TheComfortCorner | V.7

[winged-backpack]

I'm not even friends with her any more yet she's still draining me how can one person be so toxic honestly

(No need to reply, just ranting)

[Light Bringer]

"Life itself is worth living for.
If you're not living the life that you want, you fight for that life."
~ Jensen Ackles


Just came here to place another nice quote and say that my pm box is always open, so feel free to send a message asking for advice, ranting, looking for comfort or anything really.

[Swishy & Broken]

Please ignore me, I told myself I'd hold it all in but I need to feel like someone cares.. even if no one really does.

All I wanted was to feel better. All I wanted was to feel like it wasn't my fault for you two ignoring me..
Maybe I deserved you to hate me, even if you say you didn't. Maybe I deserve to feel like I do now.
You started dating, and ya, it was sad bc I liked you. But then she started ignoring me, when she was the one who I could always count on for plans. I understand, I was probably the worst possible option for a "friendship" but.. it hurt. Thinking you hated me, trying to force myself to stop thinking about you. She never cared about me until it was over, but then she started ignoring me when you got back together. I really felt like it was my fault, and it is. It's my fault she dumped me out of her life even though I was trying to be the best possible friend I could be (especially to such an unknowingly toxic person_). I know it's my fault she feels the need to say I'm the one who can't be trusted, even though she told her ex all about how she was jealous of me. You never knew, it's not your fault, but.. it's over. We can't be friends, and I deserve to feel as bad as I do.

For anyone who cares ;;
I met this girl, and this guys (person Z) separately. She was dating person X, but they broke up because he was too sad and she was bored after a year or so. Person Z and the girl became my friend before person X + the girl broke up, and the girl invited us (person Z, Myself, and a whole lot of other people) over a whole lot to hang out and have fun. I started to like person Z, who I never told bc I have a boyfriend but let's ignore that I'm actual scum for now. The girl stopped inviting me over so much for some reason, probably bc I had to start visiting my dad a state over bc of the divorce so I wasn't always free. Anyways, person Z and the girl got together. And then I suddenly wasn't invited to anything, for any reason. I blamed myself and I really missed person Z, who had also stopped messaging me.
School started again, and they broke up for some reason. I apologized to person Z (I probably shouldn't have, I had no reason to), after the girl just decided to start messaging me again on her own free will. Then they got together again for homecoming, and I spent the night at my friends [not the girl, a different person] house sobbing bc I realized I still liked person Z and my heart hurt again. I tried a lot of things to try to get out of feeling bad, but they didn't work in the long run (!! NOT THINGS I COULD GET IN TROUBLE ON CS FOR POSTING !!) . Somewhere in there the girl told me I'm untrustworthy for some reason?
And recentlyish, I apologized to the girl and have been trying to talk to her more, and I told person Z I like them (yea, I still have a boyfriend shoot me I'm so terrible (': ) so I would maybe feel better. That basically ruined my friendship with person Z, which I guess I'm fine with. Anyways, I told the girl and she was like 'Someone asked him to prom '.'' and I was like 'hey, person Z, I think your [ex atm] may think it was me o.o''' and he told her. she confronted me and basically said 'you know who it is you're just not telling me, you don't need to tell him everything I say this is why you're untrustworthy' And I told her "?? I don't tho, but good excuse.. I'm sorry that when YOU threw me out I felt like it was my fault. I'll leave u alone." [actual quote] ..

I made a mess of everything, like always. I just wanted to feel better about what happened with her and I, I wanted to feel like it wasn't my fault so I tried to get close to her again. I know she's bad for me, I know she doesn't think through what she says [that's another story, let's just say she's pretty rude and hurtful], but I feel bad for her [she has exactly 1 friend, who talks bad about her behind her back but if I told her she wouldn't believe me] and I want to try to be here if she needs someone.. I just wanted to try to feel better and I never do anything for myself anyways..
Maybe I should just stop, stop trying to feel better and have friends with people who leave me any chance they get. I get it, I'm not wealthy and I'm not pretty. I'm sorry I even tried.

And end,, I'd appreciate if anyone responds that it's in PM and not on the thread. I don't want to clog the thread with my stupidstory.

[Velveteen Hound.]

Oh honey, you really need to stop in advertantly rubbing your conquest in my face. I've accepted this is the way things are, and I actualy am happy for the both of you. However, I promise I can out witch you if needed, you don't want to play this game. This sudden pissyness of me taking his time needs to stop now. He was mine long before he was yours, in fact if it weren't for me the two of you would never of happened. So sit back and enjoy the ride, I am no threat to you, but you better believe if I need his help I am going to ask for it and vice versa.

[XIII DEATH]

I'm still working hard to get my breather. I must now prepare for my final math exam and extra credit English assignment, but the hardest of the work is done. Meanwhile, I am extremely concerned for my friend, my family's financial state, and my own emotional state.

Comfort unnecessary. I just wanted to get this out somewhere.

[leverage]

I've got a psychology exam this evening. Though I'm normally a fine exam-taker, I keep running into problems on these exams. Last psych exam, the prof put a bunch of questions from the textbook despite never once mentioning the textbook in class. I, naturally, decided that since the prof never once mentioned anything about the topic, that I didn't need to study it. That backfired, and I ended up with a lower grade than I should have had. The exam before that the program wasn't working on my laptop the way it was supposed to, but you can't exactly fix that in the middle of the exam, so I just ended up being majorly held back and didn't do so great because of how frustrated I was.
Well, I need to do well on this exam to, you know, make up for the last two; but we'll see how well it works out...I'm really nervous that something is going to come up, and I'll get a lower grade than I should because of it.

And tomorrow I've got a biology final exam. Last exam I and everyone else did poorly because he decided to make half of the exam out of a single table in the textbook, despite having 100+ textbook pages to work from that we were expected to know. He didn't seem to much care that the average was exceptionally low? However, grad schools and med schools don't ask for an explanation about low grades on your transcript, so I have got to pull up my scores on this last exam in order to make up for that, and the fact that the prof for the first half of the semester wrote exams that just did not work for me. So my grade is lower than it should be for how well I feel I know the information. This is my last chance to not screw it up, and though I feel like I know the chapters well, you never really know what they're going to ask...

Exams are so stressful. Thank god they're almost over; Thursday I'll be finished, and Friday I get to go home for the summer. I'm so excited to get home and leave my university behind for a few months.

[kittykore]

I have a bad pain between my rib cage slightly lower anyone know what that is?

It's now making it hard to breath I can barley focus in class.

[wriolette enjoyer]

If anyone needs comfort, my PM's are widely open! Feel free to send a PM, don't be shy :D
I go trough a lot, too, so I'm very sorry if replies are slow!
I'll listen to any story, any problem, and we'll figure out the way out,
for every problem, there are infinite solution!

[coincidence.]

I have a bad pain between my rib cage slightly lower anyone know what that is?

It's now making it hard to breath I can barley focus in class.

Pinched nerve? I'm not sure but my friend has something like that once and a while and she said she had a pinched nerve.

[deer prince]

Stressful day. Registered at college, got a scholarship, but I still have to do loans. Wow. Also I'm super gay and not okay.