spaceI packed quickly, only grabbing the essentials, then made haste to get as far from my home and that pack as possible. I would have made it, too, if it weren’t for one small thought.
spaceAdira. spaceI needed to tell her I was leaving, I couldn’t let her think I died. Maybe she would even come with me, providing more company than just a voice in my head. I turned around and rushed back the way I had traveled, ignoring the screaming voice in my head and heading to Adira’s home. Halfway there, I ran into Edrea and Raven. They were accompanied by several other viscets, and the look they gave me was not one of welcome.
space “So. That is why you played stupid.” Edrea’s eyes slowly drifted towards me from a small, calico marked fox. “Son of Heian.”
spaceMy ears flicked back. “Hey, I just found out too, okay? And I don’t align to him, I don’t support anything he has done.”
spaceRaven released a chuff of air and glared, his eyes dark with bloodlust. “So he says when he is cornered.” His tail whipped and the other viscets around them bared their fangs at me. I knew what I needed to do, even before Heian screamed it at me.
space”Run!” spaceI turned tail and sprinted, my legs flying over the ground and my heart pounding in my neck. I could hear them running after me. I ran faster, pushing my body to its limits and thanking my past self for partaking in those races.
spaceLeft, right, left, right, left, right. My steps pounded the ground, stamping pawprints into the loose dirt and mud. I had gotten farther away now, but they still persisted.
space”Watch out! I came to a screeching stop at the sound of his voice.
spaceLights flared from all sides and I looked around in a panic, my breath rushing in and out of my lungs in a flurry. He was coming. He had found me. The screeching in my ears increased and I lurched forward, hunching over and pressing my palms against the base of my ears, desperately trying to drown out the screaming voices. It didn’t work.
spaceRaven stepped out from the lights and they died down. He was growling, but the sound was muffled. I was terrified, I couldn’t stop shaking and I didn’t know why.
space”You are going to need fight back, Orion. You have our powers, so you need to use them.”space“No! I won’t hurt anyone!”
spaceMy head shot up and I stared at them. They were angry, all of them. I tried to run, but my legs stood where they were, trembling. I couldn’t run from them. Not from family. They approached me and attacked me, beating me down with claw and fang.
spaceI cowered and whimpered from the blows, trembling in terror and pain.
space”You won’t hurt them! You need to protect yourself! Now, Orion!”spaceI cried out for help, but my voice was drowned out by angry shouts. Ignored by all, except for one. The blue light radiated from within me, then shot out, electrocuting my attackers.
space”Good, good. . .” His voice was amazed, and it terrified me. Slowly, I opened my eyes and looked at the viscets who were attacking me moments before.
spaceThey were cowering now, calling me by his name. My breathing was shaky and my skin aches from open wounds. Slowly, I lifted my head and gazed at them.
space”If you let them go, they will kill you. Raise your arms and force your will to survive outward.”[i/]
spaceHis voice spoke clearly in my head, giving me instructions. Slowly, I raised my hands and pushed my will into my palms. My will to be free, to survive, to be at peace. All of them swirled in my palms, then exploded outward.
spaceElectricity shot out in a wave from my palms and it struck them with the force of a typhoon. Trees bent and cracked and voices screamed in pain. Raven dove and protected Edrea, taking most of the impact on his back. Some tried to flee, some dropped in terror, most stood and stared as the wave rushed over their heads.
spaceI stared at them, emotionless. Some who were closer to me lay dead or wounded on the ground, the others fled screaming. I lowered my hands and the voice praised me. I felt like vomiting.
space[i]”You did what you needed to, they would have killed you if you didn’t do it.”spaceI turned slowly and lurched forward, my stomach churning. My throat was too tight to speak, so my mind did it for me.
Shut up.[i/]
spaceI ran from the scene, ignoring my body's cries of pain. Things were going dark and I knew I could collapse soon, I just needed to get away from them.
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space“And that is how I got here.”
space“Wow! That’s a lot to take in! So, that electricity stuff just kind of happened?” Agni tilted his head, his eyes wide and his ears held high with interest.
spaceI sighed slowly and nodded at equal speed. “Yeah. Heian said he helped me, but the part with the guardians was all me. I haven’t been able to use any of Halonna’s power yet.”
space“Huh. Do you think it’s because she rejects you as a son?”
spaceI stood abruptly and started walking. “I don’t know.”
spaceHe followed after me, tail waving with interest. “So, where are you going to go now? Follow your old man, seek your mom, or go after your lover?”
spaceMy steps faltered and I gave him a crooked glare. “First, Adira is a friend, don’t get the wrong image in your head. Second, I don’t know, okay?” Agni grinned in response and I turned away. My head ached now.
space“Well, can I tag along?”
space“I’d rather you not.”
space“That’s not a no!” His steps turned into skips and my head lowered. I was too tired to fight with him now, so I just gave up and let him tag along, figuring he would just get bored eventually and roam off again.
spaceWe traveled for some time in an aimless direction, Agni rambling on about his life and hobbies and me partially listening, but mostly talking to Heian. Since the incidents, I had felt him more strongly, almost like a physical presence standing beside me. I still was weak from the first time I used the lightning, but he assured me it was just from using my powers and that my strength would return to me in time. I trusted him, after all who else could I trust? The only reason Agni didn’t try to kill me or run when I admitted my heritage was because he was too mentally unscrewed to understand fear.
spaceAgni was a nice viscet, and I am sure at another time we could have become friends, but either the fresh wounds from those who I thought to be kind or the lack of strength after the events to follow their attack made my mind easily agitated and frustrated, and he was becoming more like a knife scraping on a stone now.
space“Hey, Agni.”
space“Yeah?” He stopped talking immediately and looked as though he had instantly forgotten what he was discussing.
space“I’m a little hungry, and exhausted. Could you hunt?”
spaceAgni paused, his mouth agape and his eyes wide like an innocent child as he processed my request, then, in an instant, his lips peeled back into a twisted smile and his eyes glittered with excitement. A chill rushed down my spine and remained even after he had sprinted off erratically to capture - no, kill - the first thing he would come across.
spaceWith some quiet, I turned to Heian. [i]What should I do now? I have no home, no money, and no support. It doesn’t help that the guardians are likely on my tail now, which means that I must be known in several packs now. Besides, it won’t be long until word of what happened with Adira’s pack spreads out to others and they find out about us.space”I know, don’t worry, though. I am keeping a good eye on them, word hasn’t spread yet. Some packs know the guardians are looking for you, but they were wise enough not to spread any word that you hear my voice. Keep your guard up, though, and avoid large bodies of water and open fields.”[i/]
spaceI nodded slowly and turned my eyes to the sky. [i]So, this is my life, now?space”It doesn’t have to be. My suggestion still stands.”spaceMy fingers clenched and I looked down at them.
Meet Libra and learn of his plans. I felt Heian nod, and frowned. Libra was a well known monster around, particularly after the destruction he had caused. It seemed like a clear omen of bad things to come if I went to him, but then again. . . He was a follower of Heian, and would likely treat me with respect when he discovered my link to him. I turned my head to the west where the black clouds of sand swirled, marking Libra’s home. It was such a dangerous place that even the guardians steered clear. They say nothing but evil is grown in those lands, but if I am a child of evil and if I am already a killer, then perhaps I would fit in.
spaceAgni arrived just in time, his mouth and chest soaked with blood and a creature so mutilated I could not recognize its species hanging limp in his jaws. He dropped it to the ground and grinned at me, then licked blood from his lips. “I got one!”
spaceI laughed nervously and nodded, not taking my eyes off of Agni. “Yeah, good job. . .” Slowly, I reached down and picked up the carcass, my eyes still trained on him.
space“So, any new plans?”
space“Well, I was thinking of visiting Libra.”
spaceAgni’s eyes lit up. “Ooh~ I love that guy! He’s pretty mellowed out for a murderer, ya know. It’d be nice to meet up with him again.”
spaceI slowly nodded, uncertain. “Well, I plan on leaving in the morning. I need to get some rest first.”
spaceAgni nodded rapidly. “I will stand guard while you sleep!”
space“How about you sleep as well? It will be a long journey.” I wanted nearly everything except those vicious eyes “protecting” me as I slept.
space“Nope! Can’t sleep, won’t sleep!” He grinned at me and I realized I was fighting a losing battle.
space“Alright, just. . . make sure I am safe, okay? There are a lot of viscets out there who would want me dead.”
spaceAgni saluted and grinned at me. After a moment, I ate the creature he had hunted and curled up tightly.
Heian?spaceHeian chuckled in my head.
”Don’t worry, the kid won’t hurt you. I’ll keep an eye out, too, if that soothes your mind.”spaceI nodded slightly and slowly, cautiously, allowed myself to fall asleep.
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spaceThe night was dreamless, yet when I awoke I somehow felt worse and more exhausted than I had the night before. Slowly, I peeled myself from the ground and cracked my eyes open just in time to see Agni’s head whip around to stare at me with eyes screaming murder. I froze up and stared back at him, terrified. After a moment, his eyes calmed into that same blissful cheer he usually had and he welcomed me to the land of the awakened.
space“Thanks. . .” I slowly sat up and glanced around. There were bodies of what seemed to be squirrels and birds, and several squashed remains of insects scattered all around us. I turned back to him, looking for an explanation.
space“Many things tried to draw too close to you in your sleep. I protected you.” He grinned at me and I nodded slowly.
space”You have got to give it to him, the kid is one heck of a guard dog.”spaceI slowly got up and stretched, popping my joints out of their stiff states.
Hey, since you’re awake, why am I still so tired?space”It’s just a side effect. It’s lasting longer than expected, but it should be fine. Just give it another night.”spaceI nodded slowly and started making my way west, towards Libra’s home, Agni tagging along close behind.
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space“So, how exactly did Halonna have a kid with Heian?”
spaceI stared at Agni, startled and unsure what to answer with. “Like, they’re sworn enemies, right? Day and night, light and dark, good and evil, sun and moo- Wait, doesn’t that make you an eclipse?!”
spaceMy stare was maintained until I slowly forced it to fade. “Well, they weren’t always enemies. How Heian explained it to me was that in the past they were equals, but Halonna won the hearts of the public and drew them to her, forcing them to turn their back on him. He got angry and confronted her, and she denied ever having done that. Since then, they’ve been having worse and worse battles. Well, I was laid before that first argument began.”
spaceAgni was staring at me with wide, startled eyes now and I eyed him uncomfortably. “How
old are you?!”
spaceI stiffened at his tone. “Well, I didn’t hatch for a few centuries, so only twenty-four.”
spaceAgni blinked, then grinned calmly. “Cool! So you’re like the boring immortal! The one where people ask what it was like to be there during great events in the past, but you can’t say because you missed it!”
spaceI blinked slowly and nodded, just accepting his comparison without question, more for my sake. “So, how far do-”
space“Sh.” The sudden serious tone in his voice stopped me dead in my tracks and sent my feathers on edge. I stared back at him uneasily as he stared off into the trees, his eyes trained on something mine couldn’t see.
Heian?space”Don’t ask me, kid. I don’t know what he sees.”spaceI gulped and watched Agni, not daring to take a step or speak a word. He leaned forward slightly, then darted off in a flash, bolting into the woods with a vicious snarl. I shuddered and slowly turned my head away, but I smacked my muzzle against a firm jaw.
spaceI jumped back and stared at the viscet who had seemed to appear from thin air. He had wings and antlers resting on his head, and his body was coated in tawny feathers with serpentine-like markings. He was one of the guardians, the newest. My ears fell back and my eyes narrowed.
Act tough. He’s a newbee, he will back down if he’s intimidated.space”That won’t work. Relax, let me handle this one.”spaceNo. I can do this.spaceHeian growled, but I ignored him. “What do you want?”
space“I have a few questions for you, Orion. Would you mind answering them?”
space“You’re on a time limit. Agni doesn’t like it when others are near me.”
space“Agni is preoccupied at the moment.”
spaceI frowned and tensed, not taking my eyes off of him. “Alright, if that’s what you like to believe. What do you want to know?”
space“You said you heard Heian, yes? Do you know why?”
spaceI frowned. “He refused to tell me for a while.”
space“But he has, now. Can you tell me?”
space“I’m not sure if you want to know.” I did my best to dance around his questions, but his answers were so immediate that I was beginning to worry he could read my mind.
space“I do, trust me.”
space“No, you really don’t. He’ll curse you if you do.”
spaceThe male frowned, unamused. “Orion, stop dodging my questions. I would rather just get this done between us without having to call over the others.”
spaceI frowned back, working hard to mimic his expression. “Well, why don’t you? You saw how well that worked out last time.”
spaceHe sighed clenched the left side of his jaw. Lightning rippled along his antlers and my eyes widened a little. “I’m positive I could handle you.”
spaceA sound yanked my attention away from him and I turned my head sharply to stare at Agni as he shot from the trees, a dark female with a mane of fire hot on his tail. He whipped around and made a move to claw her face, but she ducked and smacked her skull against his stomach, throwing him down.
space“Hey!” I let down my guard toward the male and took a step towards the female. Almost immediately, I regretted it. Not because of the male, or the female, or even Agni, but because of Heian. He had been waiting anxiously for something to distract me to take control for a split second. Black lightning shot from my chest and struck the male directly in the left eye. The lighting rippled through his body and he cried out in pain and clutched his eye, catching the attention of Agni and the female.
space“Apep!” The female sprang from Agni and ran to the male, Apep. Then turned her head to the left. “Allaster!” She shouted out another name, then her sharp eyes rested on me. Her mane flared as anger surged through her body. I immediately recognized who she was: Pele, the fiery tempered guardian of the seas. “You! What did you do?!”
space“I didn’t, I-”
spaceAgni sprang up and caught her muzzle in his jaws. He threw her down and released a blood curdling snarl. He tensed to pounce on her and likely kill her, but a hound made of fire shot from the forest and collided with his chest. He fell backward, screeching in pain and fear, then scrambled up to his paws and fled as quickly as he could. From where the hound had come, the large male who had interrogated me, Allaster, jogged out and stared at the scene before him. Apep was no longer screaming in pain, but he still clutched his eye and stood hunched, breathing heavily, his feathers shaking ever so slightly. Pele was standing, her muzzle bleeding from the bite inflicted by Agni. Her mane was raging.
spaceAllasters eyes rested on me, and mine narrowed. “Hey, I swear I didn’t do any of this.” He made his way towards me and I held up my paws in surrender. He shoved past Pele, pushing her to Apep as he did, then came nose-to-nose with me.
space“You’re his son, aren’t you?” His voice was hushed so the others couldn’t hear, but it only made him more intimidating. “It explains your power, attitude, and some of your coloration. So, tell me, are you his heir? Do you plan to live to his legacy?”
space“I don’t know.”
spaceHis eyes narrowed and something else seemed to click in his mind. His thoughts were going too quickly for me to keep up and I found myself fumbling to answer, unable to find time to make up lies or excuses. “So it wasn’t you who attacked Apep right now, but him. Am I right?” I nodded, then shook my head, then nodded again. “So is he able to control you?”
space“He never did it until just now.”
space“You look tired. Have you lost sleep?”
space“No. I am just tired from the fir-”
space“Are you sure he is on your side?”
space”Orion. . . push him back. . .”space“Yes, why wouldn’t he be? He is my father.” I bristled slightly, unsure of where this is going.
space“He is Heian, father or not. Having a child does not always change one for the better.”
spaceMy ears flattened. “Well, maybe if you didn’t always give out stereotypes then maybe he could change.”
space“I understand you are upset for possible actions taken towards you for your father’s name. From your wounds, I can say safely that the night we met must have been after an attack related to it. However, release your pride and listen to me. He is not helping you, but using you. You have your mother and father’s power, do you not?”
spaceI narrowed my eyes. “And who is my mother?”
space“Halonna, that part is obvious.” I blinked, unsure of what he meant. “Have you been able to use any element affiliated with her?” I slowly shook my head. His eyes glanced up at the sky. “And have you noticed the moon?”
spaceMy eyes drifted to the sky. There, attempting to hide behind clouds, the moon rested in broad daylight, a golden tinge to it.
space“He is using you. Sapping the powers you were given and using them to reach her.”
spaceHeian, what is he talking about?space”He’s trying to get into your head. Don’t let him. Force him back or let me do it.”space“Think about it. Wouldn’t it make sense for you to use both powers?”
space“Halonna never spoke to me, though.”
space“And are you sure he isn’t blocking her out? Or perhaps he is hiding you from her sight. I’ve noticed you’ve been hiding in the shadows quite a bit.”
space“He told me to do so to avoid Apep.”
space“Are you sure that is it?”
spaceMy head hurt. I wanted things to stop being so confusing, but there seemed to be no clear answer. Everything he said made sense, and no matter how hard I tried or willed I could not find a way to deny any of it.
space”Don’t tell me you’re falling for this.”space“Just. . . let me think.”
space“Don’t let him lie to you, Orion. Figure it out for yourself. Put the pieces together.”
space”Orion! Are you really listening to this fool?!” His voice was getting sharper.
space“Yes- No- I. . . I don’t know!”
space”Orion!”space“Keep him back, Orion. You can do it.”
spaceI slowly curled inward, my paws tensing and my eyes scrunching closed.
spaceHeian stopped talking, but Allaster persisted, trying to tell me to put pieces together and figure it out. My mind screamed at me, battling itself with logic and reason and my innards tore at each other like Agni with those creatures.
spaceAll at once, it was shattered with a new chaos. Pele screamed and Allaster and I turned to stare as Apep threw her to the ground, his eyes dark with the blackish purple lightning flowing through his body. He bared his fangs at Allaster and rushed towards him. Allaster sucked in a sharp breath and jumped back. Apep’s fangs grazed Allaster’s neck, taking a few feathers off of his chest. Allaster whistled and the fire hound leapt upon Apep’s back and barked, trying to stop him without injury. Apep threw the hound and rushed Allaster again. In the chaos, I saw my chance. I turned around and fled the scene, rushing as far from them as I could. I heard Heian begin to talk to me, but shut him out forcefully. I needed to think for myself, I needed to figure this out. My legs moved as quickly as my mind and I ran to nowhere and everywhere while my mind ran back in time, to my life before and the signs that were presented to me. I could not deny anything Allaster had said.
spaceI did not count the steps or minutes I had run before fatigue seized me. The exhaustion - or draining of my powers - drove my knees to the ground and I struck the earth with force. I was at the edge of the forest, my head just barely peeking out into the light. I laid there, panting heavily with vacant, teary eyes. I didn’t know what to believe or do anymore. In only a few days, everything I had known to be true had been thrown from the window and dropped into an endless pit of deceit. Slowly, I closed my eyes. It felt nice to rest them, and the soft red light that shined through them was almost comforting. It reminded me of the past, of the days with Adira when we were kids, energetic with no clue as to what the future would bring for us. Slowly, a tear broke free and fell down my cheek feathers. Adira. I had no doubt she heard what I had done. I feared to know what she thought of me now. A murderer who attacked those who had helped to raise me and who had hurt a guardian who showed no signs of wanting to harm me. My lips curled upward. I was disgusting.
spaceSuddenly, the red on my eyelids grew into a searing white and I crinched away, scrunching my eyes tighter. Slowly, the intensity faded and I opened my eyes, unsure of what had happened. Before me, I saw soft paws resting on the ground. They took a step towards me, then bent as the body lowered to my head. I looked up at the gentle, sad face of a white and gold female with a shimmering halo resting above her head. Slowly, she knelt before me and rested a paw on my cheek. I don’t know why, but I leaned my head against her touch. It was comforting, a happy feeling. I felt some strength return to me, but was still unable to stand.
space“What is your name?” Her voice was gentle, but sadness and guilt clung to it.
space“Orion.” I slowly closed my eyes, not having the energy to keep them open any longer. I wanted to sleep now. A warm, wet tear fell on my snout and the skin twitched there, but I didn’t move and more than that. I fell asleep to the sound of her quiet sob above my head.