'm not as good as that person, so why do I even bother?".

Don't get distracted by what other people can do or think - just use these things for inspiration and motivation. Above all, listen to your own feelings and do what makes you happy.

Nobody is perfect, we are all unique and diverse. ♥

[strawbewwy.]

dont know why i bother. im a failure. cant do nothin right. dont know why i try.
tired of pain pain pain it hurts so much i want to cry its not fair

[koumei]

i shouldn't be wanting more than i have right now.
but why do i still yearn for many things that i've lost the opportunity to even get close to having a long time ago?
i have to face it. it's happening with two different situations, too - but i haven't learnt to move on.
when i want to open up about it, i say cryptic stuff life this, being as vague as possible and avoiding the problem.
however, even if i could face it head on, nothing would change.
i liked people, but just to the point where it's a kind of platonic crush. or maybe i just want to be friends.
however, i can't even bring myself to. and soon they were both gone, and i probably couldn't have even established any type of relationship with them at all in the first place. i guess i always fall for the trick my mind plays on me, that they even find me enjoyable to be around, but they're just being nice, and perhaps even sometimes out of pity... i keep making up this stuff in my head.

[cornspurrd.]

out on the boat earlier... I realized how special life is.. How beautiful existing is? I've spent the last 5 months living with the option of ending this beautiful life of mine sitting in the back of my head..? I hope more people will have the same realization I did. This world may be so ulgy, and the demons inside of us are even uglier. But it's the little things, like a boat ride with family at sunset that really makes it all worth it. I've really reached a breakthrough with my depression, I've found happiness again. It might end soon, it will come back as it always does these little breaks never last long, but hopefully.. surely.. one day everything will be a-okay

[Mooshidog]

I absolutely hate it.

Seeing peoole meet their online friends. Posting it on every platform

And here I am. Probably never going to meet mine.

ugh...