Heyy, so I really need some help. I'm catching feelings for my best friend and I dunno what the hell to do about it.
Some context: we've known each other for going on a year now, been becoming closer and closer friends lately. We have a ton in common and get along great as friends but there's been nothing between us besides some flirting here and there, but that's mostly jokes, as far as I can tell. We're both bi and both cool with dating other guys so that ain't the issue.
Problem is, I have no idea how he feels about me. I'm TERRIBLE at reading people's emotions when it comes to stuff like this. When I find out someone has feelings for me, it's always a huge surprise, because I'm totally clueless about it. Sometimes he'll say things that make me think he feels the same way, but then he'll go and say something else that's the complete opposite and makes me think I shouldn't tell him. I haven't been able to get this off my mind lately-- I really want to tell him, and I'm really hoping he feels the same way, but I dunno if he does, and I'm worried that I might weird him out or scare him off if he doesn't feel the same. I don't want to lose a friend because I couldn't keep myself from being stupid like this.
We're pretty close. Trust each other a lot. Hell, when his ex was trying to get back with him he even lied and said he had feelings for me and we'd probably start dating- but it was just to get the ex to leave him alone, as far as I'm aware. I doubt he would have been as comfortable telling me that if it was true. We've chatted about relationships and stuff before (not in a context of dating each other), and we're both looking for very similar things in a relationship... but he spends a lot of time talking about other people he's somewhat interested in. But then he never does anything about it, and rarely even talks about the same person more than once, so I know he's not serious about dating any of them.
I could go on but there's just too much stuff and none of it makes sense. All kinds of mixed signals.
So what should I do? Tell him, and risk losing one of the closest friends I've ever had? Or keep it to myself, and risk never knowing whether he feels the same way?