TheComfortCorner | V.7

[i<3 wolves678]

She told me I wasn't important

She told me I should just move schools and give up

She told me I was horrible and selfish and am only nice when I want something

Not to mention her little friend

"Don't bother helping her, she isn't worth the time."

These women are here to help with my anxiety
Yet they've done more to damage me than any bully could've ever done

[Murdoc Is God.]

I get sad for no reason when I'm having fun, happy, or excited and I don't know why

Well, that can be caused by quite a few things. The most notable is Depression, however it could not be that. It could be caused by a flux in hormones, or tiredness, or being hungry. If you're not eating properly or sleeping well, then it can have an adverse effect on your health and overall well being. I would recommend a hot drink and hiding under a blanket with some snacks and watching youtube or a movie until the feeling goes. If, however, it's reoccurring, I would suggest talking to your doctor or parents about some support or just TLC.
Hope this helps
-Stu

[sewer connoisseur]

my world feels so small. I'm running around my little hamster wheel again

[ljus]

Whenever I'm laying in bed, I sometimes would have really grim thoughts.

And that's what keeps me up at night. I know one day my family and I would pass away. I'm terrified of death. I knew I was young and that I shouldn't be thinking about the day I'd die, but I can't help that. I haven't lost many family members or relatives except my grandfather at a young age, but thinking about my loved ones' deaths puts me over the edge. I guess you can say I'm thantophobic/death anxiety.

It's just so hard for me to get over this fear. When I was very young and my grandfather passed away, I was traumatized. It's been 6 years and I still think about his death. 2 years ago, my mom sat me down and talked to me. She told me that everyone would die some day. I'm more terrified of my family's deaths than anything else. I didn't want them to die but I knew that was unavoidable. I'm worried that my parents will only have 30 or more years left to live and I'm scared. Just plain scared.

If anyone actually took time out of their life to read this, then thanks. PM me if you want to talk anytime.

[onion]

my friends are all playinh d&d and im laying in bed alone left out. it feels great yknow!

[winged-backpack]

so, ive got this condition called aphantasia, which means that I can't visualise things. In other words, I have no minds eye.
And it kills me.
I read all the time, but it's just words on a page.
I write for fun, but I don't even know what the universe I'm creating looks like.
I can't see my best friends' faces if they're not right there in front of me.
It hurts because I know that I'm broken. Less than 5% of the entire population has it, and I've never met anyone else who does, and it kills me to know that I'm alone in this.
Why do I have to be broken?

[leverage]

I could really use some advise, and I don't know where else to turn.

My family is moving this summer; tomorrow, my parents are heading to the house we're mostly buying for the inspection. I haven't seen the house yet, and if I don't go to the inspection, I won't see the house until we move in.
The problem is, going would be a long and boring day. I don't do well in the car unless I'm the one driving, and it's a two hour drive to the place, and naturally a two hour return drive. The inspection would be 2-3 hours long of doing...nothing. Basically sitting around doing nothing in a house that's not yours sort of thing. I had really planned on spending tomorrow being productive in terms of commissions and writing as that's what I really enjoy, but if I go, that won't happen; I get carsick so I couldn't draw or write in the car. I might be able to take my laptop and one of the cars somewhere during the bulk of the inspection, perhaps sit at a Starbucks, but despite the fact that I'm an adult, my dad is against me heading somewhere else for a few hours? I don't really know why, it's not as though I'd be doing anything useful there, there's a good chance I'd just nap in the car or something, or bring my laptop and sit in the car and write off wifi.
On the other hand, if I don't go, I won't get to see the new house, and I don't love that idea. I need to fully understand a situation to feel comfortable, and it might be too taxing on my anxiety not to have seen the house.

Basically, I don't know what to do. The day just sounds like hell incarnate if I go, but I don't know if I'd be comfortable not going. But I'd be going just to feel sick and headache-y all day, so I don't know if that's great either.
If anyone has any advice or another angle, I could really use it; I'm completely at a loss.



edit;;
I'm just really upset by the intolerance in the world, and I know it's sort of silly to come on here complaining about the state of the world, but I just feel so...defeated. We've turned into a world of us-verses-them; so many people are prone to believing their side and refusing to hear the other side. And yes, I'm talking about every side of every issue; there's no side that's guilt-free. Too often, when we face differences in opinions, we dismiss them with off-handed insults, and refuse to even consider what led the other side to their opinion. You don't have to agree with them, but we owe it to each other as a people to hear each other out? Every person deserves a voice. I'm tired of seeing discussions fall to immature name-calling; certainly, we're better than that, right?
Why can't we just love our fellow human being? Why do we build the walls between ourselves and those who challenge us? This is something I know I'm guilty of, and I strive every day to become better, because what's the beauty in a world where we close our eyes to anyone who isn't just like us? Why are we creating such horrible conditions, why are we so divided? Disagreements aren't supposed to drive us apart like a wedge; disagreements are what challenge us to become better and to build something greater than ourselves. This world should be built on love and acceptance, not on hate and disregard for one another.
I know it's silly, but I wish we were able to move towards something better. There are so many amazing people in the world. Why are we shutting ourselves off?

[calculator]

How does someone so perfect, feel so insecure.

[lilac sky]

Small rant, Don't mind me....

Actual conversation that happened to me today. This is my Aunt, talking to one of her friends. "This is _____." she gestures towards me "Have you met her?" my Aunts friend: "I've heard about her.." *clears throat* "Lets keep it at that, shall we?" *walks off*. Ow, that hurt. WTH have my cousins been telling her about me to make her not want to talk to me???!

[sea glass.]

i really could use some cheering up right now.
this month has been so stressful, i've been working like a dog, and i'm so tired.
i'm not getting enough sleep. school is stressing me out like crazy.
i feel like everyone is expecting me to make all these big life decisions and i have no idea what i want to do and i'm second guessing myself on everything.
and to top it all off, there's this really great guy that my sister had her first "date" with tonight and i just feel so unneeded and unwanted. :c