Riversong chuckled as Rumbletail told stories to her kits.
She silently hoped they remembered this as she thought it was really cute and sweet.
"And the fish was huge! Almost gave me carp-al tunnel to hold..."
The queen snorted loudly and meowed
"That was terrible."
"Naw youngin best joke from a amazing story."
Meanwhile Bassthorn thought about what had happened at the gathering.
He circled the medicinecat den annoyed.
He felt strange around Riversong and than Willowcloud.
But what were these emotions?
Suddenly he heard a laugh from the nursery and his reaction was to flinch.
Thoughts of the kits,Elkstep and Riversong hit him like a landslide.
Why did her happiness bother him so?
'Because you can't have that.' his mind told him
Wait where did that come from?
But he couldn't help but think of it and suddenly after awhile he realized.
He fell for others so easily because he would never have them.
He wanted a family but his love of being a medicine cat stopped him.
Why were medicine cats destend to be alone?
Couldn't they do their duties and be happy also?
Bassthorn didn't get it. But he knew why he stuffed his emotions.
If he had one thing he would lose the other.
Losing his dream of being a medicinecat would be the end of him.
After all loyalty to your clan and job came first.
Bassthorn had paws in both worlds his mind swirled as his emotions came forth.
Jeliously,sadness, and anger. His eyes misted.
"Bassthorn its time for another moonpool visit."
"Wha...what." Bassthorn stuttered,looking at the entrance
Ashstar had walked in without the medicinecat noticing. The leader stood there looking confused at him. Bassthorn forced calmness apon himself.
Forget Riversong and her happy family. Forget Willowcloud.
Thinking about them. Really he shouldn't have dared.
"What should I ask?" Bassthorn asked Ashstar
"Well we need more warriors."
Bassthorn's inner thoughts turned cynical.
Great more cats. Maybe another handsome or pretty cat to sweep the medcat of his paws and
clear his cursed life forever. He knew it to be true as his mind suddenly went to Willowcloud.
Fantastic a crush. He lifted one of his paws off the ground and looked at it.
Perhaps he'd see her again? Or perhaps she would move on...who cared anymore?
"Of course i look forward to our clan getting bigger." Bassthorn lied smoothly
Ashstar didn't notice the inner struggle and nodded happily.
"Thank you Bassthorn."
Hmm yes thank you Bassthorn. The leader remained blissfully unaware of the medcat's sacrifices. Ashstar left to round up a patrol. Bassthorn left for the moonpool.
As he left he allowed his gaze to darken. His anger came forth and his claws slid out.
There was no point to these emotions really they would go away like always and leave him hollow. Thats what he should be for his clan. Hollow.
{Riversong ,kits at camp}
{Ashstar,whiteheart,birdstorm,woodenpaw ,Elkstep on hunting patrol
bassthorn to moonpool to ask for warrior
rumbletail,hanging out at camp telling stories to the kits and mother
Rumbletail please 