TheComfortCorner | V.7

[Stormii01]

So me and my bf have been together for 4 & 1/2 years, and I love him to death. But today he confessed he wants to break up..... it hurts so much and I'm trying to find out what I'm doing wrong and to get a chance to talk it out but we only see each other once a day and my parents check my phone. I don't know what to do...

[Sarish]

Why am I on this thread? I don't really know. But I can't talk to my family and I don't want to bother anyone so I think I'll put this here instead.
I've been having issues with both of my hands for a while and it's starting to freak me out. It's so disgustingly irrational, but I get stressed about everything so it's not surprising. I've had pain in my fingers (ESPECIALLY my thumbs) for a long time (a few years). It's always been just a lingering ache that maybe follows me through the day and is gone when I wake up the next morning. Well, recently the ache had turned into pain that is in mostly all of my fingers and makes my wrists shaky. Occasionally one or more of my fingers will go numb, like they've fallen asleep. My handwriting is so sloppy and light and I can't write as quickly anymore, which is a big issue when I have to write timed essays.
I think the worst thing about this pain is that it's really keeping me from the things I love. I play a few instruments, but I practice/perform the violin and upright bass daily. And it's just... So discouraging when I can't hold my bows properly, or when I can't press the strings down far enough to create a proper note. I've dropped my bass bow so many times in the middle of a song and it stresses me out so much. My conductor gives me funny looks but she doesn't comment. I haven't told her anything yet because I want to give her a name to whatever this is, though I have made mention of finger pain in the past, so she is aware in the very least. I can't hold books because of my thumbs, I drop my phone because I can't hold it properly, and I have to wear these old wrist braces so that my wrists don't shake. I just get so worried... Music is a huge part of my life. To be specific, I'm mainly an Irish fiddler and jazz bassist. You very much need to have quick, strong, nimble fingers because most of the songs for both genres are quick. Slow jazz baselines are just as bad because I can't keep the string pressed down long enough to let the notes ring out. When I'm depressed I turn to my instruments and now I can't even do that unless I want to play through everything and potentially make myself feel worse by fumbling through songs I could once rocket through with no trouble.
My parents are very much of the "if you're not dying, you're fine" mindset. They finally agreed to take me to get blood drawn to see if that could tell us anything. I think I know what's wrong, though it might be a combination of more than one thing at this point. My heart problems are connected to this one disease that also causes aches pretty much everywhere, so it's probably partially that. I know I'm overthinking things, but the blood work is taking so long to come back and all I can do it sit here worrying and waiting.
My fingers and wrists hurt and shake and yet here I am writing all of this out. I should be responding to my wonderful role-playing partner who does not deserve to wait for my subpar posts. What am I doing here? I could have answered them instead of writing this out. It would have saved me some strength. They should not have to wait for me to get my self-centered butt into working order. And I can't ask them for time away from the rp. Gosh, even the thought is so terrifying to me. I would be so depressed if I didn't have their wonderful posts to read and respond to. And yet here I am.
I just worry that whatever is wrong with my hands will be permanent. I just worry that I will lose the only thing I'm half-decent at; music. Jazz is my life, and I adore belting out incredibly fast fiddle tunes with my seisiún members. I have a slowly growing collection of music boxes. I absolutely adore music boxes. I worry that maybe I won't be able to turn their winding keys or that I'll drop the more fragile pieces of my collection. I listen to them all at least twice a day but I've forced myself to only pick the two sturdier ones up once a day. I worry that that my roleplay posts will suffer even more than they already are because I have to tip-tap something out quickly because I'm so tired of the pain. Gosh, I just hate it. I hate the looks some of my peers give me when they ask what's wrong and the only thing I can honestly respond with it "I don't know yet." The looks tell me that they think I'm just seeking attention. Good lord. I'd rather sink into the earth and never reemerge. I'm so shy.
I don't want my roleplay partner to have to wait on me. They are so amazingly wonderful and I have no idea how to repay them. I don't think they understand how much they are doing for me just by responding. I can't trade my music, I can't draw, and I have no money. Gosh. After all of this my fingers are screaming at me for being an idiot. A ridiculous idiot. I'm just tired and stressed and I want to be able to hold things properly. I want to be able to play my instruments. I wanted to try to save up for an erhu this holiday season, and now I'm scared to even work to that goal in the case that I get bad news from the doctors or something. I'm just overreacting. Gosh. I think I'll rest for a while and then finally reply to my extraordinary rp parter. They shouldn't have to wait on me. Gosh, I'm so self-centered, I hate it.

[jetsetstunna]

back again with yet ANOTHER problem with Leo

SOOO

We went to the fair today

And usually he's all happy and stuff but he's being really rude. He's super irritable and he's upset anytime i try to speak of the prvious problem (Below)

so, me and my boyfriend (yes the one in my siggy) just had our biggest fight yet and he is refusing to talk to me. i don't exactly see the big deal about me not agreeing with him getting a large tattoo at such a young age. i also don't see why it's so bad that he can't even talk to me. i don't know what to do. he's super mad... please PM me suggestions...

^ previous problem

i really think he's gonna break up with me. idk what to do

please PM me help....

once again...

more problems.

i think i'm just gonna break up with him...

he keeps (emotionally) hurting me and he's just thinking about himself.

but then again.

this is the first big fight in our relationship of 2 and 1/2 years (today is that 1/2.)

please

just help me.

[Motivational Lizard]

back again with yet ANOTHER problem with Leo :/

SOOO

We went to the fair today

And usually he's all happy and stuff but he's being really rude. He's super irritable and he's upset anytime i try to speak of the prvious problem (Below)

so, me and my boyfriend (yes the one in my siggy) just had our biggest fight yet and he is refusing to talk to me. i don't exactly see the big deal about me not agreeing with him getting a large tattoo at such a young age. i also don't see why it's so bad that he can't even talk to me. i don't know what to do. he's super mad... please PM me suggestions...

^ previous problem

i really think he's gonna break up with me. idk what to do

please PM me help....

once again...

more problems.

i think i'm just gonna break up with him...

he keeps (emotionally) hurting me and he's just thinking about himself.

but then again.

this is the first big fight in our relationship of 2 and 1/2 years (today is that 1/2.)

please

just help me.

Tell him he's aggravating you. If he refuses to co-operate, Try taking a break, If he doesn't change try giving him some time,

[lilac sky]

I'm so tired of people being fake
I'm honestly trying to help
I'm trying so hard, and then I find out that I'm just being used?? Seriously?? I'm over her suffering from horrible depression and tgen find out that I've been lied to for the past four months?? This is honestly the lat straw
I'm trying
But I don't think I can hold on for much longer.

[korax]

I sincerely apologize for the length of this again. I hope everyone has a good day/night.

last night was such a breaking point for me. I unintentionally hurt my best friend and I have no idea what to do. I didn't mean to. I just.. everything just came crashing down so fast. I didn't want to wake up this morning and I never responded to her. She was so scared. Gods, why am I so stupid? But.. I'm just so mentally and physically exhausted. I feel like I'm drowning, reaching for nothing that can save me. I'm so close to giving in to letting go. At this point, there's nothing out there that can help me. My heart feels numb. I feel numb. The farther I sink, the darker my view gets. My chest hurts. Dull throbbing. It's like having a massive weight on me. My throat is tight. It burns. I just wanna cry but I can't, I don't want to feel weak. My hands are shaky.I can't go on any longer with this, but I can't hurt her. I need help, but whenever I ask, I'm yelled at. I asked for a simple mental health day and all I get is "you have the weekends, which are set off just for that." No. What is a day four to five days later good to do when I go to bed on a Sunday night, crying because I'm too weak to wake up in the morning? I'm stressed. I hurt; physically, mentally. I'm tired of trying to be the perfect kid; the kid who has the perfect grades and attendance, the kid who has no problems. That's not me. I'm just the disappointment of a second born. The stress is literally eating its way through me.

[∘Raven∘]

I just received word that my sister’s baby passed away. I don’t know what to do. My family has been going through so much the last year, and this is just....agonizing.

[cornspurrd.]

Now I am being nagged about a permission slip, ANd a caculator

My teacher is nagging me about getting money in for a new caculator because mine got stolen.

but we don't have the money to buy a flipping 16$ caculator.

She brings it up to me everyday infront of the entire class.

She's not fun,And She always gets me close to crying.

I always have a such hard time getting myself into the class, I always get really anxious waiting for her to ask the question, And I Hear the other kids wispering stuff about me while its all going on.

shes also the teacher who makes us all stand at whiteborads and do out work, I ma always the last one finished because I am a complete idiot and she always finds a way to bring it to everybod's attention that I finished last.

My entire bus ride home I was being called a ton of names, To the point where I was bawling.

The second I entered the house My mom started yelling at me.

Today was not fun at all.

[MintyMichi]

It's been hard.
School's been hard.
Everything seems awful.

I know there are so many people worse-off than I am, but I still can't help but feel awful.Untalented. In perpetual stress and anxiety.'

My grades are slipping no matter how hard I try in some of the classes.
I feel like my skill in art is so behind some of my friends and people even younger than I am.
Yeah, good for them- but I wish I was as good- or at least equal in ability
it makes me a little scared to draw with/ in front of them- I used to have confidence in myself and my art
i dont know what happened.

How did I ever become so insecure in the first place? but its always same old, same old. I am trash, my art is trash, and I am everyone's favorite loser.

art is the one thing i'm "good" at
but I am still incredibly awful

i dont have time for anything anymore
i feel so dead

thank you whoever took the time to read this
i appreciate this
and i appreciate you
thanks

[AuraDragoness]

So I've come to the conclusion that I have major abandonment issues.

Since I can remember I've always been able to do stuff with my brothers and they've been a big part of my life...but now that one of them is in collage and the other now getting a job...I fear that I will be lonely.

My mom works and my dad has to fix up our house because we can't afford to pay people to just do a bad job...and I've been isolated for years due to how cruel people are and/or have been to me in public so I have no friends either.

I have 1 friend online but it's hard to get a chance to talk with her since we're on different time zones...I used to have a lot of people online as friends but somehow I just drifted away from them.

I also can't drive nor have anyone to teach me so I can't just go out and do stuff either...

Also, I and great at giving people wise advice and confidence...but I can't heed my own advice.

Everything has just been going downhill...and it has been for so long that I don't even remember when it started anymore.

I don't want to be alone...