∞. chaotic words

[blooming chaos;]

i've started to get back into writing poetry, so i thought i'd put it here

please do not post, if you have any advice or questions just pm me :))

i know i'm not very good, but i'm gonna post it anyway

thanks for reading!

[blooming chaos;]

time

i don't like time
the minutes go by and my mind turns grey
right now i'm celebrating mother's day
but i blink and now it's the fourth of july

i really don't like time
tick tock, the clock whispers in my ear
and the popping of fireworks i hear
but i stop to think, and schools back in session

i hate time
the moments of opportunity slip through my fingers
the school bell rings and the students linger
but the minutes shrink and it's new year's again

i want more time
i want more time to explore the earth
before time becomes twice what it's worth
but the glasses clink and my heartbeat has slowed

there's no more time
i'm faded and years older than yesterday
all the minutes and seconds have gone away
i blink and my eyes stay closed

there's no more time.

[blooming chaos;]

monsters

my heart's beating out of my chest,
my eyes are wide open, and i can't get rest,
the darkness seems to engulf my head
and i kind of feel like i'm already dead

there's not a trace of light in this room,
just a feeling of terror when the monsters loom,
they watch me from the corners, with unblinking eyes,
hiding behind a horrific disguise

so i shake and i quiver even though they never touch,
they just observe from a distance as i sob and i hunch,
i pluck up the courage to look at these eyes,
and my fear washes away as i suddenly realize;

i'm the monster

[blooming chaos;]

defeated

flying
falling
fearing

i ride the rocket ship of life
into the nebula of destiny
tracing my fingers
along the stardust planes

onto the metal handles i grip
but my fingers start to slip
i'm falling off the ship
with no trace of hope

i claw at every surface
the paint chipping under my nails
but there's nothing to hold on to
and i feel the burning of the flames

i slip farther down the rocket ship
until the fire envelops my being
and i no longer feel the fear
as i'm

flying
falling
searing

i let go of the ship
leaving only the dust at my fingertips
and i float through the void
with no reason to cry

it's already over

i'm floating
falling
defeated