"I can't loose you!"
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Ever since they had found her lying on the shore, draped in a strange coat, Shyshie had drifted through the days with a dreamy smile and dazed eyes.
She never explained how she ended up on the beach, sprayed with sand.
Whenever anyone pressed her she only sighed sweetly and only said that she had a dream.
And she refused to take off the coat.
Darkmoon worried and fussed and begged and threatened, but Shyshie seemed to have stayed within the dream, the world didn't affect her in the way it had before.
She didn't touch a book not even to finish the one she had been in the midst of one, she didn't sing a single note, she barely even spoke beyond what others pressed her to say.
Darkmoon insisted that Shyshie sleep in her room, in fact, she never let her daughter out of her sight, but Shyshie didn't seem to care.
And it was this apathy that scared them all the most.
Not even Rolland, skilled as he was in matters of behavior and the ways of the mind could understand what had happened.
Darkmoon found herself sleeping less and less while Shyshie slept more and more, trying to reclaim the dream.
On one night, when the moon hung full and round, Darkmoon couldn't even close her eyes.
Shyshie had all the appearance of being fast asleep, but Darkmoon couldn't shake the uneasy sensation that this night was far too alike to the one a few week ago even though it was still and the moon was filled out.
She sighed and reached her arm out to pull Shyshie closer to her, but ended up with an armful of cold blanket.
With a gasp she sat bolt upright just in time to see a corner of the coat flicking out the door.
"Shyshie! Come back!"
Darkmoon catapulted out of bed and rushed to the door, only to see the small figure disappear around the bottom of the stairs.
"Shyshie, no!"
Somehow, though desperation and fear fueled her feet, Shyshie was always far ahead of her.
Fear rising in her already chilled heart, Darkmoon realized that Shyshie was retracing her trail back to the beach.
That beach where every had fallen apart.
Her chest burned and her legs felt like they where coming to pieces, but Shyshie easily stayed ahead of her right until they actually reached the beach.
Shyshie paused at the summit of the dune, the moon bathing her in pale cold light.
"Shyshie.... Shyshie, please..."
Darkmoon put on the last of her speed and reached out for Shyshie's sleeve, just as Shyshie began walking down the dune.
Overbalanced and breathless Darkmoon sprawled face-first into the sand, where she stayed, too exhausted to even move.
Slowly, spitting out sand, she dug her elbows down and lifted her head and stared with mute horror.
Strange figures where rising out of the surf to join others in a dancing circle of forms, and one, small one, descended the sand and joined from the land.
"Shyshie, no."
She didn't dare raise her voice beyond a hoarse whisper for the fear of drawing the dancer's attention.
She no longer could distinguish her daughter from the whirling mass and she was powerless to pull Shyshie away.
Helpless to save her daughter, to break the enchantment over her.
The dancers began to weave in their steps quicker and quicker, then the singing began.
Darkmoon had heard her daughter sing many times, and every time she had marveled at the beauty and clarity even though Shyshie was so young.
But now, it was as if it was all the fulfillment of the promise that Shyshie held, the dancers wove pure starlight into their voices, filling the air with soaring melodies. The words scintillated in time with the stars and rose a faint longing in Darkmoon's mind.
For a moment she felt a near overwhelming urge to rush out and join them, then it faded and fear returned.
Hours passed with a heartbeat and the gray edges of the morning were peeling back on the sky when the singing slowly sank to a murmur, then ceased. The dancers slowed and one by one they went back to the water, until there was one left, a slender figure hesitated at the edge of the waves.
With a jolt of panic Darkmoon realized that it was Shyshie who hovered at the water, seconds away from joining the dancers in the ocean.
"No!!"
Darkmoon screamed, her raw broken voice shredding the silence.
Shyshie startled and looked up, for the first time seeming to have awoke from her dream.
"Mama?"
"Don't! Don't leave!"
Shyshie stayed frozen in place until Darkmoon reached her and wrapped her in an iron embrace.
"But Mama.... I want to swim...."
"No! No, no, no!"
Darkmoon sobbed, trying to pull Shyshie away.
But Shyshie leaned against her "Please Mama, please! I want to go!"
"No! I can't loose you!"
Shyshie began to struggle, kicking up the sand.
"Please! I have to!"
"No! What's wrong with you?!?"
Darkmoon stood up, dragging Shyshie with her, and stumbled a step back from the waves.
Shyshie slipped out of her mother's arms and raced back to water, and with only the hesitation of a breath, she dipped her toes into the cold sea.
But something made her stop and look up.
Blue eyes fixated her in a silent stare from the waves.
Slowly the cloaked figure stood, never breaking eye contact with her.
"What is your name, child?"
"Stalkwalk," She breathed in reply "Shyshie Starwalk."
"And is she your mother?"
Shyshie looked over her shoulder at Darkmoon, who was sprayed with sand and soaked with salt, terror in her eyes.
"Yes."
He reached out to touch her coat.
"Is this yours?"
"No, I...I found it."
He nodded slowly, then turned and walked along the edge of the shore, commanding gently "Come. We will discuss this somewhere safe."
Without questioning Shyshie began to follow him, but Darkmoon caught at her and held her back.
"We're not going anywhere with you."
He held his hands out in a soothing gesture "I only wish to help your daughter."
Seeing Darkmoon's continuing hesitation he took a step closer "Your daughter has found a coat of our kind and danced with us, she may not be well."
Darkmoon looked down into Shyshie dreamy, dazed eyes, then up again at the stranger.
"Okay," She whispered "But if you hurt her I'll kill you."
The horizon had turned rosy pink when they found shelter in a clump of boulders.
The strange dancer removed his hood, revealing his face and his species.
He was a fox with deep gray fur streaked thinly with silver, a serious draw to his forehead.
"Alright," Darkmoon locked eyes with him and for the first time noticed the depth to his gaze, the well of thoughts beyond her own understanding, but she didn't back down "How will you fix her?"
He reached out to Shyshie and she stepped towards him. Gently he slipped the hood from her face and studied her eyes with intensity.
"You've danced with us before, haven't you?"
She nodded.
Gently he slipped his paw under hers and raised it up, but paused when he saw the bracelet.
"Did you find this with the coat?"
She shook her head.
"Where did you get it?"
"I gave it to her," Darkmoon replied "Her father gave it to me. It belonged to his grandmother."
"And where... did she get it?"
Darkmoon shrugged.
He tilted Shyshie's chin up slightly, as if for the first time noticing her blue eyes.
"Her father, does she resemble him?"
Looking down, Darkmoon nodded.
"And him, does he resemble his grandmother much?"
"I only ever saw pictures of her, but they looked quite similar."
"Well."
He leaned back and pulled his hood over his face.
"I believe I see now."
Shyshie tilted her head curiously while Darkmoon felt her heart drop out.
"It's been so long, I didn't even think that it could be true."
"What?"
Darkmoon's voice was harsh and flat.
"What is it?"
"I am not totally certain, it's been so long, but..." He paused for a second "I believe your child may have Selkie blood."
The silence that fell over them was all encompassing, Darkmoon couldn't hear her own heartbeat. She couldn't hear her own thoughts.
She could've been screaming, she could've been crying, she couldn't hear anything.
"Mama?"
Shyshie's soft, unconcerned voice broke through Darkmoon's stunned deafness.
And like the small stone that dislodges the mountain, the little voice sent Darkmoon's mind into an avalanche of emotion and thoughts.
Every story of Selkies came flooding into her mind, the single theme, the tragic concern of every tale, overwhelmed her.
Selkies, always returned to the sea.
And they never came back to the land.
"No."
"There's only one way to know for certain," He said quietly "If she is, then the sea will clear her mind, if she isn't then... well time is the only cure for what ails her."
He stood and Shyshie followed him as he passed out from the shadows of the boulders.
Darkmoon stayed sitting in the sand, taking shallow shuddering breaths.
She couldn't even stand anymore, to turn and watch the sea take everything away.
The was a splash in the surf and a laugh and Darkmoon lost all hope.
She curled over and simply collapsed in the sand.