TheComfortCorner | V.7

[cornspurrd.]

I dunno.
I just have this feeling that nobody cares?
Normal I know, But it sucks? I mean
I walk through the halls and wave
to "friends" And they see me
and nothing. My teachers couldn't
care less they have a job to do
and they do it and whatever, Cross
that off the list. Maybe my parents care?
But they don't show it very well...
Sisters PPhhht they wouldn't care.
friends? what friends??

Sometimes it seems to be easier
to just dissapear.
but thats not allowed.

So I'll sit in the corner
all alone
Lonely
And useless really
I guess.

Oof

[MichelleP224]

Hey, I just want everyone to know that if you don't think anyone else cares, I DO.
I care more than you will ever think or know..
If anyone needs ANYTHING, please PM me.
I have been through extreme lows in my life, lots of depression. But this is only temporary.
You are never given more than you can handle!

Here's some uplifting song lyrics. These songs help me on a daily basis. I hope they help you too!
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And please remember, I'm here for you! I'm just a PM away!

[frozone]

i love baking and whenever i actually get a chance to do it my mom ends up doing like idk everything and when i ask why i didnt get to do anything it ends up being my fault for asking why or saying i have homework to do
and just now i literally asked to make the lemon curd and then say "but i have to do hw first" and what does she do? she makes it.
and i say i asked to do it etc etc and she snaps at me saying "i literally just said i was going to make it" but heck nope i literally just said i wanted to make it and of course

i get upset over stupid things

[Spearow]

Kind of lowkey panicking but pretending everything is alright. Oml I'm in my last semester of college and this one class I have, I have two papers due in it tomorrow. I'm looking at the material , the example paper. And as someone who generally gets good grades.

W h a t a m I l o o k i n g a t

I need this class to graduate so rip me and rip my disaster of a personal life rn.

[cornspurrd.]

Well.
The other dayyy.
Something got me upset i guess?
And I lost it. I don't know why
i just felt so much anger i couldnt
control it.

So I screamed and freaking ran
around the house beating the crap
out of my parents

Yeah that was fun
i'm in alot of trouble

And I couldn't really control it?

Help
Heeeeeeeeeeelpppp

[AuraDragoness]

So this is kind of both frustrating and upsetting.

Basically, my older bro has gotten seriously addicted to a game on his Ipad & Iphone. He's been addicted to it for a long time and basically, is almost like seriously competitive with it. Its so repetitive of a game though, how he can play it over and over with the same strategy and stuff baffles me.

Here's the annoying part, he does it ALL THE TIME. When we're watching shows as a family? Hides it under a blanket and sneaks peeks at it, ignoring the show entirely. Eating dinner? He'll sneak peeks at it on his lap and eats super slow because of it. Heck he even plays it on the dang toilet! He stays up all night playing it so he doesn't wake up until like 6pm so he's still awake when everyone else want to go to bed.

Oh but he plays it during these times because 'He's always so busy'. With what? He doesn't have a job, he doesn't have any chores, he doesn't go to school anymore, what could he POSSIBLY be doing that's taking up all his time?!

And speaking of jobs, he's like, become obsessed with getting one at a certain place and is depressed because no one is getting back to him so he's emo in bed all day and doesn't even come out to take a shower unless you yell at him and pester him to do it. He's become a jerk pretty much to everyone if it isn't about him now too.

My mom has been out of work for 3 years and in those 3 years she's been trying to find another job and she hasn't had any luck either, but she's not being depressed and mean to everyone.

It's just so frustrating and very upsetting to me because he puts everything before us and if it doesn't benefit him he could care less. Doesn't help that he downright refuses to admit that everything he is doing is weird.

He also seems to like, sleep ALL DAY or at least just sit in bed like a potato for hours, its amazing that he has no energy to do anything. When 70+ year old men are up and about working with a spring in their step and you, a young 24 year old, are just being a lump on a long and can't even do anything then obviously there is a problem.

[cat.astrophe]

(Oml sorry this is so much, not expecting anyone to read it XDD)

The one thing I want the most in life, not money, not a house, not a cheesy boyfriend/girlfriend, not to be famous, but overall happiness. My past has been pretty bad with my parents, and really just me... and that has dragged me into depression. I won't get too in depth with that, but (yes I've been to a doctor) it causes me to shut down often. Getting very upset over little things or over nothing at all. Just scrolling through memes and BAM! I wanna scream and cry. But I don't want to cry anymore. I used to think being sad and all this stuff I'm dealing with was... I don't know how to put it. I DIDNT want help. I didn't really see anything wrong with me, nor my emotional state. Now, it seems ill reach out for help as fast as one can grab onto a slice of pizza. I just feel bad. Every time I used to talk to my parents about me being sad or whatever, they would immediately want to send me to a medical facility or they would argue with me over something and end up telling me I ruined the day for everyone. That gives me something to fear. My biggest fear is change, but I hate to hurt people as well. That's why I try not to talk to anyone about anything anymore. I'm afraid of ruining their day. Of getting into a disagreement, of scaring them....of worrying them.

There have been two people recently that have made me genuinely happy. Not just for a little, not someone who just pumps you up, but actually made me happy. I was dating this one girl, that, just made me so happy. Though we knew ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about each other, she always brightened my day. Sadly that never lasted. The relationship, nor my happiness. Now I'm with this girl, that I've been with for a while now, and in the beginning, she seemed perfect. I was so happy, and I was proud to call her my girlfriend. Now, the butterflies have stopped and I'm not happy anymore. And I feel bad, because, I don't want to hurt her, and she genuinely loves me, I would never want to hurt her

All my crazy emotions have made it very distracting in class. I was emailed the other day saying I was failing two classes. Math and Language. I spoke to my math teacher and she told me I wasn't doing any of the assignments given, and yeah that is 100% true... With everything that goes on in school, when I get home, I'm either straight to sitting at my desk drawing, drowning out everything in music or jumping straight onto the computer and staying on for extremely unhealthy amounts of time. Its an addiction, and a really bad one. I've noticed the only things I like to do in my out of study time is be alone. Neglecting family and partners in the process. Annoying everyone with me.

Sometimes I genuinely think I'm going crazy. I don't know. I just feel this darkness in me. Like I wanna just be bleeding everywhere hair in my face, just extremely creepy and be singing or playing this song (don't ask me why lol idrk) and just singing and moving rapidly and... just being really creepy ok? And going to all my friends and just...freaking them out. I don't know, god, I'm too old for this. It probably has something to do with my twisted mind and internet addiction.

[the folly of man]

hhhh
I'm dying

everything is much worse than I thought and my anxiety is terrible and I just wanna cry but then people will be concerned for me and try to talk to me but I don't want to be talked to and I feel horrible and I just need a hug but hugs are awkward as heck and nobody would just wanna stand there and hug me for 3 minutes because that's weird and I just---

[Spearow]

I’m in a tough spot, I don’t know what I want anymore. My life isn’t going anywhere and it all just seems so pointless. My depression has gotten worse again, and I’m really stressed. I feel like I’m annoying my friends, they haven’t said that of course. But its so back and forth one day we’re fine the next they act like I’ve done something. I don’t have any friends at my university. So its not like Imm spending too much time with the friends I have when they don’t live here. By myself all the time but when they want to do something and I’m not like ready to go out the door when they show up without making plans, they get mad about it. How you gonna get mad at someone for not being ready to go out when you never even said you were coming over? Wth

So tired of days passing by and absolutely nothing changing or improving. ^^

[jellybutter]

my friends are only happy and together when we play a game or when me and my best friend are away. do they really want us to be their friend?