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by Animall » Mon Feb 05, 2018 1:44 pm
I'm in my room, all alone. I'm trying to control my breathing, and it's working I guess. My heart still feels compressed though, these past few days have crushed me. I have never felt so strangely in my life, and I have been through a lot. Right when I think I am achieving my retribution - moving out, staying financially stable and keeping my grades up, and surrounding myself with supportive people . . . everything just crumbles.
I live with my boyfriend and his best friend. His best friend, my roommate, just told me yesterday that he hasn't been entirely honest with me. He doesn't hate living with a couple -- he hates living with me because he is falling for me. My boyfriends best friend, my roommate, is ridiculously in love with me. Everything is awkward. He apologized and said that he only told me in order for me to pull together recent events . . . but this is still such a shock. I have no idea what to do I can't even tell my boyfriend and so he won't even notice the subtle flirting that he has been doing all day . . .
Then I wake up this morning by a call from my cousin, crying and telling me that my mom found out that I've been communicating with my extended family. My mom is so angry at me. She pushed away my family and I lost years with them. I was so lonely, I missed them so much. And now my mom wants to cut me off too. Why do I need to choose sides, why can't she allow more people to love me?
So here I am, alone in my room while my boyfriend stalls apologizing to me for being disrespectful earlier. I'm overthinking, and succeeding at controlling my breathing . . . but I still feel sickly. I want to cry but I can't.
Do you laugh about me whenever I leave?
Or do I still need more therapy?
(fake out)
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by revvington » Mon Feb 05, 2018 2:56 pm
I'm having an emotional breakdown right now. I can't stop crying, and its just because I don't enjoy doing something that my 'friend' does. I just wanna curl up in a corner and cry for the rest of my life. This day started off as a good one, then you started to get angry at me because I don't like something.
I hope you're proud of yourself. You made me cry.
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by cornspurrd. » Mon Feb 05, 2018 4:07 pm
I've been trying really hard to make
friends lately. I really tired of being lonely
so i wen't and talked to somebody at school.
Long story short they ignored me and walked away
so there goes my self confidence.
sooo, I decided to message some people on
instagram, and here on chicken smoothie.
A few people replied, we said a few words
and boom never got messaged again.
So #foreverlonelyandsad C:
Smile and wave...
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by kishu. » Mon Feb 05, 2018 4:37 pm
this is very, very amazing. i become aggressive, then i get upset over nothing.
i guess it's because i had trouble venting to one of my closest friends over
something that made me pretty jealous. god, i feel so ashamed that i
wasted their time telling them that i was a monster just because several
of my ex-friends had large grudges on me. and i still feel horrible about
the people having grudges on me because i treated them very poorly
back in 2016.. boy, i overreact so much..
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by drift. » Mon Feb 05, 2018 5:07 pm
I've fallen really hard for someone and even though I know them really well I'm still hesitant to admit anything... Theyve been acting different lately and it's making me nervous.
I'm probably just overthinking things like I always do..
Jumping the gun.. But I still can't help but get a sick feeling in my gut.. I want them around for as long as I can keep them, I really don't want to screw up this time..
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by Spearow » Mon Feb 05, 2018 10:09 pm
five am and no sleep for me. i can’t sleep and i hurt inside
the only thing that can be done for what’s wrong with me is surgery to relieve pain & even that is just a short-term solution. so thats nice fantastic great i love my life
i’m so tired and been in such a mood lately
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by momincharge » Tue Feb 06, 2018 4:08 am
don't you love it when you do an essay about how video games can be educational and then kids tease you and tell you you're wrong?
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