TheComfortCorner | V.7

[Vixem]

life is so unfair, I’m in the process
of moving to my relatives house,
away from my siblings.

My baby brother is going into foster
care and my younger sister is going
with my aunt, a state away.

The only sibling who is not moving
is my second youngest sister who is
12+, she suffers horribly from
Aspergers and needs to stay with
my mum.

I can’t believe this is happening,
why me? Why us?

All I wanted was a happy family but
all we get is heartbreak and chaos.

I’m quitting ChickenSmoothie, giving
my electronics to my younger sister
and focusing on school + my job this
year, I can’t procrastinate anymore.

I’m so over life 😭

[harv]

x

[hakuu]

the coming spring and summer time are always months ive loved during a school setting. our schedules change and we get a new assortment of everything. but mine isn't quite what ive hoped for...

i have to spend nearly three hours with the person who mentally abused me in a relationship. they did not bother making things right and i avoid all eye contact and even remote contact at all with them because they never gave me chances to communicate. after the fourth hour is over, i must sit through lunch with them, then italian, and now government right after italian. not to mention they have a huge ego and are going to be really unbearable in government trying to suck up to the teacher and being rude to liberals like i. the teacher for this class is not someone i can tell to keep me away from them. he's obnoxious and sort of rude as well, and he's a kind who you don't know if he likes you as a student or not. and if he doesn't like you, he'll do the exact opposite of what you ask of him. i just can't approach him and tell him to keep me away from this person because he wouldn't take it seriously, or would do anything he could to place me with this person. i do not want to debate with them because they go wild for debates, but even if paired with me im sure it would calm them down and freak them out because they're quite submissive to me when im around, as they realize they really made bad mistakes when it came to our previous relationship. plus, i do not want to drop this class, as my dear friend wants me to help them with it, and they help me a lot too. she's in italian as well, and she is disgusted by this person too and ridicules them to help me from being so afraid. i know i can stand up to this person and i don't have to be afraid, because once i glare at them they immediately are repelled. but im still just so scared because im the victim, and i tend to let the one who wronged me have their way with me.

i also moved lunches and i do not know who to sit with or who is in the lunch. if this person catches wind of me sitting alone, im scared that they will make fun of me, even though it's unlikely.

they want attention from me and are always staring me down, planting themself right across from me in italian for god knows what reason. i wont talk to them no matter what.

[illusion.]

pls don't make me carry on. I want to give up

[rozwa]

i hate this i hate this i hate this i want to scream and cry
my school got a new spanish teacher last semester and i was in her class, she's not the best but she's an okay teacher. throughout the entire semester she always seemed to pay extra attention to me, she touched me a lot, rubbing my back, patting me, and all that even though i have asked her many times to stop and she'd just say "oh but it's normal in my culture" okay i fully respect your culture but please please please i don't know you well enough for you to be like this to me. sometime in november i finally went to ask the guidance counsellor for help and to maybe change classes but she made it my fault and told me that i should ask her nicely again to stop (keep in mind i've asked 7+ times already) and she refused to let me change classes because '"""it's disrespectful to the teacher"""" alright fair enough thanks for your help. i asked the teacher again to stop when she did the back rub thing when class was about to end but she didn't listen and can you guess what happened ?? oh yeah i felt a panic attack coming up right before english class which came after spanish but i tried holding it in, horrible idea really because i lost it ten minutes into english and had everyone stare at me how fun
i got to finally drop spanish in december after my english teacher helped me talk to the principal but the spanish teacher still tries to talk to me a lot and everytime i'm near her i feel dread and unsafe lmao
also half of my former spanish classmates make fun of me for that and that's extremely fun
she reminds me so much of my father oh my god

my father is another thing,
i've been living in asia/taiwan for over fifteen years after moving here from my birthplace in canada when i was one years old and all of a sudden he tells me that i'm going to be moving back to canada for my last year of high school in july. i hate massive and sudden changes and changing to a completely different school in a completely different country for senior year is horrible why can't he understand that. the 10/10 best fantastic part is that he insists that he'll retire and be living with me in canada. we don't have a great relationship, he has always been working abroad and we barely talk that much, he's almost like a stranger and he is terrifying so that's who i get to live alone with while my mother will continue staying and working in taiwan (which i'm 100% fine with and actually encourage because she loves her job and i want the best for her) yay
oh and the icing on the cake is that i got diagnosed with depression a few months ago and pretty sure i've had it since i started getting bullied (for being a very white-passing half asian - ayee lmao!) in second grade but anyways i mentioned that to him and he forbade me from getting any medical help or get a therapist because he doesn't believe in /that type of thing/

thanks for tuning in, kids, that's a good annual venting from uncle lili

[autumnsoundtrack]

I'm being attacked for blocking my parents on social media.

Keep in mind I am an adult, not a child that needs to be monitored on their social media; which also means they have no right to request/demand that I unblock them.

My mother just recently found out that I'm on facebook and instagram, and that I blocked her on both. And now she's upset that I've blocked her. I've endured so much while growing up in my family and it left me pretty emotionally scarred; I can't trust or be close to pretty much any family member without fearing that they're just going to tear me down again. Not to mention I have mental illnesses that pretty much inflame these issues, maybe (probably) even appeared because of them.
So all I really want is my own corner of the internet, where I can share parts of my life with the people I want to share it with.

And yet here she is, claiming that I'm trying to "alienate myself from this family". Which I'm not. I still text them back when they text me, tell them the bare minimum about my life while I'm away. But I just don't want to share everything with them. Yet she can't respect that, and is trying to guilt trip me into feeling terrible about blocking her. It may have worked on me a few years ago, but now all I feel towards that is anger. I can never shake this anger when it comes to issues like this. I'm just trying to protect myself.

[zach herron.]

my best friend is making excuses to stay away from me. ever since her cousin and her friend started dating, i’m out of the picture completely. they bought a pool to not have to come to mine. thats how much they don’t want me.

next frieay is my birthday. i offered to take her with me to a play completely free. she declined, because apparently her great aunt needs to be picked up from something on exactly my birthday and told them a week in advance. she's lying to me. i give up. i don’t even have real friends.

it’s not just that. every single time i ask to do something, she says she is busy and can’t do anything today. later, i’ll text her. she tells me she is at her cousin’s girlfriend’s house. it’s killing me. i’m crying as i type this because i just realized that someone i thought was my best friend doesn’t even want to see me, doesn’t care about me.

i don’t know why i even try anymore, i hate this place. i didn’t want to move because i thought i wouldn’t have friends. i was right.

[Vixem]

my best friend is making excuses to stay away from me. ever since her cousin and her friend started dating, i’m out of the picture completely. they bought a pool to not have to come to mine. thats how much they don’t want me.

next frieay is my birthday. i offered to take her with me to a play completely free. she declined, because apparently her great aunt needs to be picked up from something on exactly my birthday and told them a week in advance. she's lying to me. i give up. i don’t even have real friends.

it’s not just that. every single time i ask to do something, she says she is busy and can’t do anything today. later, i’ll text her. she tells me she is at her cousin’s girlfriend’s house. it’s killing me. i’m crying as i type this because i just realized that someone i thought was my best friend doesn’t even want to see me, doesn’t care about me.

i don’t know why i even try anymore, i hate this place. i didn’t want to move because i thought i wouldn’t have friends. i was right.

She doesn’t sound like a very good friend, especially if she’s making all these
excuses to stay away from you.

You seem distressed and that’s not good for you. Have you tried explaining to
her how you feel? That’s always worth a try. If she ignores your messages or
replies rudely, then she’s not worth your time.

You shouldn’t be feeling this way, friendships are not supposed to turn out this
way.

Also, happy early birthday ♥

[dxrmon]

this house don't feel like home.
it never will.

[hakuu]

the coming spring and summer time are always months ive loved during a school setting. our schedules change and we get a new assortment of everything. but mine isn't quite what ive hoped for...

i have to spend nearly three hours with the person who mentally abused me in a relationship. they did not bother making things right and i avoid all eye contact and even remote contact at all with them because they never gave me chances to communicate. after the fourth hour is over, i must sit through lunch with them, then italian, and now government right after italian. not to mention they have a huge ego and are going to be really unbearable in government trying to suck up to the teacher and being rude to liberals like i. the teacher for this class is not someone i can tell to keep me away from them. he's obnoxious and sort of rude as well, and he's a kind who you don't know if he likes you as a student or not. and if he doesn't like you, he'll do the exact opposite of what you ask of him. i just can't approach him and tell him to keep me away from this person because he wouldn't take it seriously, or would do anything he could to place me with this person. i do not want to debate with them because they go wild for debates, but even if paired with me im sure it would calm them down and freak them out because they're quite submissive to me when im around, as they realize they really made bad mistakes when it came to our previous relationship. plus, i do not want to drop this class, as my dear friend wants me to help them with it, and they help me a lot too. she's in italian as well, and she is disgusted by this person too and ridicules them to help me from being so afraid. i know i can stand up to this person and i don't have to be afraid, because once i glare at them they immediately are repelled. but im still just so scared because im the victim, and i tend to let the one who wronged me have their way with me.

i also moved lunches and i do not know who to sit with or who is in the lunch. if this person catches wind of me sitting alone, im scared that they will make fun of me, even though it's unlikely.

they want attention from me and are always staring me down, planting themself right across from me in italian for god knows what reason. i wont talk to them no matter what.