TheComfortCorner | V.7

[onion]

i feel so stupid i shouldnt have said anything

i ruin everything

[arabella !!]

My mom is in pain right now and I'm scared

Aw, I hope she'll get better. -hugs-

[sillies]

I wish people would stop judging me and making me feel less than human.

[Anuran]

just needing a place to whine because things aren't bad enough for me to wanna reach out for help but it's too much to keep to myself

- I've been living on my own and today I left my apartment to move back in with mom for the summer - 9 hours away. Mom's having surgery in July so I wanna be home to help around the house because I know my sister won't.

- Before I left, my boyfriend of 4 years and I went to Cali for a week and it was the best week ever, but now I have to get used to being without him again and every little thing is reminding me of him right now.

- I hit an armadillo on the drive home and it really bummed me out, and now I'm paranoid about cleaning the front of my car because armadillos are known to carry leprosy, so I want nothing to do with that.

- My dad is overseas and I miss him a lot, we chat every now and then but he's 9 hours ahead and working all day so it's hard to get a hold of him.

- My drawing II professor still hasn't posted grades though they were due like two weeks ago, and as it's illegal for professors to share a student's grade through email I have to wait til my university revises my degree audit to see my grade.

- I got a severe kidney infection coming home from Cali, and we ended up having to go to the emergency room before we even got to my apartment because the pain was so bad.

- My boyfriend's parents live near my apartment and invited us to stay with them after they heard I was sick, but I feel like we overstayed our welcome because his mom seemed really irritated with me before we left and oh man I hope she doesn't hate me.

- My grandma's dog Maddy got hit by a car, and I'm hoping the vet can help her because she's such a sweet dog, and her sister Marley would be devastated if she doesn't make it.

- My boyfriend was talking about proposing to me but then my mom scared him out of it. I mean I know that she means well, I'm young and still in college so I shouldn't be worried about getting married, but that's just it. There's a huge difference between getting engaged and getting married.

- I know this summer is gonna suck because I won't be here long enough for anyone to want to hire me but I'll be here too long to sit around all day. None of my old friends here seem to wanna talk to me though so hanging out with them isn't an option.

- my mom and my little sister are always at each other's throats. They both take every single thing very personally so they're always fighting. It's really hard to be upbeat when you're stuck in a house with them. I love them to death but God I wish they would take a deep breath and not fight about every single thing.

^^ sorry for the long post, I just needed to rant/list what's been on my mind. Makes me feel a lot better to get it out into words.

[IQuit;;]

wow look who feels dead inside again. i thought i was getting better thanks guys you're great truly the best your support means the world to me!1! guess who feels worthless thx wow look who's selfish and awful and seemingly throwing himself a pity party . like i always seemingly do. im just a worthless lump who complains too much. its ok. i know im a stupid boy who doesnt know anything.
and R, (i hope so badly you read all this. i dont think you get it at all.) you hurt me so bad. i thought you were my friend. i trusted you and loved WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL you so much and it feels like you manipulated me. i'm fragile and you KNOW THAT WHAT ARE YOU DOING.
i feel so cheated and like you just forced poison down my throat. it feels right now like you're a snake but oh well my blind trust will probably return soon and i'll try and forget this because i am childish and try and see the good in everyone. i'm just stupid. im so desperate for acceptance and care that i cant find anywhere else that i'll beg for you to care about me because that's all i want i dont care about anything else because as long as you want to be around me that's all that matters. i thought you were my best friend and i was/am willing and ready to die for you to be happy. clearly that meant nothing to you. like you said, you werent there for friendship.
i want you to realize how much you hurt me right now. i always take things so hard and you can watch me blame myself for talking if you want.
blame me too actually. i'd make it somehow easier. it'd validate my feelings of worthlessness and validate my feelings of being a horrible person who doesnt deserve any kindness.
you made it even more clear i dont deserve good friends. look what i got. i got someone who never even cared. you and the others were my only friends in the entire world. MY ONLY FRIENDS. without you i have nothing. i have literally nothing in the entire world that i look forward to. i'd always look forward to the jokes and fun and meaningful (i guess only to me at least :3) things we would say together. i thought we had fun. just tell me how wrong i was please. tell me exactly how you feel about me because i dont want anymore hurt. this sucks.i want to say you suck too but i dont want it to be true. i dont want this to be real i want to wake up and be able to tell you about the awful dream i had. i want us to be able to laugh it off because you said something stupid and funny.do i just have a warped version of how we were or am i telling the truth i cant even tell anymore. back up go my walls and my trust issues get built further up.

[pereyra]

Wow guess who has the unhealthiest coping mechanism in the world?

It's me!!!!!

And guess who just got their heart broken literally because of said coping mechanism??

Also me!!!!!!!

Isn't being mentally ill Fun?!?!?!?! :D

[LokiToons]

Man, third night in a row I've talked myself into a mental breakdown. Maybe my methods aren't working that great. *sigh* back to square one.

[.-Tired-.]

I'm sick. I'm worried.

Usually I get a cold for a day or two then I'm
better.
But I've had this for nearly an entire month.
I think I'm getting better but I've missed four
days in the past two weeks of school.
I went on my graduation trip and got puking
sick by being over tired from hiking all day.
Now that was the only time I was puking.
But I've been really sick with a horrid cough
ever since.
And it's taking its toll on my physically,
mentally, and spiritually.
Now I'm not asking for medical advise.
Not in any way.
This is just a little rant I need to get off my
chest.
Literally.

[lilac sky]

I could really use someone to talk to, I need to get my mind off of a few things..

[Nolan]

Man, third night in a row I've talked myself into a mental breakdown. Maybe my methods aren't working that great. *sigh* back to square one.

I'm not the best at advice for this, but I hope you find a method that works for you! Better to try and fail than to not try at all, right?

I'm sick. I'm worried.

Usually I get a cold for a day or two then I'm
better.
But I've had this for nearly an entire month.
I think I'm getting better but I've missed four
days in the past two weeks of school.
I went on my graduation trip and got puking
sick by being over tired from hiking all day.
Now that was the only time I was puking.
But I've been really sick with a horrid cough
ever since.
And it's taking its toll on my physically,
mentally, and spiritually.
Now I'm not asking for medical advise.
Not in any way.
This is just a little rant I need to get off my
chest.
Literally.

I hope you feel better!