Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Mykie]

Dear self,

Get it together. Your grades are slipping, your anxiety is rising, you cry too much. Sometimes you need to just breathe, focus, and dont let your problems stop you from achieving what you need to get done. Everything is falling apart. Sometimes i wish i could just take the burden out of peoples lives by not being there. I’m a terrible friend/person, and i apologize whoever meets me. There are times i wish i could just be taken away by some freak accident but then i think about the people who care about me. Theres not many but they’re there. Right now i’m sitting in the bathroom, crying, thinking about how i thought i used to have it bad. I used to be so happy and the slightest thing would make me upset, but now, now I dont even know what happiness is. I always have on a fake smile, i always act fine, but on the inside my heart just wants to beat one last time and get over with it. I didnt want to admit to myself that i wished it was over, but now i have and i feel much, much worse. I feel selfish saying these things, knowing it could be much worse and my life isnt all that bad. I dont know what is continuously bringing me down. I want to talk to my mom about feeling this way, but i dont want her thinking its her fault, i dont want her to feel like she raised me incorrectly. At the beginning of this school year, it was great. I had friends, i had people i could talk to, i wasnt as awkward, but now, I feel like there isnt much for me in life and i feel like im just taking up unnecessary space. The only thing i wish i could answer is ‘what went wrong?’ What went so wrong in my life where i dont even want to be alive anymore? Just what happened?

[escapalization]

j,

i'm sorry. i really am. i know we're still friends, and
i know you still love me, but i can't help but worry.
you're the person i trust more than anyone else,
and honestly? having differing opinions hurts. i'm
completely aware of how clingy i'm being, which is
why i'm not actually telling you this.

i just want to say: i'm still me. i'm still the girl you've
been best friends with for months. i've been gay for
a year and a half, and we've only known each other
for a year. me telling you doesn't change anything, or
i hope it doesn't. maybe i'm being selfish. i know
this is a surprise, and you need time to process it. but
please don't treat me any differently than you would
had i not told you.

it's ok to be different, j.
love, k

[Kendall Roy]

White for privacy

Hey Elise,Jade and Olivia.
I know I'm not like you but,
we are friends,kind of,well
I thought we were,maybe
you all think I'm weird,strange
unattractive,fat,whatever
and you talk about me behind
my back or gossip on SC,I'm
going to try and not hang
out with you guys on
Mondays anymore,it makes
me feel awkward,left out
and I know it would be
better if I wasn't there,
please stop talking about the
gathering or whatever you
wan't to call it,its making
me feel really awkward and
left out,I'm fed up of being
the fourth wheel,the one
who follows you around,thats
just not me,I'm not a sheep
I'm not going to become distant
or whatever,when you walk off
don't expect me to be there
when you turn around,I would
rather be alone than left out,
from me,the one who feels alone.
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[Cherry Boy]

@insert name of one of my many uncles lmao

I got kinda scared when I heard you were in the hospital because of a motorcycle incident, but my father told me you got out good of the operation, I probably can't visit you due to the hospital hardly letting people in but I really hope you feel better and hope seeing you at my grandmas house soon!!

@myself
Get inspiration for the Black Goku drawing, the due date of the contest is in 3 days aaaaaaaaa

[Fwutter]

Don't kill yourself. Please.

[Soll]

The drama has finally ended, please let's not ever fight like this again. I'm so afraid of losing you guys, it's already happened once. If it happens again, I don't know what I'll do with myself. I know that I've done and said some pretty crappy stuff to and about you guys, but all of the words I've said came from the fear and hurt that I felt. I still have the constant fear that you guys still talk about me behind my back, I just want your trust back so I can feel complete again. I still want to meet you guys, all of you, you guys all truly mean a lot to me.
You guys have been there for me through my hard times, even if your support was fake. You've saved my life and almost made me lose it, my sould is so filled with regret for the things that I've done. There are no words that could possibly explain how sorry I am for the hurt that I've caused you guys, I just want things to go back to what they were before all of the hatred and drama.
My trust level is thin, but it's still there for you guys, no matter what happens I'll never in my life leave you guys, I'll always be right here beside you to support and protect you, I'll risk my life and accept you, I'll help and respect you. I love you guys, please just don't leave my life again.

To; A, R, M
From; S

[Mykie]

Dear mr E,
I hate you with a passion. You hurt me emotionally in a really harsh way. You dont know how many times i’ve cried because of you. You make my anxiety much worse, you think you’re helping but you’re really not. Thanks for causing my first panic attack.

[idyll]

everything is so frustrating and i just feel so alone
i feel so isolated and i feel stupid for anything i say
i dont know why this happens with nearly everyone i befriend but eventually you all just sort of decide i'm too weird for you or something and i'll be the first to admit my personality is weird and stupid and i'm stupid, and i think i'm funny when i'm not, and i'm probably just annoying and out of place
just
let me know if i should leave you alone
i'll stop sending my stupid messages
i'll stop
i'm sorry

[palms]

you ruined me, and you ruined my trust for everyone
i fell so hard for you but i never meant anything to you and you left me as soon as you found someone new
you keep trying to come back into my life just to make sure that i'd still be waiting for you, but i'm not anymore
i'm not going to feel bad for you again, i won't let myself fall for you after everything you've done to me.

[gophic]

dear l,

you were my best friend, somebody i trusted more than anyone else. i forgave you over and over again, because i thought you would never want to hurt me; after all, you were my best friend, the girl i'd take my life for, the girl i'd do anything for. i thought our friendship was normal, and i constantly took you back as a friend, because i didn't want to lose you. i loved you. i still do love you. when i finally realized our friendship was toxic, and i was putting in more than i was getting back, i dropped you. i thought once i dropped you, my depression would disappear, and my trust would regain; it never did. sometimes i wonder if breaking off the friendship was a mistake. i see you laughing and smiling everyday. i used to be the one to make you do that. everyone thought we were the cutest best friends, but nobody saw the behind the scenes. i wonder every day how you're doing, and i would never wish anything bad upon you. i want so badly to forgive you for the things you did to me, but i can't. you ruined me. i'm still paying the consequences of our toxic friendship, yet you seem fine. i hope one day i can bring myself to forgive you.

-ally