TheComfortCorner | V.7

[shirl]

i originally had something posted here but i can't delete it so i'm posting this

[ThyVampire]

Never mind.

[Radiation King]

[[I did it right
I did it right
and the thing still counted it wrong
I got a C. On the entire assignment. Because it wouldn't let me get past one problem - which I did correctly
according to an actual engineer - and it still counted it wrong. Except for the variable names I just copied
the exact code directly from the example that the book gave. And the other problems were the exact same
thing so I couldn't move ahead or earn more points. Literally had a 100% in the class until a half hour ago.
I don't even want to do any of this in the first place. I don't like programming. I was forced into it. I don't
even understand what's going on half the time and I most certainly don't want to spend the rest of my life
confined behind a computer doing this as my job. It's not my place in life. I prefer just about anything else.
I think I'm done being a perfectionist. No more. It's not even worth my effort or stressing over.
I just. I don't ask for much I just want them to be proud of me but if this is the only way to achieve that -
it's not even worth it. I don't even know why I've still been trying even though they've made it obvious that
no matter how hard I try or how much I accomplish I'll always just be a worthless piece of garbage.
I'm never useful until someone needs some kind of help with something and as soon as that's finished with
I'm just casually tossed aside. I don't know why I keep expecting things to turn out differently.]]

[n3rvous]

every day i go to my mirror and look at myself
i'm not perfect. i'm not beautiful. that's what they say, anyway.
i remember when i was happy, when i was free to be who i wanted. the real me, not the hungry me, not the sore me, not the tired me. i'm constantly forgetting who i am, and it feels like everything around me is just... wrong. my dreams are only beliefs; they'll never happen. it'd be a miracle but it isn't gonna happen.
i always ask myself if i look perfect but it's always the same answer... even if i try to tell myself i'm worth it, i don't seem to listen. i appear to always ignore myself. i forgot what i have to do to become popular, to become pretty, to become like all the other girls. the more i try to stand up for myself, the less it works. i always think i have the power to be confident but i always get beaten. i'll never win. i never have.
every single word i use to describe myself is negative. every single one. fat, ugly, useless, annoying, horrible, loner. much more. you name it, i'll either be it or won't be it. there is no in between. not in my world.
sometimes it's hard to believe in myself. all the time actually. i never believe in myself and that's the problem. but i can't not not believe in myself when all everyone does is put me down. i'm too weak.
i'm never left alone. can they just go away? can they not see how much they're hurting me? i've had to see a therapist but that didn't work either. all the long, real talks we have, they make me stressed...

please help. i don't know how to stop myself..

[rutilant]

Little disappointed at our community right now.
Decided to make a little species for fun. Just some coot little emo wolves because they're adorable and it fits my sort of style.
There's a Tumblr CS Confessions form that a lot of people do go to. My friend just went on there and discovered a lot of people bashing on my new species. It's hurtful in a lot of ways and makes me extremely insecure. A LOT of people tend to bash on free adoptable species when people take a LOT of time working on designs, the forms, the lines... Like seriously? Can this be any more immature?
I don't know. Just decided to vent a little bit. Thank you Comfort Corner. ;w;
Edit: (Not even sure if anybody is gonna backfire me saying I'm a triggered emo. Has happened before.)

what they said about your species is absolutely disgusting and nobody deserves having that said to someone, especially anonymously because they're too scared to actually say it to your face and there's a good chance you'll never know who they are. personally, i think it looks really cool, and i'm sure other people do as well. in every community there are some rude people here and there, you can't avoid it really. most of the community is actually very sweet, but there are always some people that might not seem very sweet, no matter the community. i recommend you try staying off this page because you don't deserve any of this being said to you (anonymously) about your amazing species. i know you said your friend found it, but after discovering that page i hope you don't go back very often. because some people, like you said, are extremely immature about certain things like this. if they don't like it, they should keep to themselves. don't worry, i really hope nobody here (tcc) is going to call you a triggered emo because you're not and that's just not nice whatsoever. your species is amazing and i hope you keep up the amazing work, despite their cruel comments.

[Thalassic]

tfw your best friend tags a photo of her and someone else as #bestfriends

hurts a lil :')

I'm not a best friend to anyone.. it's all I really want, but everyone keeps leaving me..

[rutilant]

tfw your best friend tags a photo of her and someone else as #bestfriends

hurts a lil :')

I'm not a best friend to anyone.. it's all I really want, but everyone keeps leaving me..

it's probably not the case that she doesn't want to be your best friend anymore or anything, she might just have another best friend as a lot of people do have more than one best friend. you should try talking to her about it, perhaps when you have the time. you'll eventually find a best friend if she doesn't think of you as one who won't leave you. might take some time, but you'll get there.

[hellebore]

every day i go to my mirror and look at myself
i'm not perfect. i'm not beautiful. that's what they say, anyway.
i remember when i was happy, when i was free to be who i wanted. the real me, not the hungry me, not the sore me, not the tired me. i'm constantly forgetting who i am, and it feels like everything around me is just... wrong. my dreams are only beliefs; they'll never happen. it'd be a miracle but it isn't gonna happen.
i always ask myself if i look perfect but it's always the same answer... even if i try to tell myself i'm worth it, i don't seem to listen. i appear to always ignore myself. i forgot what i have to do to become popular, to become pretty, to become like all the other girls. the more i try to stand up for myself, the less it works. i always think i have the power to be confident but i always get beaten. i'll never win. i never have.
every single word i use to describe myself is negative. every single one. fat, ugly, useless, annoying, horrible, loner. much more. you name it, i'll either be it or won't be it. there is no in between. not in my world.
sometimes it's hard to believe in myself. all the time actually. i never believe in myself and that's the problem. but i can't not not believe in myself when all everyone does is put me down. i'm too weak.
i'm never left alone. can they just go away? can they not see how much they're hurting me? i've had to see a therapist but that didn't work either. all the long, real talks we have, they make me stressed...

please help. i don't know how to stop myself..

First off, you should not be so concerned with your looks. They do not matter. They are not a measure of your worth. In fact, not others nor yourself can measure your worth, no matter what you or others say. The quote that beauty comes from within may sound cliche, but it is cliche because it is true. If you were judged as beautiful by the standards of those people, what would it matter if you were cruel like them? Those who condescend you for your looks-- do they look beautiful to you? If so, you are wearing the wrong pair of eyes. Others who know of their behavior will also see them for what they are. Love doesn't last and can't be true when someone's looks are the source of admiration, as something nasty boils underneath. These people who put you down may not be blind to your true beauty. They may be insecure themselves and take it out on those that they deem vulnerable.
Your beauty lies in who you are as a person. Who you are is not your appearance nor your emotions; it is your hopes and dreams, what you love and hate, what you enjoy doing, and similar such things.

You say that you have dreams and that they'll never happen. When we speak such strong words, it often becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you firmly believe you cannot, you are less likely to put in your full effort because what's the point, anyway, if you'll only fail? Tell yourself you can. You don't have to believe it-- you can't force yourself to believe anything. Tell yourself you can anyway. Say you want it badly and you therefore will achieve it. Like I said, you don't have to believe it, but repeat it and/or think it to yourself whenever you begin to doubt.

You mentioned becoming popular. I don't know what level of schooling you are in, but trust me, do not worry about something so ephemeral and meaningless. It literally means nothing, so don't stress about pursuing it. You are in school to learn so that you may succeed in life, not so that you may climb a social ladder that will dissolve once you move on to the next level of schooling. Being "popular" may seem nice, but it's full of fake friends, real enemies, drama, distractions, and superficial elements. It's too much negative for the nothing it's worth.

It sounds like you are surrounded by cruel people. If you are being assigned places/assignments with them, speak with the teachers about your problem. If you are around them anyway, try to stay away from them and still notify the teachers. If they seek you out so you cannot stay away from them, notify the teachers. See the pattern? Schools have rules against bullying and harassment. Review your student handbook or school website. That behavior cannot be tolerated.

You are beautiful, loved, capable, and destined for great things. Not what you say, nor what others say, can change that fact.

[aurora❅lights]

I hate my brother so much that I cannot put it into words.
He is ALWAYS blaming me for things I didn´t even do.
He ALWAYS rats me out.
He NEVER lives up to his mistakes.
He belittles me, offends me, calls me names,
and then acts like I´m the one who´s doing
everything wrong?
I´m just done.
Honestly.

[*Infinity*]

I hate my brother so much that I cannot put it into words.
He is ALWAYS blaming me for things I didn´t even do.
He ALWAYS rats me out.
He NEVER lives up to his mistakes.
He belittles me, offends me, calls me names,
and then acts like I´m the one who´s doing
everything wrong?
I´m just done.
Honestly.

Brothers can be real jerks. I have three, and they have always been trouble and got me into trouble. I know first hand where you are coming from.

It is not easy to escape or avoid a sibling. I mean, c'mon, they live in the same house as you.

Most of the time the harassment comes because they are lonely and don't have any real friends to spend time with. Most of the time sibling see other siblings as a possession and not a real person, and because of that have a hard time feeling empathy for one another.

You can do a little bit to change that. Talk to you parents sit them down and ask them to hear you out before replying. Try writing a letter to your brother, telling him what is annoying you (give a copy to your parents, too, so they know). Try to find some common ground. My brothers and me would piece together radios and listen to music late at night. We played boardgames, but would make up "house rules" and play for hours. What interests do you have in common?

There will come a day when your brother has to realize that you are not his plaything, you are an individual. There will come a day when he is coming to you asking for your help. There will come a day when he is not the worst person you face.

Question is, when that day comes, what will you do? Who will you be?

Don't give up. Stand up, take your dignity and do something. You can't let this go on any longer!

Be strong. We are here for you!