dear a,
I realize those days i spent with you wouldnt last. Time goes by faster than we can blink our eyes, and i have made so many mistakes. I
fill my moments of grief, regret and helplessness. I cant take it anymore. I want you to be better. I want to here you say "now" instead
of ''soon''. I cant watch you get worse day by day. I want you to be happy. I want you to be hopeful. I want change from you. I have given
up my sleep to the waves of my troubled mind, always concerned about how life will be tomorrow. I wish my stress and insomnia of you
would go away. I cant think straight. I just try to get through my day without you being in my way, so you wont notice my dark eyes and
swollen heart from the pain i have been given. I didnt leave you. I want you to know that. I just found an easier route in this path called
"life". I wanted a break from the pain from all the weights youve given me. I thought I made you happy. I thought you were getting
better. But I was wrong, and still am. I want you to actually listen to me, and not push me aside. You need to understand that you
cant just have 1 friend. You cant just expect m and I to just hang out with you everyday. Thats not how it works. Please forgive me,
and please smile for once. Once is all i can expect from you. I wasted so many days on you.
im sorry.
love,
Grace