Basic info
Name
Delarosa Antoinette
Commonly called Antoinette or Ann
Name pronunciation
d eh l aa - r OH s aa ae n t w ah n eh t
Gender
Female
Personality
Guided by emotion and her heart, Ann has a hard time blending into the world around her.
Lack of patience or even love will manifest through mood swings Ann has sometimes, and even selfishness, self-pity or manipulation happens. However; she can't bare to manipulate anyone in her family, doing so throws her into a weeping mess, and she tends to right poetic apologies if she was to manipulate anyone close to her.
Ann is quick to help others, just as she is quick to avoid conflict, and rarely benefit from close combat of any kind, always choosing to hit someone stronger, bigger, or more powerful than she imagined.
Relationships
;; Bélier ;;
"How did you two meet?"
So many of you have been asking me, since I got attached (and subsequently engaged), how I got to know my then-boyfriend and now-fiance, Bélier. Some of you requested to know how we got together, while some of you asked how we knew, with such certainty, that we are the ones for each other — in such a short period no less (we’ve been together for about 6 months now).
Initially I wanted to hold off writing about the story of how we met and all till closer to our wedding day, because I didn’t want people to diminish the message I have to share because we have not been together long (in Earth time anyway).
However, the truth is that even though Bélier and I have not been together long, it feels like we have known each other all along. (And I’m not saying it in some teen-girl-fantasy way; I’m saying it in a matter-of-fact fashion.) We may well have been lovers or deeply connected in our past lives, because our connection transcends beyond any connection I’ve ever known or dreamed possible.
I’m excited to share my love story because I want to inspire all of you who are seeking love or have yet to find love. Regardless of whether you are single or attached, I hope my/our story will give you hope about love. I never knew that such a perfect person in Bélier could exist, much less wind up to be my life partner. In this series, I will share the story of how we met, got attached, and quickly realised that we are meant for each other in this lifetime (and beyond), among other things.
If “soulmates” mean 2 souls having an unexplained affinity for each other be it mentally, physically, emotionally, or spiritually, then that’s what Bélier and I are to each other — soulmates, on all levels.
Here goes nothing.
I’ve already shared parts of my love journey here and there in my past 5 years of running PE. From my longstanding single-hood, to my past heartbreak, and to my recent sponsored experience at a dating agency, these are all part and parcel of my love journey.
But to give you guys a complete picture, up until I got attached to Bélier, I was single for the most part of the first 28 years of my life.
I grew up in a household where my parents staunchly ruled that I was not allowed to see anyone until I graduated. And when I say ‘graduated’, I mean completely graduating from school i.e., university when I was 22. While I never gave their opinions second thought, I believe their staunch views subconsciously made me devalue my desire to be with someone.
I had a couple of relationships when I was in secondary school, but they were very short-term — each lasting no more than a couple of weeks. They were so insignificant and juvenile that I wouldn’t even regard them as relationships, which was why I would tell others that I had never been in a relationship when people asked me about my romantic history.
When I was in university, I liked someone (as I have written in my moving on series, regarding G). It didn’t work out and I was left crushed, taking years to mend my broken heart thereafter.
(Of course it all worked out well in the end because I eventually met Bélier, my real soulmate, but more on that later. And thinking back, G was not a true compatible match because had we gotten together back then, I would never have evolved to who I am today; he would also not a fit for the person I’ve become.)
I grew up very career-driven and achievement-oriented. To me relationships come and go, but personal achievements and career — these stick forever. Seeing and hearing of couples part ways after 3, 5, 10, or even more years simply re-enforced the transient nature of relationships in my mind and that I shouldn’t invest too heavily in something that wouldn’t last. (Of course, I later realised this belief wasn’t true and had limited me from getting attached.)
I've never Been in a Serious (Long-Term) Relationship Before.
Even though I had never been in a serious relationship before, it wasn’t because I wasn’t appealing enough or that I lacked male attention.
On my appeal, I used to think that I wasn’t pretty, thin, or feminine enough to attract a good guy but I later realised that this wasn’t true and I was being stupid.
On attention from guys, I have always had male attention — even pickups — but things just never worked out. It was always either that the guy wasn’t a match or I had some interest but the guy didn’t follow up. I went out on dates, but nothing ever came out of them–I usually concluded we weren’t compatible after some dates (sometimes just one) and would just do the fade-away thing (which I later realised wasn’t very nice when I experienced that myself).
I wanted to be with someone but I didn’t see the point of being in a relationship for the sake of it. I wanted to be with someone I truly liked and saw a future with, rather than just get together with some guy I didn’t feel strongly for.
I was wondering if there was anyone out there for me.
Okay okay, let's skip ahead a bunch of years.
By early 2013, I was quite jaded with this whole process of dating, meeting someone, and then feeling disappointed when things didn’t turn out to be the way I wanted.
I had such a toxic connection with someone. One thing was that I was very badly burned by this one guy (let’s call him N) I met during my dating-immersion phase. While I initially thought he was a good match, he turned out to be toxic. Because N would repeatedly chastise me, I doubted myself a lot in the few months I knew him.
Finally, I had enough. I cut him away early this year because I couldn’t take his volatile and ungrateful behavior anymore. I was surprised I even let this connection drag on so long because I would have never tolerated such behavior if it was from any other person. A large part was because I felt so inferior about myself as a woman, as a date potential, that I was ready to give my all just to make things work. While this toxic connection was out of my life, I was back to being alone, by myself, after months of hope, unhappiness, and struggle.
After this. I had gone to university. This is where I met Bélier.
So here’s a recap: Bélier was an acquaintance I met almost a decade ago in this core-curricular activity that I randomly joined in university. We had met no more than 2 times in our entire lives at that point (3, if you include a random encounter where he didn’t even see me at all).
So when I saw this out-of-the-blue message from this guy whom I had only met like twice in my entire life and who had never tried to reach out before, my first thoughts were sceptical at best. I immediately thought,
How did he get my number?
and
Why is he suddenly messaging me?
I guessed he had saved my number from one of the name cards I had given him before, just that he had never reached out.
Honestly, I never expect such a long chat with him. He was so nice..
He would read every single one of my messages carefully — even when I was typing large volumes of text — absorb and fully understand all I have said, then respond to them in very sharp detail, something which not everyone can do. People generally either gloss over what you write and give a brief reply or they don’t even register everything you have typed because they are simply not that observant.
He always included questions in his responses, which gave me a reason to continue messaging and share about myself. Some people only talk but don’t ask anything, so the conversation ends after a short while.
He would make an effort to know about me, such as asking me what I was doing for the day, checking out my articles, asking me about my work, and asking further questions about whatever topic we were talking about.
He was very kind and caring. He would tell me not to reply whenever I had limited phone credits left.
It was obvious that an emotional bond was brewing (a strong one at that).
Here stands a sensitive, kind, reliable, patient, sweet, and empathetic guy, I thought. If I were to give a score (I don’t score people, but let’s say if I were to, for example’s sake), Bélier was easily scoring tops (A+++) in just his emotional quotient alone. His kindness and sensitivity were at a level which I had never seen in any other guy before.
Whether this brewing bond was platonic or romantic — I didn’t know. For all I know, he can well be a player, I thought. I also thought that he could just be a nice guy who wasn’t interested but was simply being, well, nice.
There were fears which I had to break through and a 5-round intensive interrogation which Bélier had to pass before we could get together.
Personally, after so long, and after many dates.. I figured Bélier was just the one for me. He's such an amazing guy and now here we are! Years later! And I still think he's the perfect guy for me. I love him to bits and I always will. Thanks so much for listening guys. I appreciate your interest in how we met and what we went through to get together.
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;; All her children ;;
Ann loves all her children equally; not being able to favourite just one. She's very supportive of her children and could never hurt them in any way. She's never punished her children, and would do anything for them. She's a suck-up for children so of course she'd treat her children amazingly.
Even if she's got a lack of money, she'd rather spend the money she earns on her family more than herself.
