by Wanderer. » Tue Apr 19, 2011 9:21 am
Wolffang made it into the camp, his head spinning. He shook it to clear it but the thoughts still tried to overcome him. Hollyfur needs help now, deal with the rest later. He scorned himself. Looking around the clearing and with no help in sight he went as quickly as he could to the medicine cat den, bursting in. He almost fell back when the memory hit him of his first days of Clan life. Struggling forward as someone had hold of his tail and was trying to keep him from moving. Laying Hollyfur down in a bed safetly, he nosed her. "Hollyfur, Hollyfur..." He tried to speak to her but his own thoughts wouldn't stop talking to him. Flashes of memory hit him, seeing them as clearly as the day he'd lived them. Seeing bleeding cats, weak and defeated, being trapped beneath relentless claws, scratched over and over, until they collapsed, dead. They're attacker looked at them in... Pity? Horror? No, it was pride. Suddenly the scene changed, and the previous attacker was on the ground this time, grey fur coated in blood, surely dead. Wolffang was frozen in place, feeling the agony the cat had felt, the worry coated by determination that had to be Silversong's as she worked, her paws moving quickly across a lump that looked dead, it's fur slicked back with herbs, blood gushing out of uncountable wounds. I wouldn't want to be them. As soon as the thought passed through his head he shuddered. It is. He realised. He looked at how slim he was, how weak, and gulped. Not because of how he had looked in the third or even the second, but the first as it dawned on him he had been the attacker. His eyes were wide with horror as he saw the cat he truly had been. Still am. My name may of changed, but am I really a better cat then I was before? It took all of his strength to stay standing. That blow hit him harder then he'd ever felt before. Shaking his head slowly he backed out of the den, speeding to an all out run, desperate to get as far away as he could from any cat. One thought ran through his head, louder then the others, over and over. I deserved to die.
((I'll edit and make the others in a sec, but that took all the writing out of me. I'm suprised it was that long))