TheComfortCorner | V.7

[dakotapaws]

so im at a relatives house for
dinner and we were talking about the cat that she has

she said she gets upset because the cat has nightly
zoomies like cats usually do and i was joking about
giving the cat to my partner who has cats already
and wouldnt mind having another

she said she cant because its "kind of my cousins"
cat as well as hers and then says id know
what she meant if she had a
pet that was like that with me

which hurt
a lot

because i did... china was part mine

i know i wasnt here a lot to help feed
but thats not the point right now

racheal NEVER comes over or
plays with that cat but you keep
it because its ""kind of hers"""

but sell the pony you gave
me part ownership to

thanks for making me sit here in
front of all of you on the verge of tears

thanks for showing me once again
ill never be as good or important as racheal

[pereyra]

I hate that grief hits at the most random times. Like, I'm fine for days or even a week or more, and then out of nowhere I just remember my best friend is dead.
I wish I could tell someone about the him I knew and not the him they knew because he made so much magic.
But I guess him and I are always going to be unfinished business now.

So, to add on to this, I guess I'm being a little sappy now, but I was going through our old texts for some reason and I just found one where he compared knowing me to photographing the Mona Lisa and now I'm crying again because I don't think I'm ever going to love anyone as much as I loved him. He was like... my soul mate. No romo.

[rat pack]

I'm broken into tears right now. I can't get through to my mom when I tell her I want to transfer to an online school. She keeps telling me that I need to 'try'. I've been trying for years but it just puts me back into the same spot. She won't stop walking away from me. Going to a public school is nothing but disadvantageous on my part. She tells me that I will lose my social skills. I don't have any to begin with, and don't plan on gaining any. The moment I brought up my main point (Which is 'I'd rather have no friends than a bad education and no future'), she walked away from me. I'm distraught and I'm unsure of how to handle this. Being surrounded by people in my school gives me nothing but anxiety. It's mentally painful when I talk to people that I don't know. My mind is racing and I can't think of anything besides 'what if I say something wrong,' 'I'm a freak, I can't do this anymore'. I'm just at a roadblock right now and I don't know what to do. I hate all of my teachers (Not even in the way where a normal teenager complains about a boring teacher, I just cannot connect with them and they don't seem willing to teach me what I need to know correctly.) I've never been an over-achiever, but I want to change. I want to get my life in order and do better. But without the help of a good education, one that I can work with and I understand, I am set up for undeniable failure.

[FooFarny]

my physio therapist told me I need to use a wheelchair now because my legs are becoming too weak to do anything. I have cerebral palsy and lately I have noticed I can’t walk as far anymore. Last year I was able to walk for like 30 minuets at a time but now I can’t even walk less than 5 minuets. It’s heartbreaking for me. I knew this would happen but not this soon. I’m having a hard time dealing with this and I want to cry honestly.

Like why now? Why not until im 30 somthing not this young. Ugh the only good side to this is that when I go back to America next year my Nan won’t have to push me around in a hire wheelchair (getting a powered one).

Any advice would be great..

Please.. anyone? I know people have better people to answer too but.. I would like some comfort or something

[ever changing]

I'm such a failure

I quit my job after only working there for
two days. Driving makes me anxious as is,
but I needed the money so I took a job as
a delivery driver.

But out there on the road...it was dark and
pouring rain. My gps kept messing up. A trip
that should have took twenty minutes took
forty-five.

I had such a bad panic attack that it made
me physically sick. So I went back and told
the manager that I couldn't do it.

[rat pack]

I'm broken into tears right now. I can't get through to my mom when I tell her I want to transfer to an online school. She keeps telling me that I need to 'try'. I've been trying for years but it just puts me back into the same spot. She won't stop walking away from me. Going to a public school is nothing but disadvantageous on my part. She tells me that I will lose my social skills. I don't have any to begin with, and don't plan on gaining any. The moment I brought up my main point (Which is 'I'd rather have no friends than a bad education and no future'), she walked away from me. I'm distraught and I'm unsure of how to handle this. Being surrounded by people in my school gives me nothing but anxiety. It's mentally painful when I talk to people that I don't know. My mind is racing and I can't think of anything besides 'what if I say something wrong,' 'I'm a freak, I can't do this anymore'. I'm just at a roadblock right now and I don't know what to do. I hate all of my teachers (Not even in the way where a normal teenager complains about a boring teacher, I just cannot connect with them and they don't seem willing to teach me what I need to know correctly.) I've never been an over-achiever, but I want to change. I want to get my life in order and do better. But without the help of a good education, one that I can work with and I understand, I am set up for undeniable failure.

I finally talked to my mother about this whole situation again and she said 'you just have to deal with it.' I know that doesn't sound like something so big to other people, but I've been 'dealing' with it my whole life. I can't take anymore. Nothing is going through my head except the need to shut everyone out and give up.

[Vixem]

I don’t really like to share my problems with others, I like to
figure them out myself..

I just finished watching one season of Atypical on Netflix and
I can relate to it a lot. I’m autistic and struggle with love,
friends and family. Meltdowns are occurring so often nowadays
and it’s hard to cope.

My parents sacrifice so much for me, I have 3 siblings but their
main focus is towards me, since I need help with daily activities.
I’m a high functioning autistic teenager so nothing serious, I only
really need help to regulate my emotions, feelings and simple
things.

I feel bad for being diagnosed with autism, I feel like most people
in my life would do better without me. Family meet ups need to be
absolutely perfect for me otherwise I will not attend (I cannot help
it). I’m currently seeing a therapist and he’s somewhat helping??
He gave me some fidget toys to calm myself down in public crowds,
which is quite helpful, actually.

The only annoying thing is, other people don’t understand. They
don’t understand what it’s like to have autism, to know you’re
different and that you’re not like them. I stand out in school so much,
I always carry around my tablet and headphones for music because
noises get too much. Most school days I cannot last a full 6 hours, my
mum has to pick me up because I’m too stressed.

Life with autism is hard, I feel like I’m the only one but I know I’m
not, it’s just upsetting me because teenage years are the hardest
to deal with :c


- Bria

[plecostomus enjoyer]

I don’t really like to share my problems with others, I like to
figure them out myself..

I just finished watching one season of Atypical on Netflix and
I can relate to it a lot. I’m autistic and struggle with love,
friends and family. Meltdowns are occurring so often nowadays
and it’s hard to cope.

My parents sacrifice so much for me, I have 3 siblings but their
main focus is towards me, since I need help with daily activities.
I’m a high functioning autistic teenager so nothing serious, I only
really need help to regulate my emotions, feelings and simple
things.

I feel bad for being diagnosed with autism, I feel like most people
in my life would do better without me. Family meet ups need to be
absolutely perfect for me otherwise I will not attend (I cannot help
it). I’m currently seeing a therapist and he’s somewhat helping??
He gave me some fidget toys to calm myself down in public crowds,
which is quite helpful, actually.

The only annoying thing is, other people don’t understand. They
don’t understand what it’s like to have autism, to know you’re
different and that you’re not like them. I stand out in school so much,
I always carry around my tablet and headphones for music because
noises get too much. Most school days I cannot last a full 6 hours, my
mum has to pick me up because I’m too stressed.

Life with autism is hard, I feel like I’m the only one but I know I’m
not, it’s just upsetting me because teenage years are the hardest
to deal with :c


- Bria

i've also got high functioning autism, so i do know how it is like to struggle and feel like you're the only one in the world who's like this. i also have to constantly carry around headphones due to noise being too much (and i get very upset when people touch me, especially without permission) and i know how it's like to feel like the people in your life would be better off without you. you're not alone <3


my inbox is always open if you ever need someone to talk to<3

[Spearow]

just need to vent a little,

it was my first day back to class today at uni and i only had one class today. so it should have been a stressfree day. it was one if the onky two classes i need to graduate but i have to take four to keep my insurrance. <_< so i had my class and i don’t like the professor, i can tell she isn’t someone i can connect with or someone i’d ever want to have a conversation with. i don’t know how to explain it but she was trying so hard she just came off fake..

so before my class i did my errands and after class i went to the bookstore and bought the two books i know for sure i will need. then i began having second thoughts about one of the two random classes i had to add. one of them i know will be fine, the other one sounded like way too much extra work for an elective after looking at the syllabus when my two required classss already have a bunch of written assignments. so i tried fixing my schedule. for four hours. and seriously i’ve just been so upset, its my last semester and i hate the schedule i have. i ended up with a lecture based class on shakespeare with a book that will cost my $98. really. the class itself sounds okay but is quiz and participation heavy. <_< i just wish i could have gotten a class a little later in the evening. its a 10am class which isn’t early, but i never schedule classes thag start before 11:30. because my insomnia my sleep schedule is everywhere and i sleepwalk and i’m scared i’ll oversleep. and when i do wake up on time i have a lot of anxiety in the morning and with my depression a lot of the time i have no motivation to get out of bed. i know its in my head but i don’t think i’ll ever be able to control this.

so its midnight and i’m anxious for tomorrow. and my senior kitty is sick and tomorrow i have start her treatment.
i like school but i am worried i won’t enjoy any of my classes my last semester. xc

[belacqua.]

mmm god i dont really want to go to this wedding at all but it's my aunts wedding and "everyone is putting in so much effort to go" yeah well they ain't sick like me go away

i don't want to wear a dress and i know my dysphoria is gonna kick up but at least i bought a nice one.
the theme is pink but i bought ivory so lmao