TheComfortCorner | V.7

[your blanket]

I just feel like a burden to everybody. I feel like they don't want to talk to me. Whenever I want to speak, they ignore me.
I'm just an annoying little brat to everybody.
sorry

➥ actually, i can relate to this extremely,,
where you feel like you're just a burden,, same here pal.
but you know how i got over that, and what caused it in the first place?
they weren't the right people, i wasn't in the right place, MY cause of the problem
was because i wasn't being myself, or i was trying too hard.
good people will come along in your life, they will come and go,
and some stay, (( best friends, close friends, even partners etc, ))
it might take awhile, but trust me, its worth the wait.

and i just wanna tell you this,
your words are meant to be heard, and they will be, -- just keep strong! <333
if you ever want someone to talk to, or even a friend, my inbox is open 24/7 !!!

I cant sleep
My back is hurting
I dont know what to do

Im not sure what im thinking about
But i feel pretty useless and unproductive
Im not tired
I have no motivation to draw
All the roleplays im in are inactive

How worthless can someone even get
I wanna cry for no reason but since i have no reason i cant
My eye is starting to twitch and its bugging me
I feel sorta spacey

I have to finish a stupid project over the holiday weekend and the final product included my weight on other planets
Im not overweight or severely underweight or anything but I dont feel comfortable with it being out there
I always seem to have self acceptance issues
People say im thin but theres no way
I have no clue where theyre pulling that nonsense from

I also have a SOL test after the holiday
Its in english
Im nervous
Im a straight A student worrying about a normal leveled SOL
Im in the talented and gifted program yet i worry about a normal grade leveled standard test
The math SOL was in CAT format and it was really easy
Im not sure if it means i did good or bad but i think i did ok
However english is different
Im better at it than math, but it isnt an exact science
Math is exact
You use this formula to calculate that then multiply it by this
English is a different ballpark
I dont understand why im so worried about it but i just am
Nighttime makes me think about things more

I dont know anymore
Maybe ill just try and sleep
I hope i can

➥ I think i can give a tiny bit of advice.
the most important thing is to relax and try to stay calm.

with the motivation for drawing and the roleplays,,
don't force yourself to have the motivation to draw,, i usually get ideas of drawings or motivation / inspiration
when i'm actually not going anything art-related, or simply looking at my inspirations artworks. --- with the roleplays,
most of the hosts / people in roleplays are quite understanding, and just tell them you're going to be inactive for awhile,
and if you lose motivation for the roleplay you're in, simply quit it. (( this has happened a lot to me, < )),, its for the best ;v;;

now with your back, - i don't know what sort of pain you're going through,
such as sharp pain, irritating itchy spots, sore areas etc,
if possible, i advise someone to gently massage your back with a lotion or cream made for that purpose
(( like baby oil / baby lotion )) the person should rub it in with circular motions over the area that is hurting,
but if not, - maybe its the way you sit, or you've been bending over, or it could just be a trapped-nerve that needs releasing ((massage is the best answer for that one )), don't have that much knowledge about backpains beside that unfortunately,sorry ;m;

i hope you have a nice sleep, and good luck with the school-related subjects!
you can do it, - try not to look at the ENTIRE thing, but piece by piece work your way through it.
(( i kept looking at my new math book and it looked so hard, but once i ACTUALLY started doing it,
it wasn't that bad to be honest. ))

if you ever need someone to talk to, i'll try my best to help c: <3

[calculator]

no no this can't be possible, zero to two lines please how do i explain this to my parents, they don't even want me seeing my significant other. plus im still in school and ; god help me. pm me if you can help maybe idk

[♡Chocolate♡]

my dad sang me happy birthday through a phone while i have two bites of cake- since that's as much as my system can take as of right now

buuerbxeww

[Guest]

sorry for the terrible disorganization of this post. I swear it was a lot more structured in my head
lately I've been a little...i don't know how to say it. unmoored? depressed? anxious? anyways, I'm not my usual self lately. I've been thinking about what I'm going to do after this year...i have so many options, but I don't know...
nothing really interests me anymore, and I'm starting to have 'anxiety attacks' whenever the topic of what I'm going to do after school comes up. my grades have been slipping, and i've been finding it hard to concentrate in school and my lessons. it's kind of a 'srsly. now?' moment right there but oh well
I don't really need people telling me it's going to be okay: that's not what I wanna hear. just send me pictures of good art or something

[Cruxich]

Ugh. I just, can't sleep at all. I was doing all fine and dandy, generally in bliss and almost falling asleep until a thing that happened yesterday that kind of upsetted me reared it's ugly head and invaded my mind, making me feel annoyed, agitated, and also kind of sad to the point I'm trying not to cry.

Why must negative thoughts always come to you when you're falling asleep? Its 3 am, and even thought I can feel some tiredness I just don't feel like going back to sleep. At this point, if I do manage to sleep no doubt I'll be awaken after 4 or 5 hours of sleep due to people waking up before me, and I get very grumpy since I'm so used to getting more than 8 hours.

Maybe I'll just occupy myself to ease my mind, but I doubt even that will work.

[wriolette enjoyer]

everyday i feel tortured
my mom goes on my nerves
i tell her to leave me be but shes like: are you mad at me?
i am , in fact i am mad at myself because of what a horrible child i am and what disgrace to my legacy i have brought...
the only things keeping me smiling are my friends, my sister, jack and my fidget spinner.
honestly i cannot bear trough this
everytime i look outside i see a world but once i remember what happened in manchester then i take a step back because of how depressing this world is making us all.
aren't we all just trapped?

[nana]

Waking up at 3 am every day crying in pain because I walked .21 miles and my body is too weak to handle it
My life depends on my best friend and boyfriend who I love more than the universe. (Congratulations baby! For your first binder.)
Getting called gay 24/7 and seeing the pain on my boyfriends pain because he's not a girl and has never been a girl and NEVER WILL BE A GIRL.

[Thalassic]

I really cant afford being in such a low mood right now
I can't afford being depressed right now
I can't, I have so much to do
And yet, it's never really a choice, is it
I don't know what to do, I feel tired even after sleeping

yup woke up exhausted with 0 motivation
sigh

[Sharkbite]

So, this must either sound extremely jealous, pathetic or both. Anyway, I really need to write this down because the last two days haven't been great and I'm stuck somewhere between being desperate and very sad.

So I've been friends with S since a year now and we get along pretty well. It's basically like we're twins or something, I've never met someone who has so much in common with me than S. Anyway, we met online and we have never seen each other in person, which is okay by me. As the months passed, I became more and more attached. I really enjoy talking to her and I think she doesn't hate me either since we text each other constantly.
Here's the downside. Two days ago I learned that S has given her phone number to Person B, who we both know. I also have S' number, so I don't want to complain about that. I know that she gets along with B better than I do, and she likes B. That's great. B is a nice person. But. My problem is that I have this crippling fear of being replaced. I'm so afraid of losing her that I've felt sick to my stomach for two days now and I'm unable to eat. The first night after I had heard that she gave her number to B, I slept for two hours and had a nightmare about being actually replaced. In my dream, everybody abandoned me. People did that to me in the past, I've stopped counting how many times I got pushed away by a friend because some better came into their lives, someone more interesting, someone they had more in common with. I'm happy for them, but it hurts so much.
When we join a group chat, S is always overly excited to see that B is there too. For over a year now I have never gotten a "good to see you" or anything like that. It's devastating. And I don't understand.
In July, I'll be on holiday on the other side of the globe and I most probably won't have any internet access. S said, she's gonna miss me. I don't know if she's just being polite. I'm scared that she will eventually replace me with B, since I won't be able to talk to S for three weeks. Even though we have never met personally, she's my closest friend because we get along so well and if she'd lose interest in me, well…I don't know what I will do.
The thought of being replaced prevents me from actually doing really important things. I can't concentrate on studying, I literally get nothing done because I reply to her messages as fast as I can and I spend my time searching for new things to talk about. I want to keep the conversation going, I literally want to bury her in texts so that she has to keep talking to me. Maybe it's selfish, I don't know.
Every night after telling me that she's going to bed, S stays online on WhatsApp for up to an hour. That has actually never been an issue, but since two days I think she does it because she rather talks to B and she wants to get rid of me. Of course I don't know if this is true, but my mind keeps telling me I'm extremely close to being pushed away again and the only way I can enjoy her company a little bit longer is to reply to her texts the minute I get them.
I'm not mad at B, I like B. We just don't talk that often. I don't know what to do, I just want to have S a little bit longer. I don't want to be replaced again, I don't want to feel worthless again. I feel so bad for feeling this way, I don't want to seem so clingy. I'm so frustrated right now and I feel completely helpless.

just wanted to bring this up again...things are not getting any better. I feel tired and worn out.
I'm not motivated at all, but I need to study for my finals. I stare at my notes and I'm not able to memorize anything.
Also, my parents told me that they maybe want to cancel our holiday trip. Everything comes crashing down on me. I just want to cry.

[arabella !!]

Waking up at 3 am every day crying in pain because I walked .21 miles and my body is too weak to handle it
My life depends on my best friend and boyfriend who I love more than the universe. (Congratulations baby! For your first binder.)
Getting called gay 24/7 and seeing the pain on my boyfriends pain because he's not a girl and has never been a girl and NEVER WILL BE A GIRL.

I'm sorry about all these thing! -hugs-