TheComfortCorner | V.7

[winged-backpack]

Idk what to do. My grades are slipping, I'm full of anxiety from a job of which I've only actually done one shift at and my mental health is taking a minor detour off a cliff. I don't want to let my boss down, because he's a nice guy and i would hate for him to be stressed over hiring someone new. I've gone to the doctor and been referred to a psychiatrist but who knows how long it's going to take for even the preliminary session? I need to get 3 As to get into my dream school, and I'm currently on ADE...I'm failing two of my subjects and I don't want to have to redo a year of school. I'm just panicking because I have a huge fear of failure and I really don't know what to do.

My inbox is open for anyone else who might need someone to talk to <3

I should probably add that the reason working at this pub gives me anxiety is a) I'm still not 100% trained and keep making mistakes, and b) it's in this tiny village where I live and the people who come in when I'm working are incredibly homophobic and I'm gay. I'm not in any danger there, the owner is a really nice guy, but I just feel so marginalised and attacked there.

I could really use some help with this, I have to work tomorrow and I've got to decide whether to quit or not by then :-/

[Spearow]

feeling really depressed tonight, and really alone. i can’t sleep at all lately and my mind is stuck on bad memories
and having some serious money problems, i’m so broke i’m scared to buy coffee before classes and i’m always checking my bank everyday to make sure i have enough money to make it through the next month. and i live alone its not like i have anyone to share the worry with. just my two little cats

[cornspurrd.]

They banned me from training my dog.
The first banned me from instagram, took away my
only friends. Instead of looking towards my friend
for happiness I looked towards my dog. He took
that away to, for no reason.. I don't understand.
he won't let me be happy.

[the folly of man]

I'm really feeling stupid rn

I'm such a sore loser and really scared to try again
I'm really upset because my siblings devoured some mini cakes and I hardly got any
I want to cry because my sisters are making noise
I just..

ugh

I can't even hug my amazing cat because he's really dirty since he can't clean himself.
my other cats hate me

my sisters are going to worry about me if I start to cry but I really want to
heck, not just my sisters, but everyone
if I shed a single tear everyone will be like "oh are you alright?? can i help??" or they'll just stare at me
and if I even leave the room my really talkative brother will start blabbering about stuff I honestly couldn't care less about
I feel like a stupid idiot

[Feeding The Void]

i feel so disconnected from everyone. both of my friend groups hate me and i always knew this would come but i denied it and now that its happened i cant deal with it

[the folly of man]

I know I already posted here today on the same page, but I really don't feel good

I just wanna bawl my eyes out and I've felt like this for hours
I really need help
please don't listen to me if I say I don't want help
a lot of the time I just prefer not to have human interaction, even over the internet, but I
still
need
help
please
I feel like this is a neverending cycle of me not eating dinner then going the rest of the night wanting to cry
and eventually crying myself to sleep
I-- literally really need help
I could go on and on and on until you finally believe me but
I really need help
it's 1 am and I am about to cry


yes yes yes a pm would be really good right now
talk to me so I can be distracted from my own freaking mind
please

[i<3 wolves678]

I did it again
I did it again and I promised I wouldn't
She saw it
She saw it and she's scared for me

Haha I'm a terrible person, quit worrying about me please

[momincharge]

anger intensifies//
i don't understand what makes you think you have the right to insult me ??
i don't understand what makes you think you have the right to push me around ??
i'm a part of your family aren't i ???
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whenever i try and do something nice for this dang community, it just-- backfires somehow.
((not adding the next part because its a full-on rant thats like 1038738708 pages long))

wow i guess i am just a wannabe-
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no
no
no no
i cant deal with those girls again
please don't make me go back to school
please

edit/addon?; smh i feel so bad i didn't mean to delete all those stupid pms
my pms were full and i deleted every. single. one. and now i dont know what they said
im an idiot

[nana]

when your memory problems are so bad that you forget who you are regularly oof rip me 2018

[hayzel]

ugh i’ve just been an anxious wreck the past month.

but i feel kind of ignored by the only person i really care about. we’re really close, but in a way i kind of feel like they’ve been trying to ignore them? idk i’m just being pathetic. i know i’m not the best person, but if they didn’t want to talk to me i wish they’d just say something. my school friends have been leaving me out a lot as well. they constantly make plans to meet up infront of me, and on the few times i’ve asked to come they’ve made up some dumb excuse.

school keeps putting so. much. stess. on me for mock exams heck, they aren’t the real thing so plesse stop stressing me out. i’ve had who knows how many panic attacks over it and i just wish they wouldn’t pressure me.

as much as they dont mean to, my parents are constantly comparing me to my older sister. i know she’s better than me and i know you’ll always be prouder of her than me, but you don’t need to keep reminding me. everything i do i get compared to her and it’s just,, really unfair to me.

ugh sorry i’m just being pathetic lol