by drift. » Sun Jan 28, 2018 12:52 pm
Dear Life,
Stop throwing new obstacles my way to overcome. It's like you're targeting me.
I'm tired of jerks at school
I'm tired of the hospital
I'm tired of depressed friends that only make me feel sad and helpless too.
I want to tell them to go away. But I want them to be happy.
After all this time if they're not I guess its just not possible..? Right?
These people have led me through more downs than ups and I'm honestly sick of it. I want to be happy.
I want to be loved. But people can tell when youre still holding on to something thats never going to happen...
Dear life, please, just... I'm begging you to send that perfect someone my way so I can get over this very toxic person.
They're not good for me and I just cant push them away like i want to..
Dear M,
you still mean the world to me, i want to hang out with you, but honestly youre acting like a needy child.
Dear C,
You're becoming a good friend of mine, so I'm sorry that I let you down when I ignore your advances, I'm just not ready for such an active and on-the-go person like you... I seriously want you to try to like V, she seems like a nice girl?
PS,
saved the best for last i guess... I dont know what to do with you anymore. I'm sorry that you're going through a lot but would it kill you to be a little more happy...? Sure, call me selfish but I'd like to think you'd be happier if I stopped being a part of your life.
You could focus on your girlfriend and getting your story straight. Because I remember having a conversation about the child not being yours but poof suddenly 'oops just kidding it was actually mine but i'll avoid it cuz i screwed up.' lowkey pissed me off a bit.
I'm sorry that i'm like a 'sister' to you. Because you're my friend, and I don't need a 'brother' or not in the least want one thats as down and upset all the time as you are. I'm sorry that I don't know how to cope with your saddness/ problems. Your fiance is your issue and not mine, I don't really enjoy knowing everything thats going on with her because it makes me feel like crap. And yes, maybe a tiny bit jealous, which is why I need to let you go so I can start loving myself again, because until I love myself and set myself on the right path and get my life back together I'm going to be alone... I was so mad at you that I lied as well. oops? And why you'd want to keep that name I have no idea. I was trying to hint at the fact that the only reason your username is what it is is because it's close to mine? That's what you told me, or did you lie about that too.. In case you hadn't noticed I'm just a little pissed at you.