TheComfortCorner | V.7

[fika.]

I was borrowing my Mother’s laptop today and when saving some school work
I came across some old files; they were photos of our family from a few years
back.

I started crying because we’ve changed and drifted apart so much. We aren’t
the same anymore, it breaks my heart.

Ever since my mother’s stupid boyfriend came along we have never been close.
The only things we’re used to are police, child safety and constant fear.

:c

i am so sorry to hear about this! it always sucks to hear about families drifting apart. are you able to sit your mum down and talk to her? maybe not about her boyfriend if she's in denial about his behaviour, but just explain that you feel like your family is deteriorating and that you want to be closer as a family again. if you're extra like me i would print those pictures off which may hit her heart a little bit. not necessarily guilt-tripping her, but getting her to want to be a close-knit family again (boyfriend in the picture or not). if you ever need to vent, feel free to pm me. inbox is always always open. good luck<3

oof oww my bones
dysphoria is killing me right now
and i don't know what i'm doing with my life
and my motivation to do anything productive is just gone
i hate sundays

i keep getting ideas for stories but then i just lose interest
and i wanna make music but i have no real talent
and i'm probably failing in most of my classes

all of my friends are so talented
a is so freakin hilarious he could make a career out of it
h is such a good artist it's depressing
e is super dang smart and will probably cure some sort of disease
l has the most beautiful singing voice
a, e, b, k and e are in a damn band

and i'm just over here with my mediocre everything

lmao what went wrong

to be completely honest, nothing has gone wrong. everyone has a special quality about themselves. you appreciate their musical talents, artistic talents, and their smartness and humour. but they definitely appreciate something about you. it could be your talent to understand other people, your talent to put yourself in their shoes. your talent to organisation, your talent to make them happy if they're down. it's one thing being a comedic person, but another to naturally lift peoples spirits. don't be so hard on yourself! people tend to see the best qualities on others, but what we should all focus on are the best qualities in ourselves. you are appreciated, don't worry. you aren't mediocre everything. but not everyone can exceed everything, we're all mediocre at something (heck, i'm terrible at most things, but then that's me being hypocritical). good luck!<3

mm. i think i just need 2 vent a tiny bit..
i'm tired of waking up every morning feeling so sad & unable to do anything. no matter how happy or content or peaceful i felt the last night, negative emotions are the default that i wake up to. & i can think of things that will cheer me up, but if i think of just one bad thought, any bit of happiness sort of jst goes away like.. as if u were dropping an anchor, like i fall into this stupid pit of sadness i can't get out of again?? it's been going on for months, & i think i've been getting a little better; people have mentioned it to me, i go to a therapist, i'm even more confident in talking & want to do stuff more, but still.... there's this weird, negative place, that my brain just wants to like default to for some reason. i really just wish i was better, & happier again. like why do i have to put so much more effort into having nice emotions now, why can't They be my default, & sad emotions be the ones that can only be set off by things, like it used 2 b.. uuuuh.

i think school in all honesty has been putting a really bad amount of stress on me too. i always feel like i have to constantly be doin things, like, there's always always Something i have to do. i used to be able to just get the few things i needed to done, & then feel like i didn't have anything else to worry about, but now i just don't feel like i can escape it.
i wish i could have a big break from school, & i guess just everything that's been stressing me out. weekends aren't long enough usually. i need time to understand myself, to take my time to get better, do stuff to cope, but i'm always so damn busy & even if i don't do much by the end of the day i feel so overworked & tired, i don't rly want to do anything. i don't know if this made any sense, but i'm basically so sad??? i feel like it's gonna be a long time until i get better???? i just wish i was better now, though, it's been almost 5 months,,

whatever though i guess i'll try n make the best of today while i can. i know i have a lot of good things in my life, i'm grateful for the fact i can distract myself with all my interests,,,, + the few people that can make me feel better, esp my amazing gf!!, & i guess i'm glad i can still just enjoy stuff?? i know i haven't fallen too far down yet. i'll get better, i guess i just wish it was sooner. sorry for posting this but it feels good to get a bit of nonsense off my chest.

hello!!!

i actually really like you. your personality really reminds me of myself. i get what you mean, your whole post made perfect sense.
it's great that you can understand and appreciate the good things in life. posting does help you get a lot of stuff off your chest,
it is similar to talking. venting is a great feeling. but there is definitely one more thing you need to appreciate which is yourself. i know it's hard, but you need to be celebratory for the small achievements throughout the day. don't feel like getting out of bed, but you do anyway? that's amazing, reward yourself. having a shower after the first time in days? (don't be ashamed, we all do it) that's great! reward yourself. the best way for a path of happiness, granted, takes a while, is to acknowledge the small steps you take each day to get there. you will eventually like you said. it seems like the path is such a long long way away but with people by your side and your own victory, you will get there. of course, on the road of recovery you still have bad days, so don't be ashamed if you want a day off to treat yourself and lazy around with your girlfriend. you deserve it.
good luck!<3

finally came back to ig so i checked my ex's page and she's moved on so easily and now im feeling sick because i havent moved on (probably because im just lovesick) hdndkfdfk i want to vent to someone but no
i suspected she liked someone else from the start
and i was right
that stupid "mocha"
stole her from me
hhdnf
she even said she had a crush on mocha for a while im still so mad about it but i was too broken to get mad at her,, i thought i moved on but no, and my current crush is never gonna like me back and im so stressed im failing math class and my band teacher keeps embarrassing me,, gosh im ready to cry rn im so stressed and sad but i dont wanna vent to anyone because ill be annoying,,,
but if you can handle really annoying people please pm me so i can vent i really need this off my chest
mocha isn't a cs player, don't witchhunt them
edit: im shaking now and i just cant seem to move, i thought i moved on from her after 2 months of being split.
probably because of my crippling attachment issues.
we were together from june to december, i guess that could be another reason why.
i guess my emotions are still really fragile, might as well watch AuSLove stream to make me feel better

closure definitely takes time. don't rush yourself into getting over your ex, because it is hard. you need to take as much time as you need. you can definitely vent on this thread, or to me! and go ahead, cry! crying is the best form of medicine.if you feel like you are failing maths, take an hour out of your day (whether it is on the break or after educational hours) to do personal revision, or ask your teacher to see them and discuss how you're feeling about maths and they can help you and maybe focus on you more during lesson time than others. as for your band teacher, can you ask them why they feel the need to keep picking on you? it's not fair that they do that. two months may not be enough time for some people, people find closure takes up to a year, maybe two, and some unfortunately never get over their love (not to discourage you) but it shows you're a true, caring person - congrats, you aren't a programmed robot at least - and that you are worthy of love, and many are worthy of your love.
good luck, and honestly don't hesitate to rant to me, because then i have a great excuse to rant too. rant conversations are the best conversations c;

"go ahead and laugh,
even if it hurts"

"go ahead and let your walls cave in"

honestly, don't let the walls cave in. it seems like such a struggle at the moment and that it feels like your arms aren't strong enough to keep them up, but imagine them as being cardboard walls and pluck the encouragement up to move forward, despite the feeling. i understand it's so much easier said than done because i have that feeling for months on end, i'm happy for a while and then i'm back to caving walls but i'm honestly rooting for you, so if you ever need help or need a friend, don't forget the offer of me! good luck <3

You know, I hate being a mess like this.

I've been so desperate to have some companionship that comes in a relationship, yet everyone I try to get to know always ends up leaving/getting annoyed with me. Honestly I don't know why I even try to find someone anymore because I know no one will ever want me. I mean having a snake for a pet and having one for years really deters people from me anyways. I can barely keep any friends, let alone a relationship! All Im good for is chasing away everyone I meet...

okay, but do you realllyyyy want a relationship with anyone who doesn't love snakes?!!?! mate, if my boyfriend had a snake i'd cry, i love them. but don't think it is your fault that people can't see how great you are. as i've said to people that feel similarly to you, it is hard to find a balance in a friendship and a relationship where you can be similar, but not too similar.
being too similar can cause unwanted arguments, whereas being similar with some differences helps push you out your comfort zone and you won't clash as much. don't give up yet; one day someone will see how great you are. there is definitely someone out there for anyone, i can promise you that. trust me. good luck <3

i'm lonely and it hurts, i just want to be held, but at the same time i dont. i dont want to trust another person, i'm enough for myself. yet im still lonely, i still feel empty and it sucks.

what sucks more is my back pain, i told my mom i feel its making me loose in my mind in some sense. not "i'm going to kill the closest person" or slamming my head into a wall or harming myself. physically mentally emotionally, i break down at the slightest though of having to live the rest of my life like this, i sit and cry in my room at night wondering if ill ever be able to run like i used to. god. i miss running, i run but it hurts and the next day i wake with agonizing pain. i tried physical therapy but its gotten to the point were even if i'm just sitting and go to lean over to write someone on my paper at school i get a sharp pain in my chest, it happened a few days ago and ever since then my back pain has worsened.

i understand what you mean. the thing is, you aren't alone. you have this whole community that is here for your,
and i am sure someone outside of a screen is there for you. whether it is your mum, a family member, even a neighbour! classmates, teachers. there is always someone there for you that you can lean on, i promise you that. as for your back, have you gone to the doctors about it? it sounds like you have, especially doing physically therapy, but similar things happens to my nan with her leg so she has gone through everything and has finally gotten through to the doctors into giving her an MRI scan. it's better safe than sorry, so you should definitely go and get a scan. do you take tablets for it? maybe twice a week you should have a warm bath,
that helps relax muscles (even if you hate baths, it might be worth trying it). good luck, i hope you feel better soon!<3

why can’t i focus like a normal person why can’t i read like a normal person it’s not even that hard to stay still why can’t i not fidget
i just want to be able to focus on tests without spacing out

do teachers/family members know about this? have you been diagnosed with anything? i understand how hard it can be to stop fidgeting, and there isn't even any advise on it because it's not like you can actually help it. but i'll let ya in on a little secret; no normal person can focus. everyone zooms out, i'm always finding myself a shoelace more interesting or a fly in the room. maybe ask to speak to a teacher about it so they can focus on your priorities a bit. i hope you feel better and more confident about your uniqueness soon, good luck <3

Just got a call telling me a high school classmate died. They’re thinking it was an overdose. Nice, you had a four year old kid. Priorities. My head hurts.

i understand you are frustrated, and angry, and upset, but no one knows anything for sure, and they may have been dealing with something no one else knew about. it is hard, but there is a German word called 'verstehen', which essentially means putting yourself in someone elses shoes. not literally, but being able to understand both sides of the story. i can see why you're upset; but don't get too angry please. i know it's hard but at least not until you get the real story and not what they assume.
i hope you are feeling better soon, good luck.

I'm in my room, all alone. I'm trying to control my breathing, and it's working I guess. My heart still feels compressed though, these past few days have crushed me. I have never felt so strangely in my life, and I have been through a lot. Right when I think I am achieving my retribution - moving out, staying financially stable and keeping my grades up, and surrounding myself with supportive people . . . everything just crumbles.

I live with my boyfriend and his best friend. His best friend, my roommate, just told me yesterday that he hasn't been entirely honest with me. He doesn't hate living with a couple -- he hates living with me because he is falling for me. My boyfriends best friend, my roommate, is ridiculously in love with me. Everything is awkward. He apologized and said that he only told me in order for me to pull together recent events . . . but this is still such a shock. I have no idea what to do I can't even tell my boyfriend and so he won't even notice the subtle flirting that he has been doing all day . . .

Then I wake up this morning by a call from my cousin, crying and telling me that my mom found out that I've been communicating with my extended family. My mom is so angry at me. She pushed away my family and I lost years with them. I was so lonely, I missed them so much. And now my mom wants to cut me off too. Why do I need to choose sides, why can't she allow more people to love me?

So here I am, alone in my room while my boyfriend stalls apologizing to me for being disrespectful earlier. I'm overthinking, and succeeding at controlling my breathing . . . but I still feel sickly. I want to cry but I can't.

i know you feel like like you can't, but honestly tell your boyfriend. you may not want to and consequences may occur but it's not right for him to not know. if i knew my best friend and my boyfriends best friend was in love with him, i would cry. and wouldn't cut ties with him, but tell my 'best friend' to prevent themselves and for my boyfriend to not cut himself off,
but prevent any more feelings from occurring if that makes sense. my anxiety is messed up when it comes to that kind of stuff,
so i know it sounds like a horrible thing to do but in the long run it's the best option. and i am so sorry about your mum, but you are an independent person. you are allowed to be in contact with whoever you want, she is unable to control that. you need to tell her that you still want to remain in contact with her and you're extended family, she can't dictate your life forever. as for your boyfriend being disrespectful, have you had a proper conversation since then? discussing how you both felt in the moment will help not only clear the air but clear your mind. good luck <3

I'm having an emotional breakdown right now. I can't stop crying, and its just because I don't enjoy doing something that my 'friend' does. I just wanna curl up in a corner and cry for thr rest of my life. This day started off as a good one, then you started to get angry at me because I don't like something.

I hope you're proud of yourself. You made me cry.

i am so so sorry someone has made you cry. don't feel guilty for disliking something, it sounds like a bit of a manipulative toxic relationship so you need to try and eliminate the toxic-ness in it. tell them how you feel and ask them why they reacted in that way because i'm sure they would not like it if you made them cry. if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, my inbox is open!<3

I've been trying really hard to make
friends lately. I really tired of being lonely
so i wen't and talked to somebody at school.

Long story short they ignored me and walked away
so there goes my self confidence.

sooo, I decided to message some people on
instagram, and here on chicken smoothie.
A few people replied, we said a few words
and boom never got messaged again.

So #foreverlonelyandsad C:

not all things are meant to work out! and i am definitely guilty of letting a conversation hang, it's my own awkwardness fault. however, don't give up trying. you don't want to be friends with rude people like that anyway, and i am so proud of you for plucking up the courage to approach people! it takes guts, and it definitely doesn't go unnoticed. maybe try talking to the people you sit next to in class, it start smalls in lesson but ask what they are doing in the break and if they say oh nothing,
reply with "me neither! do you want to hang out somewhere?" or something like that. sounds totalllyyyy pre-school but i do it all the time and surprisingly people are just as relieved as i am when i ask. i hope you find friends soon! you deserve them! good luck <3

this is very, very amazing. i become aggressive, then i get upset over nothing.
i guess it's because i had trouble venting to one of my closest friends over
something that made me pretty jealous. god, i feel so ashamed that i
wasted their time telling them that i was a monster just because several
of my ex-friends had large grudges on me. and i still feel horrible about
the people having grudges on me because i treated them very poorly
back in 2016.. boy, i overreact so much..

maybe try messaging those people and apologising? even if they don't accept it, you're the bigger person for it,
despite what you have done in the past. everyone deserves a second chance, so why don't you? and who cares if you overreact, i am told i am too sensitive, which i am not even going to deny because i feel like crying when mcdonald's ice cream machine is 'broken'.
but hey, if you lose friends you know they ain't true friends because they gave up on you too easily. don't give up trying though,
you're worthy of love as much as the next person. good luck!<3

I've fallen really hard for someone and even though I know them really well I'm still hesitant to admit anything... Theyve been acting different lately and it's making me nervous.
I'm probably just overthinking things like I always do..
Jumping the gun.. But I still can't help but get a sick feeling in my gut.. I want them around for as long as I can keep them, I really don't want to screw up this time..

eh, if you lose them you don't deserve them. trust me, someone you deserve is someone that sticks around. obviously try your best not to lose them. how about you talk to them? sounds so much easier said than done don't worry because even though i've been dating my boyfriend for just over a year, if i need to confront him about something i still have to do it over text. hate talking in person when it causes conflict. so maybe text said person you have caught feelings for, and ask if things feel different between you two and why they are acting differently than usual. i hope things are solved soon! good luck <3

five am and no sleep for me. i can’t sleep and i hurt inside

the only thing that can be done for what’s wrong with me is surgery to relieve pain & even that is just a short-term solution. so thats nice fantastic great i love my life

i’m so tired and been in such a mood lately

the best advise i can give after the past few days is to just talk to someone. although this thread is incredibly useful, it helps to actually talk to someone in person. whether it's a stranger in the street, your neighbour, a friend or family member, it's good to just let it out. you may feel a lot better if it is in person and not on-screen. i hope you feel better soon!<3

i love it when people take pictures of me without my consent and then post them without my consent

it is the most disgusting thing anyone could ever do. have they taken it down? have you asked them to stop? worse comes to worse, report the post. it's so unfair people do this to others because i know how self-conscious it makes me feel i hate it so much. hopefully it all works out soon, good luck!<3

don't you love it when you do an essay about how video games can be educational and then kids tease you and tell you you're wrong?

oh people are so vile. if you are passionate about something, than screw it. no one should put you down for it.
and i agree with your statement. i know it is hard but ignore those mean people because in the end, you're the bigger person and you are actually writing about something you believe and are passionate about. i hope you have done really well on it! good luck <3

im lonely

i understand completely how you feel. however, although you may feel it, you aren't actually. you have this whole community that cares about you, and people that you wouldn't even realise care about you. your neighbours, the workers at a shop you often go to, your friends, your family, your peers. you are surrounded by people that are there for you, even if it does not feel like it. heck, i am here for you. one-hundred percent. if you are up for it, pm me. i'm down for a conversation, and if you don't want it to end hit me up with a gif and we can have a bit of a gif war. do things that make you happy so you feel a purpose,
maybe bake. or draw. or watch youtube. whatever makes YOU happy. good luck!!!!!

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to help you smile:
list of little things - list of little things to help make you smile and be happy
cutest - cutest tumblr to help with your self esteem
smile things - cute colours and tumblr page to help you out
adorable - basically another tumblr that does the same as the ones above

to help you with anything else / distractions:
emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
automatic flatterer - you know what's cute about this? you put in your name, nickname, whatever (it doesn't save it) and it pays you compliment after compliment after compliment. it's the cutest idea ever.
the dawn room - do what it says. after doing that, loads of encouraging messages will come your way!
hugs - hugs is all i have to say.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
beautiful places - if you're looking for a sign, this is it. set a goal to visit one of these places. don't change that goal. you won't regret it.
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!
stick man game - good distraction with a hopefuly message i made at the end!
just say yes - this blog was made by zoella and good for anyone who suffer with anxiety disorder, have panic attacks, depression, have social anxiety or are just a very negative or shy person this may be good for you!
random acts of kindness (video) - may make you feel all warm and gooey at how kind people are
list of things for those having a bad day!
more bad day remedies - is similar to the one above
how to love yourself - if you struggle with self esteem, pleasep lease read <3
quiet room - one of my favourite places <3
comfort box - i highly recommend looking at this because it's the most amazing idea i've ever seen
ground box - similar to the one above

to help you with panic attacks:
i have loads of things that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

facts !!!!:
what not to say !!! - to someone who is having a panic attack, do not say these things
facts- if you're confused about a few things

i've also made a tumblr! you can message me anonomysouly on there for advice if you don't want to post here. i also will start reblogging things (nothing triggering or sad !) so if you ever need someone, you can go to me on there! http://happinesscomeswithnoregrets.tumblr.com/

(i am so so sorry if i don't reply to anyone; it is due to chicken smoothie rules and i do not want to break them. it also may effect me in some way, i am sorry once again!)

[momincharge]

sorry for venting twice in one day.

this day was going well until i remembered yesterday.

my rabbit died on my lap last night.
i was trying to bribe her out of her
cage with a carrot. i sat there for
half an hour trying to get her out
and she wouldn't, so i grabbed her
and put her on my lap and she just,,,
she just died, right there in front of my eyes,,,,

i'm a horrible owner
i haven't been paying attention to her
my parents were the ones taking care of her. they were feeding her and stuff.
the vet was able to bring her back but they're giving her to someone else
i'm a horrible person
and now i'm about to cry at school in front of the popular girls-

and, now, a girl in my school has down syndrome. her mom was my teacher in kindergarden. but, her daughter is currently in the hospital, in a coma, with only machines keeping her alive, and i can't help but feel like its my fault

[Ancient Wind]

sorry for venting twice in one day.

this day was going well until i remembered yesterday.

my rabbit died on my lap last night.
i was trying to bribe her out of her
cage with a carrot. i sat there for
half an hour trying to get her out
and she wouldn't, so i grabbed her
and put her on my lap and she just,,,
she just died, right there in front of my eyes,,,,

i'm a horrible owner
i haven't been paying attention to her
my parents were the ones taking care of her. they were feeding her and stuff.
the vet was able to bring her back but they're giving her to someone else
i'm a horrible person
and now i'm about to cry at school in front of the popular girls-

and, now, a girl in my school has down syndrome. her mom was my teacher in kindergarden. but, her daughter is currently in the hospital, in a coma, with only machines keeping her alive, and i can't help but feel like its my fault

Don't feel like everything is your fault. I have had 2 rabbits. The first one died right before my eyes to and I almost cried in school. The second one died while I was doing an activity away from home. I came back and she was just dead. I lost two of my best friends when that happen. I know how it feels to lose something that you cared about. I am sorry to hear about this. I hope that you understand that I know how you are feeling at this current time.

[fika.]

sorry for venting twice in one day.

this day was going well until i remembered yesterday.

my rabbit died on my lap last night.
i was trying to bribe her out of her
cage with a carrot. i sat there for
half an hour trying to get her out
and she wouldn't, so i grabbed her
and put her on my lap and she just,,,
she just died, right there in front of my eyes,,,,

i'm a horrible owner
i haven't been paying attention to her
my parents were the ones taking care of her. they were feeding her and stuff.
the vet was able to bring her back but they're giving her to someone else
i'm a horrible person
and now i'm about to cry at school in front of the popular girls-

and, now, a girl in my school has down syndrome. her mom was my teacher in kindergarden. but, her daughter is currently in the hospital, in a coma, with only machines keeping her alive, and i can't help but feel like its my fault

okay, please breath. please do not feel like anything is your fault. animals die naturally, unless you caused some serious abuse like throwing them across the room which i doubt you have been doing. you aren't a horrible owner, you have had your own things to worry about and sometimes you are unable to focus on one thing. do not care about the 'popular girls', when i used to go to school with separate groups like that it is ridiculous. they're either really kind, or really not. so just cry. excuse yourself to the bathroom. you need time to heal and mourn. do not feel bad about crying, and if they judge you then who cares.
and, how is the daughter being in hospital your fault? life is cruel and people are put in situations that the majority of the time no one can help, unless you physically caused harm upon her it is not your fault. do not put all the blame on yourself, because no one else is. if you ever need someone, i am here. you're going through so much, you don't have to do it alone, i promise you.

[christina.]

i need to learn how to stop caring about people who obviously wont change and wont ever care about me

[fika.]

i need to learn how to stop caring about people who obviously wont change and wont ever care about me

hey, it means you have a heart. it's so unfair people won't change, unfortunately i know a lot of people like that and i have learnt to just not fall / depend on them like i used to. you deserve someone that will actually care about you, change for you, and do whatever it takes to be friends / possibly something more with you. don't ever let them dim your glow, and stand your ground. show them how much you are actually worth, and that you're not some door mat they can walk all over. good luck, if you ever need specific advise feel free to pm me <3

[cornspurrd.]

I Put a smile on my face, tried to be happy, tried to be fun.
poured my heart and soul into becoming somebody that i'm not to try
and make friends. And now i'm stuck. It drains so my energy from me
to try and pretend to be happy, to be enthusiastic with what im saying
and i hate it.. But what if i go back to being how i was before and i'll
loose this friend? i'll bore them, And they will leave.

[Spearow]

You know, I feel so miserable inside. I miss having a friend I could talk to. Like actually talk to, that shares my interests and watches my shows, reads my books, listens to my music. Or any of those, i feel so alone.

I live in an apartment alone with two kitties. I leave the tv on 24/7 when I’m there because silence is deafening. My s/o doesn’t understand me, doesn’t have time for me and only shares one interest with me (games). Not that we even play anything together.

Always come back to the same conclusion that everything is pointless, so what am I doing

I feel dead inside

[pebblick]

So at school I try talking to the other girls. Sometimes they listen but most times they turn and talk to their friends. Then one of my friends, I try talking to her but she usually tries interrupting me and talks about herself and what she did. I try listening, but she just seems so boring. Like I hate to ignore and do what the other girls do to me, but i just don't know what to do! Please help!

[fika.]

I Put a smile on my face, tried to be happy, tried to be fun.
poured my heart and soul into becoming somebody that i'm not to try
and make friends. And now i'm stuck. It drains so my energy from me
to try and pretend to be happy, to be enthusiastic with what im saying
and i hate it.. But what if i go back to being how i was before and i'll
loose this friend? i'll bore them, And they will leave.

i am sorry you feel this way, but i can promise you not everyone is bad! it does take a while to find the right person,
but you will eventually. there is a friend soul-mate out there for everyone! (: good luck!<3

You know, I feel so miserable inside. I miss having a friend I could talk to. Like actually talk to, that shares my interests and watches my shows, reads my books, listens to my music. Or any of those, i feel so alone.

I live in an apartment alone with two kitties. I leave the tv on 24/7 when I’m there because silence is deafening. My s/o doesn’t understand me, doesn’t have time for me and only shares one interest with me (games). Not that we even play anything together.

Always come back to the same conclusion that everything is pointless, so what am I doing

I feel dead inside

it seems as though you are struggling a bit with your s/o, do they feel the same?? have you discussed how you feel in full length with them, and understood how they feel? maybe you guys should go out for a day, even if it is just for a walk and have a tiny picnic. it'll help you connect on an emotional level and feel closer again if you feel distant with them. don't give up though, please! some things may feel pointless, but not everything is, and you will find purpose soon. i promise!<3

can someone pm me?
today was the worst -.

i can <3

So at school I try talking to the other girls. Sometimes they listen but most times they turn and talk to their friends. Then one of my friends, I try talking to her but she usually tries interrupting me and talks about herself and what she did. I try listening, but she just seems so boring. Like I hate to ignore and do what the other girls do to me, but i just don't know what to do! Please help!

that is an absolute pickle you are in! when it comes to your friend, next time she interrupts can you say "hey,
sorry, i wasn't finished talking" or let them finish what they're saying and quietly continue what you were originally saying if you're not brave to make a slight dig like that? i know i'm not brave enough so i wouldn't be able to to be honest haha. as for those other girls, are you able to sit in a position so you aren't at the end of the table / you can face all of them? and try initiate conversation that involves all of them? like what did they do over the weekend, what kind of things they enjoy, etc. sounds like boring conversation but can really help people feel wanted! good luck <3

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to help you smile:
list of little things - list of little things to help make you smile and be happy
cutest - cutest tumblr to help with your self esteem
smile things - cute colours and tumblr page to help you out
adorable - basically another tumblr that does the same as the ones above

to help you with anything else / distractions:
emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
automatic flatterer - you know what's cute about this? you put in your name, nickname, whatever (it doesn't save it) and it pays you compliment after compliment after compliment. it's the cutest idea ever.
the dawn room - do what it says. after doing that, loads of encouraging messages will come your way!
hugs - hugs is all i have to say.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
beautiful places - if you're looking for a sign, this is it. set a goal to visit one of these places. don't change that goal. you won't regret it.
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!
stick man game - good distraction with a hopefuly message i made at the end!
just say yes - this blog was made by zoella and good for anyone who suffer with anxiety disorder, have panic attacks, depression, have social anxiety or are just a very negative or shy person this may be good for you!
random acts of kindness (video) - may make you feel all warm and gooey at how kind people are
list of things for those having a bad day!
more bad day remedies - is similar to the one above
how to love yourself - if you struggle with self esteem, pleasep lease read <3
quiet room - one of my favourite places <3
comfort box - i highly recommend looking at this because it's the most amazing idea i've ever seen
ground box - similar to the one above

to help you with panic attacks:
i have loads of things that can help with your anxiety and panic attacks.

facts !!!!:
what not to say !!! - to someone who is having a panic attack, do not say these things
facts- if you're confused about a few things

i've also made a tumblr! you can message me anonomysouly on there for advice if you don't want to post here. i also will start reblogging things (nothing triggering or sad !) so if you ever need someone, you can go to me on there! http://happinesscomeswithnoregrets.tumblr.com/

(i am so so sorry if i don't reply to anyone; it is due to chicken smoothie rules and i do not want to break them. it also may effect me in some way, i am sorry once again!)